He pulls away and looks into my eyes, "He went to uni and then work and he slumped on the couch, Bro, my parents are here, Tyler said. Next door, They are worried about Riley, they wanted to be here. They went to her apartment and everything felt strange to him. The atmosphere was all wrong. Not up for visitors? They weren't visitors they were family. She only accepted him close so why was she pushing him away now and not them?
"Abigail said his Angel needed space from him. That was the last thing she needed, ever! He left the apartment, something wasn't right. He vowed to himself to never let her push him away. He went back and his eyes widened at the kid clinging to his girl. Who was the kid? Why was his Angel panicking? Angel? What the fuck? She was his Angel! Nothing was making any sense to him. Boyfriend? What boyfriend? Sometimes he's never sure if she's talking about him or not. The kid finally looked at him. No! It couldn't be!
"She hadn't changed much in the four years. He needed answers." There's a knock on the door and Flynn covers me again. He sighs as if it pains him and I giggle. "Come in," he yells and Mom walks in. "Amazing, thanks Mom," he smirks.
"You're welcome honey, remember we are going out for Ruby's birthday," Mom says as if it's normal Flynn called her Mom.
"I need to finish my story," he groans.
"Sorry but her birthday only comes once a year, your story can wait," she informs.
"Can I not go and leave her here tied to my bed?" Mom laughs and I gently slap his arm.
"No, Honey, stop being childish. Lee will be on her best behaviour, won't you?"
"Always am," I agree.
"Pfft, do you have another daughter called Riley?" Flynn jokes. I go to get out of bed but he holds me down, "Don't," he warns. Mom gathers up the plates and leaves the room. "I can't believe I have to share you."
"You don't have to share me, I don't want anyone else," I insist.
"But you're still holding back," he sighs.
"Flynn, this is hard. I need you to finish the story. How can I let you in without knowing about how she overpowered me? I want to, I do but it fucking killed me."
"I know," he sighs. "She didn't overpower you. You were always on my mind, even when I was with her. Tyler made me leave you, I never kissed her as I said. I didn't fuck her as you thought. Hell, Ri, how can I tell you that you are so much more to me?"
"You can't. How would you feel if I loved Ric? How would you feel if I wanted him and left you for him? If I wanted him to move in with me? If I saw a future with him?"
"Fuck, don't put that in my head," he groans.
"Not nice, is it? That's my reality, at least me loving Ric isn't real. Your jealousy is irrational, cute but definitely irrational. But mine is plausible. I've lost my trust Flynn and I can't get it back. I want to trust you but it kills me to know you loved her. The only thing you could do right now is to tell me you didn't love her."
"I can't do that," he whispers.
"I know. So the only thing I can ask is for you to not give up on me because I couldn't handle that."
"Never baby," he promises and kisses my nose. The door knocks again and Flynn checks the covers over me again. "Yes?"
Mom walks in with a dress and a shirt. "Outfits for you both," she says and hangs them on the back of the door.
"Mommy," I whine. "The last one looked like I was a hideous whale bride!"
"Flynn," Mom raises her eyebrow at Flynn to deny that.
"Ri, you looked fucking hot in that dress. I'm waiting for the day you will be my bride in white."
"I already told Mom, I'm not getting married! Never in a billion years!"
"Told you," Mom says if she's saying I told you so.
"One day," he grins and Mom winks at him. I roll my eyes.
"Is Jax okay?" I feel so bad leaving him in my parents house whilst I'm listening to Flynn's story. He came all this way and I'm not making the most of it.
"Yeah, he's helping me watch Miley. He's so good with her, isn't he? And she adores him."
"Yeah, he loves us," I agree and Flynn growls. Mom smiles and leaves the room. "I told you, you can't be annoyed," reverting my full attention back at him.
He sighs, "Yeah, yeah, I know. Doesn't mean I like it. Am I helping you in your dress?"
"I need a shower first," I shrug.
