Forever Lost

Chapter 27

"Are you crazy? Tyler growled. Crazy for her, he shrugged. He went to work and returned. He wished he had something of hers with her scent. Her pillow had faded. The next day Tyler let him drive his new car. My lucky day, he beamed. If I knew you'd be this happy, I'd have let you drive it ages ago, Tyler said. Hardly, you love this car, he laughs. Okay, you have a point there. Be careful with her, she's my baby. It was just a car! Hey, if you asked your Dad he'd buy you another one, he inisted. I guess you're right but I like this car. She's my baby. A car is replaceable but my girl is not, he thought. How could he not see that? The car drove like a dream but he still didn't see the obsession.
"He walked into the pub for lunch and he gasped. She was there, he found her instantly. She was hiding in a hoodie but he knew it was her. She tried covering her face as if she could feel him looking at her. He noticed Regan was there. Shit! She shut her diary as Nathan approached. Good! He held her hand and she didn't withdraw, what the hell! Friend my arse! She cocked her head at Tyler and it was an instant turn on. He pushed Regan further down his legs, hell! Was she using her pain as a weapon against him? Because it was fucking working.
"Was she actually coming over? What was going on? She didn't do this. Nathan sat down and pulled his girl onto his lap. What the hell! He was fucking livid. No way was Nathan helping. No, no way, nope! It will be fun, Regan said. Shut the fuck up! he screamed in his head . It's not a date! she said. Yes, you're right baby. I'd start world war three if you dated anyone but me, he thought. The hell! Why would she agree? Was she trying to piss him off? He forgot how frustrating she was. Her secrets were safe with him. He didn't want him knowing anything about his girl.
"Flynn Flynn, Regan said. Fuck, what now? She's better mute. It was just his luck that she kissed him in front of his Angel. He heard his girl whimper and it broke him. No fucking way was Regan staying over. He guessed they could hang out in the living room. Make sure Tyler was there for a barrier. Nathan put his arm around his girl and he glared at him. Was he the reason she left her apartment? She wasn't disappearing, was she?
"Why are you hurting, Riley? Regan said. Oh shut up, he was going to need to tape her mouth shut. He bowed his head, he couldn't look at his girl right now. Shame was all he felt. She always had a dark sense of humour and he always loved her for it but this hurts. The hell! If Nathan restrained her again, he would kill him. She walked off to the bathroom. Bro! Tyler said as he got up. You promised. Yeah, I know I need a piss, he countered and followed his girl. She still trusted him. She was overwhelming his as he held her. He needed her. Tyler couldn't hate him for that. He needed his fix. Shit! He didn't expect her to hug him back like that!
"How was he going to walk away now? He was lost in her. He fucked this girl up but she still loved him and he can't say it in return. Could she not see that he loved her so fucking much? He needed to be close to her, he didn't need sex. He just needed to hold her like that. If she let him hold her like this, he would be okay. He knew he would. It was his lucky day that she decided to come back to Duke. She smelled so fucking good. He needed to leave her now. How could he when she was clinging to him for dear life? She was his lifeline and he was hers. Why was life so hard? They gave him this Angel from heaven and then they tell him he can't have her.
"They were flaunting this Angel in front of him to torment him. He couldn't resist her. He held his breath and pushed out of her hold. He couldn't look back because he'd never leave. He returned to the table and made sure Regan stayed in her seat. He did not want her masking his girl's scent. He was going to kill Nathan for grabbing her wrist."
    "He didn't want to treat her as he was. She deserved so much more. He'd kill any guy that did. He loved that she still needed him and loved him even though she should hate him. She was seducing him again. Did he not please her as he should have? He hated thinking that he didn't make her feel good. He didn't want that engrained in her head. The hour went too quick and he hated it. He wanted to stay by her side. He didn't know what to do!
   "He wanted to heal her pain. He was at a loss of what to do. He needed to ask Tyler what the rules were. He was allowed to spend time with her, wasn't he? They both needed it. He seemed to only be happy when he was in her company. When they arrived at the bowling alley he hated Nathan making her laugh for real. He wanted to be the one making her happy. He hated her brushed up against his body.
