Forever Lost

Chapter 24

"Spoilers baby," someone knocks on the door and Flynn covers us in the duvet. He makes sure I'm fully covered before he lets them in. Mom walks in with a tray. "Thank you, you're the best," he smiles at Mom.
    "Shit! Miley!" I gasp. I've been so wrapped up in his story.
    "Honey, I have it covered, she's helping me bake some brownies, your favourite," I frown.
   "She's my daughter, I should look after her," I sigh.
   "Of course she is honey and always will be. Let me help," I nod and she winks at Flynn. What was that all about? She leaves the room and Flynn removes the covers off us. We sit up as he starts feeding me breakfast as he carries on with his story.
     "How much was she hurting to hit the wall so hard? Hayden started driving home. Hell, home? Is it his home now? He'd never felt more at home but he didn't know if that was because of Riley. He was too tired for her withdrawing shit. He held her hand and she didn't withdraw. Was she only withdrawing from them? He sure hoped so. He'd worked too hard to let her slip away again. Boyfriend? She mentioned him to her parents?
    "Was Tyler trying to piss him off mentioning those dickheads? Did Tyler not think he was good enough? He literally worshipped the ground she walked on. She stormed into the house and said she was cold. Cold as in missing my scent? He could help with that. I need a piss, he said. Honey, you don't need to say. You aren't five, Abigail said." I laugh, "He was disappointed she took her heels off but at least he got to peel her out of her dress. He was so glad she hadn't put her barrier up, only to them. Did he remind her of her ex? He didn't ever want to do that. His cocked twitched at the sight of her in his top.
    "She looked fucking adorable. He was mortified as she covered her breasts. She should never hide. What would Tyler do if he found out? If they kept it secret for six months, a year, five years? Could he be set against it then? He smiled, he'd never looked too far into the future before but he knew he wanted this girl by his side in years to come."
    "You did?" I mumble as I eat my mouthful.
    "Of course, I wanted nothing more. Abigail was spreading snacks on the table. He loved that woman. He didn't eat all his dinner and he was still hungry. He took his Angels hand and she pulled away. The hell! He was pissed as hell. She should never pull away from him. You burned me, she said and he smiled. He loves that he burns her. He held his hand out to her so it was on her terms and she happily placed her hand in his.
    "Love is for fools, she said and that hurt him. They weren't perfect but they were strong. They were unique and their love was beyond all he could have ever comprehended. He loved her so much that it hurt. Tyler jumped on the couch making him bounce. Bastard, he thought. Jason Momoa, fuck yes! she squealed. The fuck was this? He'd never seen her so into something before and. .  . he hated it.
"Over his dead body would she fuck him! He didn't care how hot she thought he was she wouldn't let him. He knew that much. He was still pissed though. Doesn't share? He knew she'd share with him. She loved him! He loved hearing about Riley, even child Riley. Tyler told him they had a close bond but he never expected to that magnitude. His jealousy was out of control. She elbowed him in the ribs, Ow! She doesn't realise how strong she is! Was she trying to make him jealous? He was so aroused at their little game. His cock was throbbing, you'd think he hadn't had sex for months not hours.
"He wasn't expecting to feel so elated and content when she came. She grew tired and he didn't care if it looked suspicious. He always said he prefered Unconcious Riley. He stared at her face as she slept and not the movie. When the movie was over she slid her hand up her top. Shit! He tried to control himself. What her touch did to him. Abigail started to become suspicious. Should he tell her that he spent the first couple nights in her room? Would she be angry about that? Her parents were so kind to him and he loved them already.
"I.Love.You, she said sleepily. She was his everything. He'd sooner have left a girl in the gutter than carry them to bed. He'd do anything for this girl. As they led in bed his mind wandered back to the cliff. It was a surreal moment for him. It didn't take long for him to sleep. He became restless in his sleep. Did she leave? He couldn't feel her but he fell back to sleep. He woke again when the bed moved. He felt for her again and his hand stopped on her tit.