"Good," he smiles and I frown. He lets the covers fall and he gets off the bed and dresses me in his top. He slides on some boxers and he pulls me out the bedroom in a hurry. He strips us and pulls me into the shower. "Turn around, I need to claim you after recalling all those sex scenes." I laugh as I let him lose himself in me again.
I'm dressed and ready in Flynn's room. I went light on the makeup as Flynn insisted. I wasn't allowed to wear heels again. I walk out of Flynn's room and I walk down the hall and I knock on Tyler's door. "Come in," I hear Ruby say.
"Rubs, it's me, if I come in I'm afraid I may puke," I call through the door. The door opens slowly and she appears in the doorway. My mouth falls open as I push the door further open to see her. "Fuck," I gasp. "Why are you with my brother again? You look stunning," I close my mouth as I examine her dress. It's a black floor-length but two slits down both legs revelling her long luscious legs. The dress shows off her boobs. "Has my brother seen you yet?"
"No, I'm too scared to come out. Your Mom got me the dress, I think it's too nice? Like, it's too good for me. I've never worn anything like this."
"Are you crazy? My brother is going to literally impregnate you tonight," she laughs loudly. I hold my hand out to her and she takes it. "Happy birthday, beautiful," she blushes and we start walking down the stairs. "Bro!" I call.
"Shh, I don't want to draw attention," she says awkwardly. She's similar to me in someways, complete opposite in others. She likes to hide as do I. She's shy and reserved, whereas I'm loud and boisterous.
"Oh stop, my brother, needs to see this." She nods shyly, "Bro!" I yell.
"Lee, can you stop shouting? Nothing is that important," he calls back.
"Yes, it is!" I yell. "Ruby needs you to inspect her dress. She thinks it's too good for her. I for one think it was made for her!" I hear fast footsteps approaching as if he needs to see her too and I grin.
Tyler comes into view and his mouth falls open. He stops at the bottom of the stairs and I notice Flynn coming into view as well. "See, told you he'd love it," I smile. He holds his hand out to Ruby and she takes it. He opens his mouth to say something but nothing comes out. "My brother, speechless, who'd have thought."
"Ri," Flynn says and I look at his offered hand. I take it and he pulls me to his body and I have to let go of Ruby's hand. "Leave him alone with his Angel. Now, I need mine. You look so beautiful."
"Are you kidding? I look like a whale compared to her! Look at her."
He shakes his head, not even taking a small glance, "I can't, you are blinding me right now." I roll my eyes and he leads me into the living room whilst my brother has his moment with his girl.
"Mommy!" Miley jumps off the couch and runs to me. I lift her up and she clings to me. I walk over to Jax and sit on his lap with Miley.
"Hey, have you had fun today?" I ask her and Jax places his hand on my bump.
"Yeah! I made you brownies with Nana and Jax played hide and seek with me," she smiles. I remember those days in this house. Surprisingly, there's so many hiding spaces.
More times than not they couldn't find me. They were convinced I cheated and left the house.
"Hey babe," Jax greets me. "You look hot," he smirks and looks at Flynn probably to taunt him. "Hey, munchkin," he says to my bump and I hear Flynn growl.
"Okay, who's going in what car?" Mom asks. I block them out and rest my face in Jax's neck. I'm sure they will tell me where I am going. Like Flynn would let me go in a different car if that's not what he wanted.
"So, I am planning to head out after 3 tomorrow," Jax says softly. No, I mean what did I expect? He said a couple of days. He's a little piece of my home here. He's my family too now. I move Miley on the couch and I get up.
I walk out of the living room, "Ri," Flynn says as I leave. "What did you say to her?" he growls. I walk outside and sit on a chair. Tears flow from my eyes and Rex places his head on my lap. I stroke his head as tears fall on his muzzle. "Ri, what's wrong?"
"Leave me alone," I beg. I'm just being emotional. I know that Jax wasn't going to be with me forever.
"I didn't mean to upset you, babe," Jax says. Flynn kneels next to Rex and looks up at me. Jax stays standing and strokes my hair.
"It's fine, I'm just being stupid," I wipe my tears but they just keep coming.
