Forever Lost

Chapter 17

Flynn climbs on the bed and spreads my legs and kneels between them. "We have to be quick or they will come looking," he growls. "Knowing you, you won't take long."
He puts his hands on the inside of my thighs and pushes them apart. He lowers his face down between my legs and I clamp them shut. "Flynn," I protest.
He quickly pushes my legs apart again, "Don't," he warns. "I can smell you, now I have to taste you."
"No," I whimper.
"Why?" he growls. Tears fall from my face, "Fuck, why are you crying now?" he panics. "Ri, tell me." It's endearing to know that the bad boy becomes weak over my crying. I can't help it but he's cute.
"I. . ." I shake my head as the tears fall. "You'll be unfinished and then when I'm gone you'll run back to her and it will be like I've given her you on a plate," I say all too fast.
He glares at me, "You want me to fuck you so I won't be left frustrated?" I nod. "If you want me to fuck you, you have it. Now let me taste you first," I nod and he lowers his face to the apex of my thighs and my back arches as his tongue makes impact with my clit.
His tongue continues its sweet assault. "Flynn," I gasp. I grip his hair and he groans. He uses his fingers to prize open my walls so his tongue can go deeper and I throw my head back on the pillow. My chest is rising up and down erratically. "Flynn," I beg. He moves his hand to my boob and I call out as I spiral.
He removes his mouth from my pussy and I whimper. "So beautiful and so sweet," I shut my eyes as I hear him removing his jeans. He pulls me onto his lap and he eases me onto his cock and I groan. "It's you, Ri, only you. Hear me, I love you. I want you."
I bury my face in his neck and I start moving up and down as I come back around. He assists me by holding my hips. "Why won't you let me in?"
"Because you broke me," I pant.
"What can I do?" he begs. "I'll do anything, please," he says breathlessly as he continues to flex his hips.
"Don't," I beg. "Give up on me," I plead.
"Never," he promises. He kisses my lips, I'm lost in him again. I don't know how long we stay like this but I soon tire. "Come on Ri, trust me. Let go with me," he growls. I bury my face in his neck and I sink my teeth into his neck and he growls as we come apart. Why am I fighting him so hard? He's all I want and he's begging for me to come back to him.
He's trying so hard yet, I still can't let him in. I need to be close to him but I can't give in yet. He lowers us onto the bed so we lay on our sides. He pushes the hair out of my face and I keep my eyes closed. "Is that better?" he asks and I nod. "Good," he kisses my forehead and I smile. After a few minutes he gets up and starts to dress me again.
"No," I protest.
"Are you saying you want to stay in my bed? I'll happily grant your wish," he chuckles. When I'm dressed I pull him back to lay in front of me and I rest my face on his neck. "Hmm, definitely keeping you hostage."
"Flynn," I whine.
"You're so stubborn. Fine, let's get you downstairs before I handcuff you to the bed." He climbs out of bed and lifts me into his arms. He starts walking and I wrap my arms around his neck.
I'm transferred into new arms, "If she gets tired you need to carry her and if she needs me, call me. You better look after her," Flynn growls.
"Sure babe, she's safe with me," Jax says and I open my eyes. Jax looked after me for months. He knows me second best. He knows me because I tell him everything. Whereas, Flynn knows me because he can see into my soul.
"I need the details later, I know you didn't just brush your teeth," he winks at me and I laugh. "Tell me handcuffs were used again," Jax demands.
"You told him?" Flynn growls.
"Don't get grouchy or I'll keep you hostage. You're only sane in the bedroom," Flynn and Jax laugh. Flynn kisses my forehead. "Jax, I can walk," he sets me on my feet but holds my hand. "Is Miley coming with us or what?"
"She wants to stay with her Uncle Tyler," Mom says as she comes into view. I laugh loudly, "Yeah, he's not that keen on it."
"He tries, that's all that counts. I'll say goodbye first," I walk into the living room and Miley is giggling away on Tyler's lap with Ruby next to him. Scarlett is the other side of Ruby. "I'll see you later honey."
Miley stops laughing and runs towards me. She holds her hands out to me and I lift her up. "Mommy," she clings to me. "Hurry back to me," she begs. 
    "Of course honey," I promise. I settle her back on her feet and she runs back to Tyler. I walk out of the room and I slide my hand back into Jax's. Mom is already waiting at Jax's car. I assumed she'd take her car. "Mom, are you not driving?"