"Would she play? He wasn't sure but when she grinded against him he was too far gone to stop there. She was well and truly at his mercy. The love and trust this girl had for him were breathtaking. She would literally let him do anything he wanted to her and it was a turn on. Flynn, she begged but he was nowhere near finished with her. The way she whimpers when he withdraws, he fucking loved that. He needed to claim every single inch of her, nothing could be left untouched.
"When she bit him it was something else. The carnal need that they had for each other. It was so sensual. He loved her and he truly believed they were made for each other. He literally passed out on her. His phone was ringing and he hated it. The only thing he cared about was the girl laying underneath him. Hey, it's me she said. He was too fucking tired to guess who it was. Who? he said. Regan, your girlfriend, she said.
"Why the fuck was she ringing so early? In fact, why was she ringing at all? Is everything okay? You sound off? she said. Well, no he thought. He was interrupting his alone with his girl. He didn't want her withdrawing so he held her hip. It wasn't ideal the situation but he's shown her enough time how much he loves her. He was with her for fuck sake not Regan. What was she doing pulling the covers down? This was the reason why he always liked being in control. No second-guessing what they were going to do.
"He had to get off the phone. She's a little minx, he thought. Her jealousy was a bad as his. He warned her, he didn't want to orgasm whilst he was on the phone. Are you alone? Regan asked. It was his turn to have control, apt huh? He wasn't hiding it very well. Did you just say, Riley? Regan accused. Yes, yes he did. He had to get off the phone, she was not letting up and he'd be coming in her mouth soon. He saw her point but she had to carry on.
"Knock at the door. Fucking great! He thought. First the phone call and then he wasn't getting to come in her mouth. He was panicking that she wasn't stopping. She tipped him over the edge and he was in a daze. He hated Tyler seeing him so close after an orgasm. Christ, even her clothes were on his floor. When was the last time he slept past 7 am? I don't particularly want to see your sister in a bikini that's all, he said. He would rather her naked as she was on top of him. That's why you are my best friend because you wouldn't betray me like that, Tyler said. Fuck, make him feel bad whilst she's literally naked on him right now, he thought.
"She was embarrassed that she hadn't bathed with anyone before. Did she not know that he fucking loved that. As he walked into the bathroom, what a view. Her bending over the tub. She deserved to be swept off her feet and shown how beautiful she really is. He could have easily fucked her in that position and he really wanted to. She was made for him, she was just as insatiable. He never wanted to be out of their bubble, she was so calm and happy there and he was too. It was never uncomfortable or awkward with her, it had always been easy to be intimate like that. As she knelt between his legs he thought, she is so fucking sexy and she doesn't know it."
I finish eating and he shakes his head. He offers me more food obviously not satisfied with the amount I ate. "It didn't matter how many times they made love or orgasm it would never be enough. She had the audacity to ease onto his cock without permission. Not that she needed it but hell! He said they had no time. Who was he to say no? He would never turn her down. It was interesting to know that his parted lips affected her the way her bouncing tits affected him. He was so close and he needed her to hurry up. He didn't want to leave her hanging. He needed to stop doing this. He needed condoms. He loved skin on skin though and he loved coming inside of her. It was how they truly connected.
"He loved looking after her in every way. He hated it with other girls but he needed this with her. He wished he could stay in the bath all day with her. He dressed and went downstairs, Riley's moaning, Tyler groaned. When isn't she? he groaned. She's coming but she didn't want to, Tyler said. She never said to him that she didn't want to. Something to do with the colour of her bikini. Girls, eh? Tyler said. He rolled his eyes. He guessed she didn't have a black one. He loved that Tyler was letting him drive but what if she needed to hold his hand? How was she going to cope for an hour?
"As he was driving Riley laughed her fake laugh. He was so angry that Jesse sent her a nude. Not what he needed whilst driving. It was gross, she had better delete it, he thought. Why did she keep saying guess? Did she want to send him nudes? Stop talking, Lee, Tyler growled. Yes please, he was trying to concentrate. When she answered the phone why was she entertaining that idea? He hates sharing her like this, he thought. He promised that he would show her later where it gets her to make him fucking jealous.
"He wished she'd tell Jesse to do one. Why did she have to be so beautiful that they all want her? Why not Nathan, Tyler said and he growled. Why would he fucking approve? He's an arsehole!"
