Do you remember me? (skz fanfiction)

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Hyunjin PoV

No no no no no no no. 

That couldn't happen. I looked at Jeongin. Tears ran down his face. It was awful to see him like that. It looked like he had already given up and wanted us to leave him behind.

Jisung's hand was still on my shoulder. He tried to tell me that we'll manage to get Jeongin here as well. 

The youngest wiped away his tears and said something I didn't understand. It was this damn invisible wall in front of us how could I have understood him? The next moment he closed the door and I stared at that door. I did nothing but stare at that door. Why had he closed it?

And the door stayed closed. It didn't open again. So I ran to it and ripped it open. Jeongin was gone. . And the door didn't lead back. The door no longer led back into our world. It was a door that just stood there.

 The next moment my knees hit the ground and I sat there speechless. I could feel everyone's eyes on my back and I wanted them to stop. If only they had listened to me. "I knew something was wrong! Why didn't you listen to me?! Why?!" I screamed without looking at them. I couldn't look at tham. I didn't want to look at tham. "Hyunjin-" Changbin said but I cut him off. "Shut up! Just shut the fuck up! All of you! It's your fault! You didn't listen to me!"

"We'll find a way, I promise," Chan said but I just kept yelling at him. "You always say that! You always say that we will make it, that we will find a way! But where did that lead us? We left one of our friends behind! We left Jeongin behind! And Chan you knew very well that I had those visions! You knew exactly what was happening in them! Of course you thought they were just dreams, but as you can see, they're more than damn dreams!" 

"Hyunjin please-" 

"No! No! You could have prevented it! You could have gone in last then he wouldn't be alone now! Or you could have stopped us from going in!" Then it was quiet, nobody said anything and I had the feeling that it was for the best. 

Maybe I should just go my way alone. Maybe they were better off without me anyway. Maybe then I wouldn't bother them so much.

I got up and turned to the others without looking at them. Jisung was still standing very close to me. He looked like he was really worried. He and I fought a lot at the facility at first, but then we got along really well. It was almost like he was my second best friend. Everyone here had become so important to me, but maybe leaving them alone was the right thing to do.

"I will continue on my own. Maybe one day I'll hear from you again. Maybe we'll meet again. But I have to get away from you. I'm sorry," I said, turning around. I slowly began to move away from them. I felt like nobody would run up to me and ask me to stay with them. But I wished for it. I knew deep down that leaving them now would be a huge mistake.

And the next moment a hand grabbed my wrist and turned me around. I saw Jisung with tears in his eyes. He yelled at me, "How can you even think about leaving us alone?! Yes it sucks that Jeongin isn't here! But we will find a way! We will always find a way! You can't just leave!" Watching Jisung get so emotional brought tears to my eyes too. I hugged the smaller one and buried my face in his shoulder. I sobbed into his shoulder and felt more people suddenly join the hug. They all started hugging us.

How could I even think of leaving them?

Jan 29th 2023