    "She was seducing him with her outfit. He panicked when she walked into the door. He would have never let her walk into the door in the first place! He stroked her forehead, stop touching my girl! he screamed in his head. He was getting really annoyed at the Spanner remark. Why would you stroke my knee? I never want to be hard around anyone other than you."
    "Honestly? I couldn't handle her touching and kissing you. I knew I could make you get her a drink to shut her up."
    "Hmm, you know that I don't buy girls drinks right?"
    "Who cares? I just needed it to stop."
    He nods as he continues, "She climbed over his lap. She was a minx! He was already hard because of her. Was she trying to seduce him? Of course, she was. He had to get a grip, it was hard enough to keep his hands off her without her trying! She returned to the table and she zoned out. She normally told me a story with her eyes but nothing but radio silence. He hated it! Nathan pulled his girl on his lap and he hated it. She was his! He was at the edge of his sit watching her picking up the balls.
    "He pinned himself against her body and he growled. Tyler glared at him. He thought his Angel and him would make a better team. They were always in sync. She jumped in Nathan's arms. What the fuck? So she seduced him and now, what? She was making him jealous? He needed to follow her to the bathroom. You need to trust me, he snapped at Tyler. I'm not going to fuck you sister in the bathroom, I need a piss, he growled as he walked off after her.
    "Feel my love for you Riley. Really feel. I belong to you and you belong to me, he begged. He cupped her face holding her, protecting her. I love you, Riley, hear me please, I beg you, he urged. He pulled away breathless and she whimpered, baby I can never get enough of you. I don't want my lips to leave yours either, he said to himself. I wish there was a way I could keep her by my side forever.
    "He was slightly calmer as she tried to keep Nathan at arm's length. He growled when Nathan touched her temple with his lips. Bro, Tyler growled. What? He was touching what was his! He loved watching her play the Dinosaur game. She was good. He laughed when she screamed, she was so brave with some things and a pussy in others."
   "Oi," I protest.
   "What you are," he grins. "He needed to protect her at all costs, even on a stupid game," I smile. That's cute, "Nathan brushed his lips against her temple again and he growled. Bro, cut it out, Tyler growled. He was treating him like a kid. Did he not know how protective he was over her? He tried distancing himself from her but always watching in case she needed him. When the ball hit the hoop and hurtled towards her he leapt forward but luckily she ducked.
    "He was glad it hit Nathan's head. Was a club the best place for his girl? Beer mate, Nathan said. The hell if he was driving his girl home if he was drinking. He could feel his girl tense next to him. What's wrong baby? he asked in his head."
   "I wasn't comfortable and Nathan had his hand on my leg," I shrug. He glares at me.
   "And you told me he was a friend," he growls. What did he want me to do exactly? "She went to the bathroom and he wondered whether he should have gone with her. Regan kissed him and he grabbed her jaw and pushed her off him at the earliest opportunity. I love you, she said. God, he wanted to puke. He started to get anxious the longer his Angel took to come back. I want you to fuck me tonight, Regan said. Never going to happen, he forgot she was a lightweight. Not tonight, Reg, he said. She touched his crotch, he didn't know why she bothered. He was never hard for her. He sensed his Angel so he relaxed a bit.
    "Reg, stop, not here, he warned. He looked up to find his Angel as she hadn't sat down. His heart stopped when he saw her. He was seeing red, as the guy was forcing himself on his girl. Bro calm down, Tyler said when they were outside. He touched what is mine without her permission. I can't let that go, he growled. How many times? She doesn't belong to you anymore. You need to let her breathe, Flynn, Tyler warned. She will always be mine! She's the only thing in my life that was truly mine. She's my home, he confessed."
    "You think I am your home?" I whisper.