"What are you upset about baby?" Flynn asks.
"Jax is leaving me," I whimper.
"And you don't want him to?"
"He's been my home. I've seen him nearly every day and I missed him. Being here, it's another separation from him."
"Oh, babe," he smiles down at me. "I love you, it won't be long that we will be apart and you have Flynn now."
"Is there no way you can stay?" Flynn asks and I am shocked.
"You want me to stay?" Jax seems shocked too.
"If it's what she needs then I won't deny her. I need her safe and happy, I have to accept I'm not the only one that can do that anymore. I broke her and I know that. I have you to thank for looking after her."
"Babe, is that what you want? I can get cover at work, I just thought you'd want me out the way. You have a lot of family here, I didn't think you needed me."
"You are my family but I won't make you stay, you should go home," I sniff.
Jax laughs, "Babe, I was the one that came to you because I missed you, I'd like to stay," I smile at him and he kisses my forehead. "Now stop crying you pansy. I think that's 100 dollars you owe me now babe," I laugh and he joins me.
"What?" Flynn asks.
"One dollar to me every time she cries in front of me since we found out about the kid," he grins and Flynn frowns. "Hey, the things she cries at. It's hilarious, a couple of weeks ago I was at work and she rings me up in tears. She was crying because the TV remote batteries died. She cried until I came over and changed them. One time I got to her apartment and she was crying, she said she ate the last cookie. I had to go to the exact same store and get the same cookies. Then she cried because I left her to get the cookies. The things she cries at is hilarious."
"Ri," he shakes his head. He wipes my tears and helps me to my feet. We walk back into the house and he leads me to the front door. He helps me into a coat and we leave the house. He leads me to Jax's car. He opens the door and slides me in. He does up the belt and slides the belt in the keeper between my legs.
Jax slides in next to me. The back door opens and Flynn slides in Miley's car seat. "I can do that," I insist but he only glares at me.
"Hottie is mad again babe," Jax jokes. Jax slides his hand in mine and I lean my head on the headrest. Flynn leaves presumably to get Miley. Someone knocks on my window and I jump. I look at the window and Tyler is there.
Jax lowers the window, "Sis, you had all morning in bed, you need to prepare yourself for the rest of the day. No being an old granny. If you fall asleep I'm poking you."
"Ty," I whine. "You try carrying a tiny human, it's exhausting. If you poke me I'm going to punch you and I've now been informed how hard I do punch."
He holds his hands up, "Okay but no falling asleep." He walks towards his car and Flynn returns with Miley.
"Mommy?" I turn and look at her, "I'm glad you're here this time."
"Me too baby." Well, not really, I'd rather be at home but deep down isn't this what I wanted? For Flynn to return to me?
"I just need to talk to Tyler," Flynn says and shuts the door. He walks to Tyler's car and they start talking. "Bro, you can't do it today. You promised," Flynn begs.
"It's her birthday bro, it has to be today," I just about hear Tyler. "You've had ages to do it."
"I can't yet, I know she won't agree until she hears all of it and I'm not done yet," Flynn grumbles. What is he talking about?
"Bro, come on, I've had this planned out. I do it today."
"If she denies it because of you I won't forgive you."
"You said you have a secret weapon to get her to do anything, use it. I gave you enough time, bro." I hear Flynn sigh and he walks back to the car. He climbs into the back behind me and he seems pissed off. Jax removes his hand from mine as he pulls away. I slide my hand back to Flynn as he's done to me many times. I instantly feel his burning hand slide into mine and I smile as I shut my eyes.
Jax slides his hand in my other one once he's set off. I snooze until Flynn leans over me to undo my belt. "No," I mumble. "Sleep," I beg.
"Maybe you wouldn't be so tired if you slept in my bed last night," Flynn hushes me. I grumble my annoyance, I still probably would be tired. He helps me out of the car and he puts his arm around me. Miley holds Jax's hand as we walk into the hotel.