"No he's not," I protest. He's actually really sweet when you get to know him.
"He is to me, okay? Anyone near my girl is an arsehole." I roll my eyes, "I'm alone now, she said. That's bullshit, she'd never be alone again with him around. It was them that didn't deserve her! Was she for real? He was so angry. You think Tyler would be better off with you dead? he growled. Me? He thought. He was struggling to concerntrate as she started to panic. He needed to touch her. She couldn't breathe and her eyes were red. She unfastened her seatbelt and he was freaking out.
"He knew she wasn't going to calm down. He had to touch her so he slid his hand back. He had this! It settled her somewhat. As soon as he pulled up she scrambled out the car. He didn't like what he saw as he got out. Did he push her too far? It was hard to see her like that, he just wanted to hold her. She blamed it on the accident but she'd still be broken. He broke her spirit. She's stronger than she realises, did she not see that?"
"I can't eat anymore," I protest.
"Are you sure I can't tempt you?"
I laugh shaking my head, "My tummy is full and I'm going to need to pee in a minute. He's kicking my bladder," I groan and he puts his hands on my bump.
"How is he not hurting you? He's strong," he exaggerates.
"Flynn, it's fine," I insist. He leans forward and kisses my bump.
"He wished he could share a cubicle with her but he would never get away with that. He was fed up of locked doors. When they weren't in their bubble something would always set her off. Too exposed? She wasn't exposed enough if you asked him. Her scar wasn't even noticeable if you didn't know it was there. He stepped back and admired her in the bikini. Fuck did she overwhelm him with her beauty. He was prepared but shit it was beyond his expectations. He was so lost in her and she didn't even try, how was that fair?
"He wished he could hold her hand in public. She bent over to place the key around her ankle and he growled. His mouth went dry and the air got caught in his throat. He sighed with relief when she stood up. She's such a temptress. The frigid friend was there and he groaned."
I laugh, "Frigid? He's actually nice."
"Look where nice gets you. Well, not you obviously," he jokes. Low blow.
    "In fact, I guess I like him." I wonder why? Idiot. "Why did he have to join? It was going to be hell. She hit him with her dinghy and he thought it was funny. He would be grateful if she did knock him out. Why would you touch his forehead?" he growls at me.
"I don't know, he makes me awkward because he is," I mumble.
"Okay, I can live with that." He smiles again, "You could tell he was innocent with all the blushing. He touched her scar! Why would he do that? If she wasn't self conscious before she was now. What an idiot. He wanted to punch the frigid. He held her hand and he growled. He rolled his eyes that the frigid had to ask. At least she didn't seem annoyed that he told the frigid to back off. As soon as he pushed off down the slide he panicked.
"He should have made her go first. How stupid could he be? She was up there alone with him. When he got down Tyler was waiting. I'm surprised you left her up there with him, Tyler laughed. I think you're more protective than I am, Tyler joked. He glared at him, he already knew he fucked up. Your friends are wankers, he muttered. You're my friend, Tyler joked. No, I'm your best friend. It's different, he countered. He heard her scream and his eyes flashed to the slide.
"See, Tyler mocked. He sighed with relief when he saw she was okay. As the frigid caught up he was already pissing him off. She got knocked out of her ring and when she stood up the water dripped off her skin and it was his own personal brand of porn. He laughed, it was the only thing he could do other than pinning her against the wall and kissing her. I'm sorry, he blushed. God he was such a weirdo.
"He watched as she struggled to get back in her ring. It reminded him of her dress that she always struggled to zip up. She needed help then and she needed help now but she still wouldn't ask for help. No fucking way was he touching what was his. I bet you're keen to get back to Regan, Tyler said. Not really, I'm actually in heaven spending this week with Riley. I wish we could stay if I'm honest, he thought to himself. Did he have a death wish asking his girl out?
"He didn't care if she went to bed early as long as it was in his bed. Tyler kept pressing, no, nope, not going to happen. Tyler started admiring the frigid's sister. She was nothing with Riley stood next to her. The angel literally shined brighter than anyone in that place. He followed after her. She always knew the right things to say to rein in his anger and jealousy. He knew it would be a turn on to have her on his back. She planted her feet and there was too much distance and he didn't like it.