     "No, I thought you'd prefer your friend to drive," I raise my eyebrow. When does my opinion normally count? She slides in the back. Okay then. Jax holds my door and I flop in. He walks around to the other side and he starts the car. "So, Jax. What is it you do?"
   Is this her game? She can let Jax drive whilst she interrogates him? "I am the manager of the ice rink that Riley works at." He's taking it all in his stride. He starts the car and Mom directs him which way to go when needed. He slides his warm hand in my cold one.
    "And do you plan to stay manager there forever?" He's been pretty good in letting me carry on working there, I just can't skate.
    "Mom," I snap. "Cut it out," I growl.
    "It's okay babe," he squeezes my hand. "No, Mrs Blake. My Dad is planning to give me the business when I turn 25."
     "Okay, so, you made my daughter go to the Doctor?" Fuck my life!
    "Yes, in fact, I made her go to all her appointments and personally escorted her myself."
    "Really? How close are you with my daughter?" he looks over to me and grins. I blush recalling that memory! He shifts his eyes back on the road.
    "Close, she's my best friend. I'll do anything to protect her and look after her."
    "Flynn said you were gay. Lee said that you're her boyfriend. Which one is it?"
    "Mom!" I scold although Jax is grinning.
    "It's okay babe," he reassures me. "Well, I'm definitely a boy and her friend. Does that count? I've told her before I'll be that if she needs it. Even marry her." He laughs loudly, "But to answer your question. I am gay, very much in so."
    "Okay," she says as if she's given up with her intrusive questions. "Call me Abigail honey."
    Jax smiles brightly, "Did I pass your test?" he chuckles.
     "Yes, Honey. I like you and you are good for my daughter. I had to be sure of your intentions with my daughter. I'm team Flynn," she says without embarassment.
     "Oh trust me, I'm team Hottie too," they both laugh and I scowl. I pull my hand away from his but he grabs my hand again and I give up fighting him. "Come on babe!"
    "Well, I'm team Flynn and Scarlett," I retaliate.
    "Honey, don't say that!" Mom threatens.
    "Babe, shut up," Jax glares at me and I roll my eyes. Jax pulls up at the mall and cuts the engine. I climb out the car and he comes to me and kisses my forhead. He cups my bump. "Are you sleeping little munchkin?"
     "Yeah, think so," I agree and he takes my hand. Mom leads the way but constantly looks back at us. She walks into a store and we casually just follow. She leads me to the bra section and I roll my eyes.
     "Honey, you need a good supportive bra. Your breasts have enlarged and your old ones just won't do," she informs. She picks some off the racks and Jax carries them. "Oh, thanks Honey," she says to Jax. She literally scoured the whole store and I'm shattered. From maternity jeans which I already had but she made me get more clothes to anti-sickness bands which I doubt will work.
     I've got a more reliable aid at home. My heart aches for him already. What if he's with Scarlett right now? It's what I wanted though right? I pull my phone out and ring Flynn. "Ri?" I don't say anything. "Miley is fine," he assures me. I still don't reply. He sighs, "What's wrong baby? Do you need me to come and get you?"
    "No, I'm okay. I just. . ." How do I tell him of my insecurities when I keep urging him to get back with Scarlett? "Miss you," I whisper hoping he won't hear me.
     "Well come home then, I'm missing you and my baby," I smile. He always knows the right things to say to me. "Ri, I know it's hard for you with Scar around but I love you. I need you, I've always needed you."
    "I need you too," I admit. Fuck, why did I say that?
    "Fuck, can you hurry home, please? I want you here, in my arms," I'd like that very much.
    "Babe, you want to model these for me?" Jax holds my bras up and I laugh slapping him away. "What? I need to examine that they fit correctly. I can do that as your best friend. Wouldn't want you to have sore boobs."
    I hear Flynn growl, "He can't do that as your best friend!"
    "Apparently, you can't do that," I tell Jax amused and he throws his head back and laughs.
    "Not apparently, Ri, over my dead body."
    "He's a bit overprotective, isn't he? He knows I'm gay, right?" Of course, he knows. I dread to think how he would react if he knew we had sex. "Boobs aren't exactly my thing." Oh but his mouth knew what to do with them.
    "Please tell me you're on your way home?" Flynn begs.
    "If you ring my Mom and make some excuse to go home I'll--"
    "Tell him you'll let him use those handcuffs again," Jax insists and I laugh.
    "What he said, Mom is going overboard on this shopping trip. I'm tired and she's literally going to buy the whole store," I complain.
