Forever Lost

Chapter 15

When I wake we are spooning. Flynn's holding my tummy protectively and he groans into my neck. He flexes his hips against me and I can feel his erection against my backside. "Doesn't take much, baby." I groan, "Are you going to grant me my wish?"
    "Hmm," I'm not ready to wake yet.
    "Well, I take that as a yes, you had better say no if you want me to stop." His hand moves from my bump to my breasts. They are slightly sore but his burning hand masks the soreness. He pushes his knee between my legs to prize them apart. "Last chance," he warns.
     I don't respond and he flexes his hips and he's inside me from behind. I push back onto him and he slides his arm under my neck and cups my breast, with the other hand he plays with my clit. "Flynn," I whimper.
    The pleasure is coursing through my veins, why him? Why only him? Why did God make him for me? He moves in a slow rhythm moving in and fully out of me with each thrust and it's driving me insane.
     "Stay with me, be mine, what I'd give to wake up to you every morning like this," he pants. "Don't push me out again."
     "Just shut up and finish what you started," I growl. "Put the fire out," I beg and he kisses my neck. "Love me and only me."
     "Always," he promises as he grazes my ear with his teeth. "Let go, baby," he hisses in my ear and I call out and he quickly holds my mouth. "Shh, we aren't alone."
      He finds his release and he holds me until we catch our breaths. There's a knock at the door, "Shit," Flynn mutters and pulls out of me and sits up.
     "Riley? Are you awake?" Ruby calls.
     "Yeah, come in," I call and she comes in. It looks like she's been crying. "Rubs," I gasp. I push Flynn out of bed and he grumbles. He stands up and starts dressing.
   I pull the covers up so they are hugging me as I sit up and I pat the bed. Ruby comes and sits next to me and I hold my arm up and she hugs me. Flynn looks at me and raises an eyebrow. "Go away, this is girl talk."
    Flynn shakes his head, "Fine," he grumbles, "I'll sort Miley out." He leaves the room and Ruby starts crying again.
     "What's wrong?" I ask.
     "I think that Tyler and I are over."
     "What? Why?" I gasp, they are solid. Or was should I say. After her Dad mishap they've never been stronger. That day she told him they had sex. She told me. She said he was good to her. That's all I needed. I didn't want sordid details about my brother's sex life.
     "Well, he doesn't want kids and I think there is another girl." Did he not learn after the Ariel mishap?
     "Why would you say that? Tyler hasn't looked at another girl since you. He's been head over heels for you. I thought he was coming around to the baby idea? You know you don't need to rush things you are still at uni."
I see her point. I longed to give Flynn a baby. It hurt like hell, I knew I wasn't ready but I was planning for the future. She signed up to uni that same day I gave her the forms. She even got a part time job around uni.
     "I know, I don't mean for right now. I just need to know he's all in, it's like he's giving me nothing. He's always on his phone and it's like he's not here with me."
      "Rubs, my brother is pretty thick. Like really thick, you could put a bomb up his arse and he still wouldn't get the message. I'm sure he's just being an inconsiderate twat, he loves you. I've never seen him like this with anyone."
      "You really think so?" she sniffs.
      "Yep, I know so. I'll talk to him but I'm sure he's clueless." She nods and wipes her eyes.
      "Thank you, you're a really good friend."
      "Yeah," I sigh. "She won't reply to any of my messages."
      "I told you, she just needs time." I nod and she gets out of bed. "Thank you." I smile and she leaves the room. I dress in a black maternity top that reads it's a boy. It has a cute cartoon picture of a sleeping baby boy where the bump is. I wear blue jeggings because they are the only jeggings he packed.
     I apply makeup and brush my hair. Once I'm done I head to Tyler's room and I walk in without knocking. "What the hell, Sis?" Tyler groans. He looks like he's just got out the shower and he's only wearing a towel. I walk up to him and I punch him in the stomach. He gasps and holds his stomach. 
    "What the hell are you playing at Tyler?" I growl. He coughs trying to get his breath back. I'm so pissed that he would make Ruby feel like this. I knee him in the balls for good measure and his face goes red. He drops to his knees to try to recover. "Are you cheating on Ruby?"
    His eyes widen but I don't think he can respond yet. "What?" he gasps for air. "No," he says adamantly. "How can you say that?"