    "No, I don't think. I know. You're so dead against letting me in but you mean more to me than anything. Well, I love our little family," he touches my bump. "You see why I'm doing this right? You could have got her, Tyler said. He cringed, he wouldn't hurt her would he? He tried to protect her not hurt her. She was in shock and it broke him. She was right, only him. He got to stay in her bed that night. He rested his head on her shoulder and looked at her sleeping face. She's so fucking cute, he missed her so much. Bro, you're staring at her, aren't you? Tyler accused. No, he said. Yes, of course he was. How could he not?"
    I laugh, "You're cute," I smile.
    He leans towards me and kisses my lips, "I love you," he says before he carries on. "How could he forget he was in her bed when he woke? She was a real tease wrapped around him like that. He didn't want to leave her but what could he do? He went to bed and woke to the hoover. Abigail was cleaning! He showered despite hating washing his Angel off him. He would see her again today though, right? He needed some reassurance.
    "Abigail came into his room after the shower. She said he looked better and he felt better. How is she? she asked. She looks okay to the outside world but she's not. She's okay when I'm with her but I can't be there for her, he said. I still don't understand. I guess you'll tell me when you're ready. Hayden and I are just going round there and then we are going shopping. Stock up yours and Riley's fridges and cupboards. You know, neither households do the shopping and the apartment was a mess. Tyler offered to come with us.
    "He thanked her, I told you, you are my son now. I look after my own, she said. Did you know Riley strip danced at her hotel? he asked."
    "You told her? Arsehole," I mutter and he chuckles.
    "I told you, I need to know everything. She was annoyed there were strip nights there in the first place and was going to shut it down."
    "I started it, you're lucky I don't want to do it anymore or I'd be pissed."
    "There would be no chance of that, baby." I roll my eyes, "She left his room and Tyler came in. Your girlfriend is coming over right? Tyler asked. Fuck, Tyler kept track of his girlfriend more than he did. He wanted to cancel, he didn't want Regan meeting his adopted parents. When his Angel said she was in her towel he was frustrated. Gah, don't do it, Flynn! he cursed himself but he was already out the door. No tongue skill? She didn't want his drunk as a skunk moment to be engrained in her memory. She was erotic, a real temptress, his temptress and he was lost in her.
     "He couldn't deny her of anything. If she wanted him to come inside of her, she had it. He was annoyed she wouldn't remember what he said, all she remembered was his forced lie! He walked out of her apartment and there was Regan. Where have you been? she demanded. None of your business, I need to get dress, he growled. She stopped him from going into his room. Flynn, what is going on? You left me last night and then you return topless, she questioned. He wasn't fucking doing this with her.
    "If you don't trust me, Regan, then there's the door, he growled. She started crying and he rolled his eyes. I do trust you but you don't give me anything. You haven't, you know, had. . . slept with me for ages and I. . ."
    I laugh, "Was sex a scary word for her?"
    "Obviously," he matches my grin. "He sweet-talked her and he went to his room. He hated what he was doing to his Angel but he didn't care about Regan and what he was doing to her was much worse. Tyler walked into his room when he was getting dressed. Why is your girlfriend out here alone? Tyler asked. Because I am getting dressed, he growled. And? I'm sure she'd go weak at the knees at that, Tyler laughed. They sat on the couch waiting for them to come round.
    "Fuck, what was she trying to do? Seduce him in that outfit? He didn't tell her about his fantasy about her being only in cowboy boots and a hat. His Angel sat against the wall and Abigail asked him to go to her. He hated seeing her like that but she still responded to him. She stormed out again, he wished she wouldn't do that.
    "He sat on the couch, Is she okay son? Hayden asked. Not really, she doesn't feel like she belongs, he stated the truth. That's ludicrous, she's my daughter. I love her more than all of you, he admitted. That's lovely Dad, Tyler growled. Hayden, you shouldn't have favourites, Abigail scolded. Come on, tell me you all don't think the same, Hayden said. No one contradicted him. She was his favourite person in the whole world and he was starting to get anxious that she wasn't returning. He got up and walked to the kitchen and sat on the counter.