We are greeted at the door and escorted into a large private room. We all take a seat around the large table and it seems odd. It feels like de Ja Vu from Flynn's birthday yet, everything has changed. Flynn is sat next to me and Scarlett is sat next to Ricardo not that they are together. "Okay, it's an open bar, help yourselves. Lee. . ." Mom scolds.
"What?" I scowl.
"You know what," Mom sighs.
"Ri, what do you want?"
"I can get it," I protest.
"No, now what do you want?" he insists and I roll my eyes.
"Pepsi," I shrug.
He sighs, "No, anything else or shall I pick?"
"Chocolate milkshake," I smile and he laughs. He asks Miley and she asks for juice.
"Mate, what do you want?" he asks Jax as he slaps his shoulder. Mate? Is he warming to Jax? First, asking him to stay and then getting him a drink.
"Beer, thanks Hottie," Flynn rolls his eyes but goes to the bar. "Hey, I'm glad I'm staying if he's going to act like this," Jax laughs.
"I'm glad you're staying," I smile back at him.
"You'll sing for me, won't you Riley?" Ruby asks and it looks like her and Scarlett were talking to each other.
"You don't want me to sing again. I'm sure your ears are still recovering from the last time."
"Are you kidding me? You sang beautifully, please sing. I have just the song for you to sing this time."
"You really want me to sing?" I grumble.
"Yes," she says adamantly.
"Ooo, karaoke. You'll sing with me, right babe?" Jax asks.
"Fine," I grumble. Flynn sits down with a tray of drinks.
"If you sing with him then you have to sing with me too," Flynn says.
"Really?" I curse.
He shrugs and passes me the milkshake, "Yep but I get to choose the song," I roll my eyes. Doesn't look I'm choosing any songs. We eat lunch and a few people get up to sing.
"Riley, it's your turn to sing for me," Ruby says from the stage. I roll my eyes and stand up. I slowly make my way to the stage and Tyler jumps up on the stage.
"Sis, we don't have all day," Tyler jokes. Fucking bastard! "You're slower than a snail," I glare at him and I climb the steps and I have a breather for a sec. "Christ, we've died of boredom."
I walk and take the mic off Ruby, "Can you punch him?" I ask Ruby and she laughs. Ruby sets the song up and I shrug. I like this song so it's cool. It's Always remember us this way by Lady Gaga. They walk off the stage and I have enough of standing already so I walk to the edge of the stage and sit down with my legs dangling. I start the song and everyone is watching me. It's putting me off, "You look at me and, babe, I wanna catch on fire."
"You found the light in me that I couldn't find," Hmm why did she pick this song? It seems meaningful to me and Flynn. "But all I really know, You're where I wanna go, The part of me that's you will never die."
"Every time we say goodbye, Baby, it hurts," it really does hurt every time he leaves me. "When you look at me, And the whole world fades, I'll always remember us this way." Flynn walks over to me and stands between my legs and kisses me softly.
"So beautiful," he whispers. "I knew you'd sing it well."
"You picked that song? Not Ruby?" he nods as he grins and kisses my nose and I giggle. Why do they always do this to me? Why do they have to go behind my back. I probably would have just sung it to shut him up.
"Time for an encore babe, whilst you're up here," Jax says and pulls me to my feet. He takes my hand and leads me to the screen. He flicks through and picks No air by Jordan sparks. I notice Flynn picking up Miley and starting to dance with her. In fact, the whole family is on the dance floor even my parents.
The music starts to play, "Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air? If I should die before I wake, It's 'cause you took my breath away, Losing you is like living in a world with no air, oh."
Jax hastily spins me around so my back is against his front and he hugs me from behind as he starts singing, "I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave, My heart won't move, it's incomplete, Is there a way I could make you understand?" Jax can sing, I've already heard him sing before. He likes to sing all the time whatever he does, in the shower, when he's at work. If we're watching a film and a song plays he will sing along.
We sing the next lyrics together as he swings our hips. I'm not even focusing on the people watching it's just Jax and me singing on stage. "Tell me how you gon' be without me? If you ain't here I just can't breathe." Jax spins me around and holds my mic as we both sing the last lyrics. I look into his eyes as he looks into mine."If you ain't here I just can't breathe, There's no air, no air, No air air, no air air."