    "Honey, look at this," Mom holds up a tummy belt and I nod. I just want to go home. "Come on, there is still lots more to buy," she insists and I sigh. I love her being so eager, I do. It warms my cold heart but I've had enough today.
    Flynn laughs, "Please, save me or I won't let you fuck me again. She listens to you," he laughs loudly again.
    "Fine, but I do like his idea of the handcuffs. Don't talk dirty to me now because I'm already hard and waiting for you. I've got this, you'll be home within twenty minutes." He hangs up and I slide my phone in my pocket.
   Jax is carrying loads of shit that Mom bought. She even bought a damn tummy shield belt thing for the car. Mom returns to our aisle minutes later. "Honey, let's get going. We will pay for these items and then head home." I look at Jax and we grin at each other. "What are you two grinning at?"
    "Nothing," we both say and chuckle. She shakes her head and we head to the till and Jax holds all the bags. I think my Mom is really warming to him. Jax places all the stuff in the boot but holds the belt package.
     "Jax, Honey, can you set this up?" he nods. I roll my eyes and Jax walks to my door and opens it. He puts the cushion in and I look out into the car park. I feel like a kid that needs a baby seat. Once Jax is finished he grabs my hips and pushes me in the car.
    He leans over me to do the belt up and he pushes the bottom part of the belt into the slot between my legs. He leans towards my ear, "Hottie, is going to love this," he smirks. He kisses my forehead and pulls away from me and shuts the door. He walks around to his side and climbs in. Mom is already in the back and Jax belts up and sets off towards home.
    He holds my hand again and I shut my eyes. "How bad has she really been, Jax?" I hear Mom say but I'm too tired to respond.
   "Honestly? Bad, although she's been so good with Miley. She may have this wall up but she wants nothing more than to let Flynn back. She was planning to run, just to give Flynn the life he wanted. I tried to get her to tell him but she's stubborn. They were really worried about her heart but it was under control a couple of weeks after she found out.
    "I made her go to her heart appointments. I went with her, I was the support she needed but not the one she truly wanted. I stayed over a lot because although she never said, she was lonely and she needed company. I don't know if it's because I'm gay or we are just that close that she's accepted me.
"She would call me in the middle of the night after a nightmare and I head straight over and hold her.
    "She always pushes others away. Although she liked Ric, she ended it with him just because she was pregnant. She didn't want anyone to know before Flynn. She sacrificed her own happiness to protect Flynn. He's hot and all but I resent him for doing this to her. But at the same time, he didn't know what he was doing to her. She was constantly sick in his presence so she tried to keep away from him."
     "I'm glad she's not with Ricardo anymore, he wasn't right for her," Mom voices her opinion.
     "Why wasn't he? He may have sponged of her but he was exactly what she needed him to be. He wanted more, so much more. He wanted to look after her, he wanted to be her boyfriend. She wouldn't let him. He loves her, even now. He acted the way he did for her. The minute he over stepped the mark she would push him out. So he kept acting the way she wanted him to. You can't judge him when all he wanted to do was care for her."
    "He could have tried harder, you can do it."
    "He tried with everything he had. He wasn't Flynn, he's the only one that can. She says that he destroyed the bridge to her soul. No one can get in. He was literally at the foot of the bridge begging to be let in but it was literally just whispers to her. He loved her so he did anything she wanted to stay in her life. He was crushed when she ended it. Like I said, I think it's because I am gay, she knows I don't want anything like that from her."
     "Is that what it is? Guys make her uncomfortable?"
     "I'd say so," I drift into sleep.
     I wake to burning hands on my tummy. "Two minutes to spare baby," he says when I open my eyes. He undoes my seat belt and gasps, "What is this? This is hot. We need to play with this in our car."
     He unclips the belt from the holder between my legs, "Your car," I mumble.
     "Our car, I never changed the paperwork," I sigh. Of course, he didn't. He lifts me out of the car and I cling to his neck. "Has she been okay?"
     "Course she has Hottie, she was with me," he boasts and I smile against Flynn's neck.
     "Thank you," Flynn says but it seems genuine. Is he warming to Jax?
     "You can make it up to me later babe," I feel Flynn tense underneath me. I imagine Jax winked at him. It's his style.
      "Do you want to sleep some more or sit downstairs?"
       "Sleep," I whisper. "Jax," I lift my hand and he places his in mine.
       "No," Flynn protests. "With me around you aren't having another guy in your bed. Or mine to be exact."
       "Threesomes don't do it for you then? What a shame," Jax jokes.