    "You okay honey? Abigail asked. He nodded and watched Abigial cook. He picked up a strawberry and put it in his mouth. Hey, they're for Lee, Abigail said. She shares with me, he grinned. Is that so? That's interesting, she said. Tyler started moaning that she was taking too long. If she was feeling vulnerable she'd go somewhere to feel safe so he went to his room. Sure enough, she was curled up on his bed where she belonged. He hated her talking about the possibility of her being with that arsehole.
    "When she emerged she had a bag. What did his little thief steal this time? He loved that she needed his clothes. He started setting out the cutlery and she brushed her hip against him and his cock stood to attention. The hell was she doing? She was seducing him on purpose. He used to think she seduced him on purpose but that was child's play compared to this. He was so close to fucking her on that table. He needed distance if he was ever going to resist but she was relentless. He couldn't take anymore!
    "If she wanted him to fuck her, she bloody well succeeded. Christ! Abigail knocking on the door! He could never say no to her so he had to warn her. You knew you had me right where you wanted me, didn't you?"
    "Yep! Well, not exactly. I want you, all of you but to know I could make you fuck me, that was enough. I wanted anything you would give me."
     He shakes his head, "Abigail sat him next to Regan, could she not have made her sit as far away as possible? She started freaking out as she washed up. Hell, he didn't wash or dry up but Abigail glared at him to help her. He wasn't in the mood for her blocking him out but she was playful with him. She fled the scene again, they were joking around seconds before. Abigail asked him to go after her but her scream had everyone going.
   "He opened the door but the chain was across. Oh, Honey, kick it down. Please, Abigail begged and he kicked the door in. He heard the bath running and he went to her. He didn't care if she was naked, he needed to know she was okay. His heart stopped as he saw her in the water like that. He called for Tyler. The water was scolding. What was some burning water compared to her life? He needed some rational thought behind what she did.
    "He didn't know how to help her. Well, he did but Tyler wouldn't allow it. Can you not do something, Flynn? I haven't seen her like this before, Abigail pleaded. What do you want me to say? You know I can't, he sighed. She obviously still listens to you, Please Flynn, she begged. He looked at Tyler, No, Bro. I'm not doing this with you. It still stands, She will be okay in the morning, Tyler insisted. Why can't I support her, that's all I'm asking, Bro. What are you saying, I can't be around her at all? I can help her, I know I can, he insisted. Why is she wearing your top? Abigail asked.
    "She likes to wear my clothes. She's a thief, I have barely any clothes left because she keeps taking them. They make her feel safe, I won't deny her that, he said. She's the one that stole your pillow and Hoodie? Tyler gasped. Yeah, it looks like it's all she wore until my scent faded, he shrugged. Why do you let her take them? Abigail asked. Most of the time I don't know she's doing it, It's what we did, it was our thing. She used to like wearing my clothes for the scent. I used to like her wearing them because she looks hot. She's mine, he said. She not yours, Tyler growled.
    "Abigail went into her room. When she returned she got Tyler to grab her bag from the apartment. She believes you still love her. You need to make it clear either way. She was screaming at me, something to do with she remembers. Does that mean anything to you? Abigail said. He smiled, Yes, it does actually, he grinned. I told her you love Regan but she was very insistent. You need to tread carefully Flynn, you'll watch her, won't you? she asked. He was so fucking happy that she remembered he loved her.
    "You're crossing all lines, Bro, Tyler said when they left. Look, let me stay with her tonight. I promise, nothing will happen. I won't touch her, I just don't want her to be alone and I don't think she will let anyone else in, he said. Fuck, fine, don't make me regret this, Tyler growled. Can you take Regan home? Or tell her to leave, not fussed really, he shrugged. You need to get a grip, he growled and left."
    "Is that why you wouldn't touch me? I always knew Tyler was behind the scene somehow but he was being so childish. I think you deserve a medal for putting up with the Blake siblings."
   He laughs loudly, "Yes baby, I really wanted to make love to you but I promised him. I didn't like betraying his trust." I can understand that, "I want you to do it, please Flynn, she begged. Gah, please don't ask again or I won't be able to deny her. He'd never been so turned on in all his life. He loved other girls doing it before but this was something else. So fucking erotic that she couldn't climax without his touch.