"God and there came the frigid again. He was enjoying alone time with his girl. He didn't want another girl, he only wanted her. She belonged in his bed, no one else, just her. He could tell that the frigid watched the sex tape. She started floating, she was just too damn skinny. Are you sure he isn't? he asked. What was that?"
"He asked if you were my boyfriend. What could I say other than no?"
He glares, "When they left the pool he waited until they went into the cubicle before he pinned the frigid against the lockers. Ow, what the hell? the frigid groaned. I want to see the video, I know you have it. I should beat your ass for having it at all, he growled. Well, he said when he hesitated. Fine, he sighed. You could have just asked nicely for it, the frigid said. Where would the fun be in that? he laughed."
"No," I whine. "Tell me you didn't watch it!"
"You don't realise that I need to know everything about you. Even your darkest moments." I glare at him. "Police outfit, sexy as hell. He definitely had creativity that's for sure. Could he watch this? Should he watch this?"
"No," I snap. "You should not have," I sulk.
"Shh," he says softly. "She looked fucking amazing stripping in that outfit but he was not turned on in the slightest. She was being forced to do this and it was making him sick. He was being too rough and his heart was breaking for her. He grabbed her jaw and she whimpered and nobody questioned the tape? He was so mad. Would you prefer me to be in bed with another girl right now? he said. What the actual fuck!
"Smoking thick? Excuse me, did he just call her fat? Was he for real? What a tosser, she was a clear ten! His anger was raging out of control. He pounded into her and she screwed her face up. She was gripping the shits from pain and discomfort, not pleasure. Did no one other than him question that video? He imagined her to be very tight back then so flexing his hips into her as she was on top of him would cause pain.
"As soon as it was over he slammed the phone down. It was going to haunt him. You're an easy 6. Fuck off she's so much more than that. He's degrading her, he's making her feel worthless so she belongs to only him. He got changed and left the cubicle. He gave him the phone back and they left. Why did you have his phone? Tyler asked. I needed to see it, how could you not see what he did to her in the sex tape? he growled.
"You think I watched a sex tape of my sister? That's just gross man, why did you need to see it? Tyler growled.
"I needed to understand why she is the way she is, the way he treated her, he said as he cringed. Is it that bad? Tyler asked. He nodded, Fuck, Tyler growled. He's lucky he's dead, he muttered. Tyler laughed, I think there's a long list of people that wants to kill him a second time. We should find a way to resurrect him, Tyler said and we both laughed. He held his hand out for her to lead so he could admire her backside."
"You're a perve," I grin.
"You love it," he kisses my nose. I climb off the bed and find one of his tops. "Where are you going? I thought you were enjoying my story."
"I am, I told you. Your son is pushing on my bladder," I hold my bump.
He growls playfully, "I like the sound of that baby, my son. Now hurry back to me," I roll my eyes and walk down the hall. I go for a wee and brush my teeth. I bump into Jax on the way out.
"Hey babe," he kneels down and cups my belly. "Hey, little man, how are you doing?" I've always loved how into this baby he is.
"Little wriggler as usual, literally pushing on my bladder," I smile and stroke his hair. He stands back up but keeps holding my belly.
"I hope he gave you some hardcore sex," he smirks.
"Literally tore my clothes off like a hungry wolf," I laugh. "I'd better hurry, or he'll get jealous again. He's telling me his version of our life. You don't mind do you, I promise to spend time with you when he's finished."
"As long as you fill me in on it later," he winks. He kisses my lips and walks towards the stairs, "Have fun babe, love you."
"I love you," I call after him and I walk back to Flynn's room. He's leaning against the headboard.
"What took you so long?" he grumbles.
"I was talking to Jax," I say as I climb into bed. "He wanted to talk to my baby," he growls as he pulls the top over my head.
"Our baby, and why does he need to speak to my baby?"
"Don't start with this jealous shit again. He's been at every scan, he cares about me and the baby."
"I don't like it," he sulks.