I blush when people start clapping. I bury my face in Jax's neck. "We are so doing that again babe, you're officially my karaoke partner."
"Oh shh," I mumble.
"Bro! You better go now whilst she's still up there! It will take her a week to get back up there!" I hear Tyler call. I grumble my annoyance.
I feel a burning hand on my hand and I'm pulled out of Jax's hold. "Are you ready baby?" I look up at Flynn and he's grinning at me. I roll my eyes, what is he choosing to sing? Jax passes Flynn his mic.
Jax walks off stage and Flynn leaves me to play the song he wants. I roll my eyes when the song, You're the one that I want from grease starts playing. "I got chills. They're multiplyin'. And I'm losin' control. 'Cause the power. You're suplyin', It's electrifyin'!" Okay, I'll play along.
I walk towards Flynn and he's watching me like a hawk. I push his shoulder and then start walking away. "You better shape up, 'Cause I need a man," I can feel him burning me with his eyes so I know he's following me. I turn and touch his shoulder and he backs up as I walk never taking his eyes off me. I feel chills going down me at the game we're playing, "And my heart is set on you." I turn back around and start walking away from him again. "You better shape up; You better understand. To my heart I must be true."
I walk off stage and through the crowd as I keep looking back at him following me. I stop and look at him and he's grinning at our little game too, we sing together, "You're the one that I want." I wonder why he chose this song. I turn back around and skip to the stairs on the other side of the stage. I climb the stairs and look back at him. He's holding the rails looking up at me. Reenacting the film is exciting.
I use my finger to entice him to follow me just as Sandy did in the film. I walk further onto the stage and look at him and he comes really close, "If you're filled, With affection, You're too shy to convey, Meditate in my direction Feel your way." I use my hands to touch my body and he can't resist touching me either. I can smell his minty breath fan across my face.
"I better shape up, cause you need a man," he doesn't stop touching my body not that I care. I start walking into him and he backs up but keeps hold of me.
"I need a man who can keep me satisfied," I don't even care if I'm making a fool out of myself. Flynn makes me comfortable in my own skin.
He walks towards me now so I have to back up, "I better shape up if I'm gonna prove," is he trying to tell me something?
"You better prove that my faith is justified." This song is apt. Is he really sure he won't hurt me again? He grabs me from behind and sways our hips as he feels my body.
"Are you sure?" he says right into my ear.
We both sing the next bit, "Yes, I'm sure down deep inside," am I? Is he expecting these words as a promise to trust him? He leads the way to the stairs as we sing. He slides his hands down to my backside as we swing our hips looking at each other. We look at the stairs and swing our hips as we walk half the steps. He jumps the last couple and then spins towards me. He holds his hands out to me and I carefully jump into his arms. Trusting him to catch me. I wrap my legs around his waist as he holds my hips.
The crowd starts singing the background lyrics but I'm too lost in Flynn. We both sing the last lyrics together as we looking into each other's eyes as he holds me, "The one I need. Oh, yes indeed." His lips claim mine and I am well and truly lost.
"Well, that was hot," Tyler claps Flynn's shoulder and Flynn pulls his lips from mine and grins. "But don't do that again. My sister, PDA, touching, it's a no go for me."
Flynn laughs but doesn't release me. "Mate, I told you, no control she started it," he continues to chuckle.
"Hey, you picked the song, I was only playing along," I pout and he kisses my lips briefly.
"I wasn't expecting you to dance like that, sing yes, do that nope," I shrug. Well, why pick a song like that then? He sets me on my feet and he walks away from me. I place the mic on the stage floor before I walk to Jax who's dancing on the dance floor.
He spins me and pins me back onto him, he whispers in my ear, "That was fucking hot babe, if he doesn't fuck you shortly then I will," I laugh hysterically. His hand cups my bump, "Even pregnant you're sexy as hell."