    "That is true but I can still fuck you. . . with my mouth. The fuck did she say? His cock wanted her to repeat that too. It was still breaking the rules but he couldn't stop her. Fucking cooking in his top and panties needed a health warning. All she did was bend over and he had to fuck her. You keep coming back to me, I can drag this out, she cried. He smirked, yes she could and she's catching on fast but he needed to tell her she can't. She was okay as long as he loved her and only her? Well, he wasn't, he needed more. Tyler texted to say coast was clear.
    "He got out of bed and she started talking as she does. He stroked her hair out of her face and hushed her telling her she was safe. It was the last straw when she said, I will never have kids. How could he leave her then? How much was it killing her not to be able to get pregnant? If he could give it to her he would. He wanted to fix all her pain. He climbed back in bed and she was peaceful. He hated the thought of her not going to Duke. He thought she wanted to be close to him. Why?"
   "I knew that I was going to make contact with your sister. I had to phone the home. I arranged a visit and it was easier to get there from Duke. I asked them to ring me if she denied access as that was a high possibility. They rang and I was upset, I thought she was denying me access, I understood as I'd deny access but it was the opposite. They were making sure I was still going as she was excited. I was running late as it was so far! I ran to the home and they were relieved I came but Miley lost hope that I was coming. She hadn't denied me but she didn't believe the staff when they said I was there.
    "She was wall gazing when I arrived. I asked her if I should sit with her or she was coming to me. I don't think she'd been asked that before. She was curious as to why I would sit with her. I didn't mind, I was accustomed to wall gazing just not that close. I think my issues helped me connect with her."
   "I still hate that you didn't tell me and you went all that way on your own." I wouldn't change it though. Maybe I should have told him sooner but I'm glad I connected with her first. Maybe that's selfish but I don't care, it all played out well in the end. "They went back to the apartment and Tyler pinned him against the wall. How many times do I need to warn you off bro? Tyler warned. Nothing happened! he defended himself. Well, not last night, he thought. I allowed you to stay the first night because she couldn't be trusted. I texted you to come back but you didn't. I need you to back off, you need to convince me that you don't want her or I'll make sure you never see her again."
   "What?" I whisper.
   "I'm sorry baby, I was selfish. If I had just let you go you would never have drunk and then in that vulnerable state." He looks ashamed. "You can't do that! he growled. She's my sister, I can do what I want. Do you want to never see her again?"
    "He couldn't have taken me away. I wouldn't have allowed it."
    "Maybe that's true, baby but I didn't underestimate him. He had the power to take you from me and I couldn't handle that. I felt backed into a corner." He sighs, "Of course not, he growled. Tyler was being irrational. Then convince me, he threatened and walked away. How could he convince him? Would he really keep her away from him? How would he have reacted if he knew he fucked her and the other things? Tyler acted normal again as if he didn't threaten him. They waited for her but Tyler thought she wasn't coming.
    "He told him to wait, he had faith. He had to withdraw, he had no clue how he was going to convince him but he had to try. Tyler really pissed him off, convince him? And then said he should have just handed over his food? He would have given it to her without question but he needed to convince him! Then she had to be fucking stubborn. He was waiting for her at lunch but she wasn't there. Nathan said Jesse took her to the bus stop. He started getting anxious.
    "Was she going home? Hours past, he texted Abigail begging for her to say his Angel was there but she wasn't. Where the hell was she? He couldn't concentrate and his boss sent him home. Tyler was freaking out as much as him. He grabbed him some alcohol to settle their nerves. Jesse walking in with Regan. He didn't need her around him when he was in that state! So, Riley told me you lied. So she's back on the market, I brought your girlfriend so that we're both happy, Jesse said. He glared at Jesse and Tyler placed his hand on his chest to stop him beating him up.
    "Right, convince him. He could do that? Right? Absolutely, he nodded grudgingly. He took Regan's hand and kissed it. See, he could do this. Tyler received a text from her to say she's on her way home. Why did she text Tyler and not him? He checked his phone and nothing. He hated it."
   "He was the last person to text me, my phone was about to die. I had no time," I admit.