"I don't care if you don't like it, you'll have to suck it up," I cross my arms and he sighs. He prizes my arms away from my chest.
"He pushed his hand back and she took it without hesitation. She wrote I love you on his hand and it gave him butterflies. I love you too baby, so much he thought. He gripped her hand protectively as he saw the car zooming towards them. Pain was all he felt until nothing." I cringe recalling that memory. "His head was killing him. He couldn't open his eyes, he couldn't move, he could only feel and hear. Man, I'm so sorry, Tyler sobbed. Why was he crying? The car came out of no where, Tyler said. Was he dead? If he was then why was he in so much pain? Please wake up man, I need my best friend, Tyler pleaded.
"He will wake son, he needs time to recover, the doctor's say it won't be long, Hayden said. He's strong, he insisted. Was he? Where was his Angel? Was she okay? The darkness took over again. Oh Honey, Abigail sobbed. Look at you, you're like a son to me, you know? I need you to fight this, please. I don't know where my kids will be without you, Abigail pleaded. He hadn't heard or felt Riley. She needs you. She's not living, it's like she's in a coma with, she informed.
"He was in a coma? He tried to wake up and ask her about his Angel but the fog took him again. Bro, come on man, I miss you so fucking bad. She won't eat or sleep or do anything really. I don't know how to help her. She only listens to you and now she's really dead on the inside! She's a zombie, he begged. Come on wake the fuck up! The darkness suffocated him again. Hey, bro, I'm back. They say you should wake today. I need you to wake up, she only listens to you. She's fucking broken man. We don't know what to do. You always give great advice. She's just an empty shell.
"Man, yes please wake up! He could feel her, what did that mean? The fog blinds him again. Everything eased. He focused on the noises around him. His head was pounding. Tyler said he'd been in a coma for a couple of days. He felt as though he was hit by a bus. Christ, Riley? Is she okay? Where is she? he said, he remembered them talking about her. Well, she's there bro. But she's not there, Tyler said. He looked at where he was pointing and he gasped. His heart stopped. She was crying! She looked a million miles away her face was bruised and she had a cast on her wrist.
"He said she wouldn't eat and couldn't sleep because of her nightmares. She hadn't spoken, it was like she was dead. She wouldn't take her meds and they didn't know how to help her. Riley, he said softly but she didn't respond. Hadn't stopped crying? He had to get to her so he tried to get up but Tyler held him down. Would he be able to walk anyway? He couldn't understand why she would let Tyler carry her, voluntarily. Abigail had to shower and dress her? No, that was his job. Was he really willing to expose them to get her back? What a stupid question. Of course he was.
"He had hoped he would hold onto that thought of doing whatever it took to get his sister back and not kick his arse whilst he was in hospital. She was there, he knew she was. She could feel his burning touch. She was so cold. She was such a disturbing sight. He pulled her to him, protecting her, burning her. He needed something, any reaction. Don't leave me, she begged and he sighed with relief, never. Tyler hit the roof as he knew he would. A small part of him hoped he'd be happy for them but that was too good to be true.
"How could he make him see how real it was? How much she meant to him? They weren't the same pills, he guessed they couldn't find hers that he stashed in his room. You know, it all makes sense now, your edgy behaviour, your protectiveness over her. She's the one you were talking about at the frat house when Regan was in you bed, Tyler said. Yeah, I know she felt something yet she kept pushing me away. I swear she'd deliberately taunt me with those dickheads. The closer I'd get the more she'd retaliate. I tried to tell myself I didn't care about her but she was pulling me to her. When she had a seizure that day, he said.
"Wait? You knew and you didn't tell me? he growled. Mate, you have to understand, I wanted to tell you but she threatened me not to tell you. If I told you I'd never have got her sober. I drove her to the hospital, it was the first time I saw her scared. She wanted nothing to do with the pills or get sober. I had to try my way to get her back. She fought me more than she gave me anything. I saw what others didn't see, he said.