       "Shut up," tears fall from my face. "Fuck, don't cry," Flynn panics. "Fine, whatever you want," he sighs. I feel him walking until I'm lowered into bed. I feel the dog jump on the bed and lays on my legs. The bed dips either side of me. A burning hand slides into my right hand and Jax slides his in mine on the other side. "Thank you."
     "For what?"
      "For looking after her when I didn't," Flynn sounds so sad.
      "Don't go soft on me now, I like the bad boy attitude," Jax jokes. "You know how much you hurt her, right?"
      "Yes," he sighs. "I know, her pain is my pain," I feel it radiating off him. "It was never supposed to be like this. Since I met her, I always saw our life going one way. Was she scared?"
     "Yes, Every appointment, every baby scan she was a bag of nerves. She thought they'd take Miley away from her. She even thought your girlfriend would take her away."
     "Excuse me? Scar would never do that. I would never let that happen. Miley would never let that happen. She's her Mom, no one else. And she's not my girlfriend anymore, Riley is."
     "You know what she's like," Jax chuckles.
     "Stubborn, frustrating, pain in my ass?"
      Jax laughs, "Yes but also, caring, loving, passionate, beautiful and we love her," Jax strokes my hair and I smile.
     "Are you sure you're gay?" Flynn asks.
     "Do you need me to prove it to you, Hottie? Come here," Jax laughs. I feel movement on the bed.
     "Alright, stop," Flynn groans. I fall asleep whilst they continue to talk.
     I wake to burning lips peppering kisses all over my face. "Flynn," I groan. I wasn't ready to wake yet.
     "It's dinner time baby," I lightly slap his face so he stops kissing my face. I don't want to wake right now. "You need to eat," he demands. I'm lifted out of bed but I'm too tired to cling to him. I feel him walking until I'm lowered onto a seat. I look around the table and everyone is here. Nanny and Pop's, I didn't realise they were still here. Plus Jax and Scarlett.
    Miley climbs on my lap and I hug her as she faces forward. "So, pool party later," Tyler says. He nudges me, "You better sleep now, you've turned into an old granny sleeping all the time."
    "Don't be rude, Tyler, I'll whoop your ass," Nanny scolds.
    "It's not like I was calling you old," Tyler protests.
    "You better not be because I would whoop you then," I smile. This is normal, this banter. I find myself strangely missing this.
     I look at my bowl and cornflakes are in it. I'm fed up with it already. It doesn't appeal to me at all! Everyone eats their beef curry and I sigh. I get up and place Miley on my seat. "Ri?" Flynn calls as I walk out of the dining room and I walk into the kitchen. I find my pickles and my ice cream and I return to the table. "Ri, they said dry food."
     "Good for them," I mutter. I try opening the jar but I can't open it again.
     I hold the jar out to Flynn and he shakes his head. "Eat your cornflakes first." I roll my eyes. I stand up and place Miley back down again. "What are you doing now?" I walk to Jax and hold the jar out to him and he takes it from me and undoes it. I place a sloppy kiss on his cheek.
     "Thank you," he grabs my hips and pulls me onto his lap and I hear Flynn growl. He goes for my jar but I pull them out of his reach. "No, they're mine," I protest and Jax laughs.
      "Oh, no reward for opening the jar for you? I thought you were desperate," he raises his eyebrow at me.
     "I am," I insist. "Fine," I mutter. I pull one out of the jar and hold it to his lips and he takes a bite. He chews never taking his eyes off me. I can feel Flynn burning the hell out of me. I know he's restless in his seat. Well, he should have opened my jar then.
In fact, I notice everyone's eyes on me. Oh yeah, I guess I don't share. Jax is an exception to the rule, I guess.
Jax grabs my hand and forces my thumb and finger in his mouth to get the rest of the pickle.
     "Can you stop?" Flynn growls.
     "Stop what, Hottie?" I remove my fingers from his mouth before Flynn loses his temper in front of Miley. "Tastes better on her, right?" I look at Flynn and his glare is literally murderous.
     I peck Jax's lips and I stand up and return to my seat but Flynn hastily pulls me onto his lap. "Don't make me jealous," he growls into my ear loud enough for only me to hear. He keeps his arm around me and I reach over to grab my ice cream and I grab a pickle and use it to scoop my ice cream.
    I ignore his jealousy, I love it but he makes me jealous and insecure all the time. Especially with Scarlett here. He places his hand on my tummy protectively as he starts eating again. Flynn offers me some of his curry and I open my mouth accepting it. He slides his fork in and I close my mouth around the fork and he withdraws the fork.