   He nods his understanding, "They sat on the couch and he made Regan sit on his lap. He touched her thigh for Tyler's sake and she blushed. So fucking innocent, he thought. He needed to convince Tyler, being away from Riley for a whole day not knowing where she was has fucking killed him. Imagine how he'd feel if he kept him away from her.
   "He made Regan get up and pulled her to the stairs and he kissed her. Hell, he actually felt sick kissing her. Anyone would think he was gay! He felt nothing, well, he did, he felt repulsed. She pulled him closer and continued the torture. He escalated the kiss for Tyler. His face was screwed up and he'd rather face torture than that! He pulled away and kissed her neck before he puked. You want to take this upstairs, babe? he asked. He could stop kissing her upstairs and it would look like he was fucking her, for Tyler's sake."
    "You felt sick?"
     "Yes baby, it was all for you but in hindsight it was wrong. At the time I couldn't cope with not seeing you again. I was literally gagging. It was so hard." I hate that he felt like this. I didn't help him by drinking. "He took her to his room and he sat on the bed. She climbed on top of him. He groaned in frustration. He pinned her wrists behind her back. He needed to be in control. He slowly kissed her neck to drag things out. If she was his cover then she had to give her something. Tyler would know.
    "He took a deep breath, the things he did for his Angel. Just having Regan close to him had his body screaming. He didn't want to do this, yet he had to! He felt backed into a corner. He pulled her dress off and then restrained her wrists again. Now what? He didn't want to go any further but then, he didn't want to get to that point. His door opened and Tyler came in. Regan grabbed her dress covering her body. She's fucking lost it, man, she punched me! Tyler said.
    "What? He pushed Regan off him and she put her dress on. He made her leave the room. Nathan came to find me to say that Riley was drinking, Tyler said. He scowled at Tyler, he better be fucking joking! I didn't believe him but when I found her she was doing the keg challenge with Tristan. I pulled her away and she started screaming at me, Tyler said. Why is she drinking, he asked. She saw you and Regan. She knows you were coming up here to fuck her. I told her she needed to get over it, it's not the first time and it won't be the last. She punched me and said she was nothing and she was done, he said. Fuck! he thought. She's drinking herself into oblivion. You need to do something bro.
    "I can't. You told me to convince you! I did all of this to prove that, he said. So you aren't going to help? Are you serious? Tyler growled. I don't know what you want from me. You threaten me when I get too close and then use me when it suits you. I can't never see her again. So, this is on you. You made this call. This is me convincing you, he explained. Tyler glared at him and left his room. He flopped on the bed and punched it over and over. She should have known he'd never sleep with Regan. He promised her!
   "Of course, he was going to help, he just couldn't be seen in doing so. He went downstairs to find her but he couldn't. He went outside and Regan got in his way. You aren't very good at finding me, you walked past me many times, Regan said. That's because he wasn't looking for her! Why is everyone so concerned about Riley? None of your business, he growled. The door slammed open and Nathan stood there. That's all he bloody needed!
   "There you are, I've been looking for you! Nathan said. Go away, Nath, I'm not in the mood for you! he growled. Tyler sent me to get you. Riley is in danger, Nathan said and his panicked eyes had his full attention. Max, who moved in after you left. . . well! Just go to her old room man. Hurry! he said. Fuck! He started running through the house pushing people out the way. His heart was pounding. Her screams cut right through him. He couldn't take his eyes off his girl literally being raped in front of him. It felt like hours but it was mere seconds before he heard her whimper and he tackled him off her.
    "The guy became limp but he kept going. He hurt his girl! He had to pay! Bud stop! Tyler said as he pulled him off. He struggled against Tyler as he pushed him out the room. Tyler pinned him against the wall in the hallway. You need to stop. They deserve it for sure but she's going to need you, Tyler said. That was enough to snap him out of his rage. Where was she? She was in a state when she walked out. She wouldn't let me touch her. She looked freaked, Nathan said. He ran down the stairs to find her. He had to make sure she was okay. Today had been nothing but hell!"