He spins me again so I'm facing him. He cups my face and he kisses my lips, "None of that," Flynn groans and Jax laughs pulling away from me. Flynn holds his hand out to me and I happily take it. "Come on," he drags me out of the private room.
"Where are we going? What about Miley?" I try to protest but he doesn't stop dragging me.
"Your Mom is watching her for us. We have a short window before we need to be back." He pulls me into the elevator and he hastily pins me against the wall and kisses me careful not to crush the baby. "Fuck, I need to make love to you, right fucking now."
"Okay," I surrender. The space around us is charged to the max and we can both feel it. The doors ping open and he pulls me down the hallway.
"Not here, I'm not sharing you," he carries on leading the way until he stops outside a door and pulls out a card and swipes the door open. He hastily pulls us in and the door closes. He kisses me and his hands reach around the back of my dress and he unzips it as we make our way to the bedroom.
"Flynn," I whine as I kick off my shoes.
"I know baby," he grabs the bottom of my dress and lifts it over my head. I grab his shirt and start to unbutton it. I'd rather just rip it open but he won't have another top. Once I've undone the buttons he pulls it off quickly. I undo his jeans and he growls. He kicks off his shoes followed by his jeans and boxers. He grabs my hips and lifts me onto the bed and I bounce.
Red and pink petals surround me on the bed. "So beautiful," he says and he crawls on the bed towards me. He swiftly yanks my panties down and I'm left a panting mess on the bed. "Be mine," he says breathlessly.
"I am yours," I promise. I always was, no one is arguing that fact.
"No, properly mine. Marry me," he says as he's leaning over me inches from my face. My heart skips a beat hearing those words. I can't think right now. He's consumed me, all I see is him.
I've wanted to hear those words for so long yet, I can't accept.
"I can't," I pant. He thrusts into me and I call out. "I am yours but I can't do that," I whimper and he picks up the rhythm.
"You can, I'm here, I love you, I want you to be my wife. Trust me," he groans. I grip the silk sheets underneath me as my back arches. "Marry me, please," why is he doing this to me?
"Flynn," I whimper. He flips us so I'm on top. "It's too soon." I'm still trying to trust him. It's not been long since he's been back in my life again.
"I've wanted to marry you since the day I put the ring on your finger. It's not too soon," I start to create friction and I rest my hands on his abs. Has he? I wouldn't know as I haven't heard his side to that yet. "Have faith in me." How can I? "I know you don't want me going anywhere. You want me. This way neither of us can walk away."
"Don't do this," I whimper. He flexes his hips and I moan and throw my head back. My walls to my fortress are hastily crumbling.
"I need us to be a family. I need to tie myself to you as much as I can. Marry me," he cups my boob and I call out as my orgasm rips me apart. "I need you," he groans. He sits up so we are nose to nose, "Marry me," he kisses my neck as I come down from my high.
Fuck and my walls are gone. Not even the remnants remain. That's never happened. I've always had remnants, that's how they went up so easily after he left me.
"Uh-huh," I whisper moving my head to give him better access. Please don't hurt me and make me regret it.
His lips withdraw from my neck and I whimper, "Wait? Is that a yes?" he gasps.
"Uh-huh," I agree.
He sits up slightly as his eyes bore into mine, "No, baby, I need you to say the words clearly," he demands. I move his lips back to my neck and he doesn't resist.
"Yes, I will marry you," I groan as he bites and sucks at my neck claiming me. A growl erupts his throat and he flips me on my back again.
He holds my hands either side of my head and he holds most of his weight as he pounds harder and faster inside of me making me catch fire again. How can he make me build so close after an orgasm? I am so tired yet my need for him is greater. "Fuck," he hisses into my ear. He rests his face in my neck as we both ride through our orgasm.
He rolls onto his back as we try to control our breathing. He holds my hand and entwines our fingers. I don't know what is more perfect than this moment.
YOU ARE READING
Forever Lost
RomanceThird instalment of her lost souls. Riley needs to build her life back up after her soul mate Flynn left her for good. Pushing out her loved ones. She's forever lost, can Flynn ever reach her again?