    I look over to Scarlett and she's watching us. She looks sad right now. Why is she here torturing herself? Could she not have stayed at their apartment? I know I said that I'd get Flynn back to her but I feel that's impossible now. Does she really want him back when he keeps saying he wants me? I'd be long gone if it was me. I'd literally sleep on the streets to avoid this.
    Once we finished our dinner I get Miley ready for bed. Once it hits her bedtime I put her to bed and read her a story and she's out like a light. Flynn walks into her room, he kisses her forehead and takes my hand and leads me into his bedroom. "I think you promised me something," he cups my face and his lips tenderly touch mine.
    I giggle, "What did you say to her?"
    "I just said that I needed you both home with me. If she didn't return you I'd have got you myself. She argued a bit but I said you belonged to me now and I needed you. Didn't take much to persuade her."
    "Well, thank you," I smile and kisses my lips.
    "Oh, I'm hoping for more than a thank you," he growls playfully. Hmm, okay, but we do this my way. I grin and he releases me to get the handcuffs. I hold my palms out and he frowns. He places them in my hands and I push him onto the chair. I kiss his neck as I walk behind him. I take his wrists and I cuff him to the chair before he objects. "Ri," he warns.
    "You wanted to play, this way, or no way," I smile and he frowns. He pulls against the restraints. I slowly remove my top and I drop it seductively on the floor.
    "Ri," he says agitated. I slide down my jeggings and kick them off. I stand in my underwear before him. He pulls against the restraints again. "Ri, I want to touch you. No, I need to," he growls. I walk towards him and lean over him and lightly brush my teeth against his neck. I reach for his jean button and I undo it.
    I go to pull them off and he helps me by lifting his hips. I remove them and I place my hands on his chest. "You're killing me," he grumbles and pulls against the restraints. I grab the top of his shirt and I rip it revealing his abs. "Shit!" he groans. He's literally on the edge of his seat ready to pounce.
    I step back and reach the back of my bra and undo it and it falls down my arms to the floor. "Ri," he urges.
    "What? What do you want to do to me?"
     "Urgh, I want to touch every inch of you," he growls.
     I softly touch my skin that's on fire right now and feel my skin on my body, "Like this?" I tease and he swallows hard. "What else?"
     "I'd kiss your soft lips," he pants. I touch my lips with my thumb. I nod slightly requesting he carries on. "I'd play with your beautiful tits," I pant and move my hands to my boobs and start to play with them. "Fuck," he groans. "You're so fucking beautiful. Do you know how hard it is not to touch you right now?" I smile, "Next? Okay, well, I wouldn't be able to resist any longer and I'd have to rip those panties off you and bury myself inside you."
     "Well, we will have to improvise with that. I'm not a strong as you," I slowly shimmy my panties down and step out of them. I walk towards him and sit astride him and he growls. I slide my hands on his abs.
     "Come on, Ri," he begs. "No more torturing me. I need to be inside of you." I grin and lean down and start kissing his pecs and he moans and tilts his head back relishing in my touch. "You have no idea how turned on I am right now.
     I take his cock in my hand and I line myself up and ease onto him and he growls. I don't move and he flexes his hips. "Ri," he begs. "I need you. I really fucking need to touch you, take pity on me," I shake my head and I slide my hands on his abs and I use my feet on the floor to create a rhythm.
     "I'm going to make you come and then if you can still get hard you can handcuff me," I promise.
     "Fuck," he groans. I kiss and nip at his neck as I keep bouncing up and down. "Ri, this is me and you. You think making me come will stop me getting hard? Hell, it doesn't take much with you. Be prepared for round two, that's all I can say," he growls. I claim his lips and a grumble escapes his throat.
     Hell, I'm tired already. How am I to cope with round two? I bite his neck as I climax and he groans as he spills inside of me. I rest my weight on him as I try to recover. "Ri, please be careful, I can't catch you if you fall." I sigh in content, "Ri, please uncuff me. You promised round two and someone will be looking for us soon." I don't think I can move, "Ri, I need to touch you, I'm not done yet."
    I grumble and I push off him, "Where is the key?" he nods at the bedside table. I climb off him and my legs feel like jelly and I sway.
    "Please be careful, baby," I roll my eyes. I bend over and reach for the key and he growls. "Well, would you look at that?" I grab the key and turn back around and he's looking at his already growing cock. "Told you it didn't take much. Your backside is enough to turn anyone on," I shake my head and sit on his lap again.