"Which was? Tyler growled. Her pain, I could feel her pain from the very first day. She put vodka in her coffee every morning. She stole wine from the corner shop and chocolate like she wanted to be bad. I knew she wasn't bad despite the exterior. She'd push herself to the max exercising without eating. The day she shouted dinner she couldn't see when she was in the kitchen after her run. She was pushing her body too far. The weights at the gym she uses are heavier than her. The guy she punched was because she wanted to protect the girl from someone like her ex, he said.
"How did you get through to her then, Tyler snapped. I didn't give up on her. I didn't listen to her stupid rules. They were a barrier, to keep me out. I wasn't going to let her push me away. I made her accept her feelings for me. She frustrated me like fuck. Each time I thought I gave her reasons to stay sober, things set her off. The day she walked off from the pub and we couldn't find her she was at another pub drinking. Well, when I arrived some old perve was forcing himself or her, he said.
"What? Tyler said. She was pushing him off her so I stepped in. She brought me out of my rage as she was puking. She passed out on me. I took her back to the house and she slept in my bed with no nightmares. When I confronted her about it to make sure she was okay she said it was consensual. I flipped out at her way of thinking. She said she was pushing him off her because she was going to be sick not that she didn't want him to fuck her. He was fifty odd mate. She let me know her location so she wanted me there. I was getting closer with each passing day but the day Tristan fucked her I lost it.
"Your sudden illness? Tyler frowned. Yeah, that day was the day she had her seizure, literally pumping poison into herself. I couldn't handle it so I barged in there, I was so angry. She wasn't even into it. She wasn't even enjoying it. She was like an emotionless zombie. Why have sex if you don't feel? I dragged her out of there and I ended up throwing the poison at my wall. I hated that she was drinking when she could die.
"I had to make her see that I made her feel. Something, anything and I did. When my scent lingers on her skin she's warm and happy. She woke up happy too and then Regan sent her over the edge. Every time I got a step close she pushed me further away. It's only when we got here that I truly got through to her. She won't sleep in her own bed. She can't handle your friends touching her. Do you know why she fled the park?
"No, Tyler shrugged. Mason. He was all over her and she didn't like it. His scent was masking my scent on her skin making her cold. She hates them so close to her. Mason forcing himself on her at her birthday meal made her uncomfortable. Ezra touching her scar. That's it, bro, it's me or no one for her unless she's intoxicated and even then she knows how good it can be with me. She has so many insecurities but I'm working on them.
"And what? You're telling me all of this because you think I'll accept you as a couple? No fucking way. Don't forget the reason why I warned you away from her in process, Tyler growled. I won't hurt her man, he promised. She brings me back from the darkness, she's my light, he explained. Your story has flaws mate. You still get angry around her, hell more so because of your jealousy. You see red mate and you hurt people in the crossfire or did you forget about Skylar? Tyler yelled.
"She was different, I didn't love her. She was nothing to how I feel about her, he insisted. Riley doesn't stop your anger, Flynn. Don't get me wrong I understand it and I accept it but I wont have Riley in the crossfire. You could hurt her like you hurt Skylar. You see red Flynn and nothing you can say will convince me you won't hurt her in that state, Tyler ranted.
"Come on, man, she needs me. If I leave her I don't know where she will be, he said as he stroked the Angel's face. She will be safe from you, that's where she will be. She's better now, she will be fine and if not we will deal with it, Tyler growled. You think if I left her she will stay as she is? Are you deluded? If you give me more time I can heal her maybe but if I leave now, I dread to think, he cringed.
"No! You don't have time! he yelled. You'll break up with her or you'll ruin her. Is that what you want? You'll lose me if you don't. You're dangerous, either you end it or I'll do it myself and it won't be pretty, Tyler promised." Tears roll down my face and I shake my head.
"No, you aren't dangerous. You hurt me once, it was an accident, I was drunk. Was he really your friend if he said this?" I whimper.
"You didn't know what I was like before you. He was there for me when I was at my lowest. I want to make you see that I never wanted to lose you," I nod as he wipes my tears. "Just give me until we are back at Duke. She is never getting in that car if not. I need to say goodbye. Please, he begged. Fine, as soon as we get back not a minute longer, Tyler agreed. He looked down at his Angel. How was he supposed to say goodbye to her? she was his everything."