    "She's been in my room crying because she thinks there is another girl. You need to buck your ideas up bro or you'll lose her. She deserves better than to feel like this. I know what it's like to be cheated on. I told her that you love her and there is no way you'd cheat on her but I need an explanation."
     "Christ, Lee, you can't come in here and assault me and then expect me to explain myself."
     "Oh, so you want me to let you be a clueless twat and lose her?"
     "There isn't anyone else. I guess I have been preoccupied. I see a future with Ruby, she's all I want and will ever want. From the minute I saw her I knew I needed her. Since I laid eyes on her it felt like I was living in slow-mo and she was living life in the fast lane. Time goes agonisingly slow when I'm not with her."
     A tear escapes my eyes, "That's cute."
    "Lee," he sighs. He stands up, "I'm going to ask her to move in with me."
    "Oh," I frown.
    "So yeah, I'm busy arranging that. I guess I'm no good at keeping secrets." I walk towards him and he backs away. I roll my eyes and I put my arms around his waist. "Oh," he chuckles. He wraps his arms around me. He kisses my forehead and I rest my cheek on his chest.
    I take a deep breath. "Sorry, I love you." A wave of nausea hits me but I swallow hard trying to ignore it.
    "Don't be, I guess I'm glad you are protecting my girlfriend instead of trying to kill her. You know I'm so glad you like her."
    "I don't like her, bro. I love her," he chuckles. My stomach starts swirling. "Hell, something is going off in here bro." I hold my mouth and my nose and I run out of his room. I run across the hall and I slide as I come to an abrupt stop outside the bathroom.
    I make my feet move to the toilet and I hurl. Hell! I thought this morning sickness had eased somewhat. "Flynn!" I call. I rest my arm on the seat and lean my head on my arm. "Flynn!" I call louder. Man, he better stop this sickness because it wears me out.
    I hear someone climbing the stairs quickly. I continue to puke into the toilet. I feel his burning hands slide my hair out my face and he holds it back with one hand and places his hand on my tummy. "Make it stop," I whimper.
     "I will baby," the nausea starts fading. I sit back and lean against Flynn's body and he rocks me gently.
     "You did this, you put this baby inside me," I mutter exhausted.
     He chuckles, "Yes, I did. He's mine just as you are mine." I stand up and he helps me, I flush the toilet and I brush my teeth. He leaves the bathroom and I look at myself in the mirror. He returns moments later with my meds.
    "No, not yet, I still feel sick," I shake my head but continue to brush my teeth.
    "Exactly why you need your anti-sickness one, baby." I groan and I spit and then rinse with mouthwash. He makes me take my meds and I push him out the bathroom. I shut the door and lock it, "Oh, so I'm kicked out of bed and now I'm kicked out the bathroom." He calls through the door.
     "I need a wee," I call back and sit on the toilet. I can't go through the night without needing a wee and I can't be away from the toilet for too long.
     "Oh so you're being shy now after you walked into the men's bathroom whilst I was pissing? What if some other guy was pissing too?"
      "Nothing I ain't seen before."
      I hear him growl and he slams his palm against the door in frustration. I finish going for a wee and I flush again. I wash my hands and I unlock the door. He looks me up and down and he cups my bump. He kneels down and kisses my bump and I gasp. "Hey, little man," he says to my belly. "I'm Daddy, I love you so much."
      I smile and I stroke his hair and he looks up at me and smiles. "I love you too," he grins. "I love that you are starting to show off my baby. You look so beautiful," I blush and he stands up and places a swift kiss on my lips.
    He takes my hand and he leads me downstairs. Ruby walks towards me and hugs me, "To say thank you Tyler and I are taking Rex for a walk."
    "Oh, erm, you don't need to do that. I was going to take him in a minute." Tyler comes into view with his lead.
    "Don't argue, you are resting today. You got it?" Tyler says and I roll my eyes. Tyler comes towards me and Rex grumbles.
     "Rex, shh, what's got into you?" I say and he stops to look up at me. Tyler clips his lead on and tries to pull him away from me.
     "What do you mean, Ri? He's always like that."
     "Like what? He's so well behaved," I don't understand.
     "When you're asleep he protects you, he growls at me and he's bitten me more than once," I shake my head.
      "He's a good boy," I counter.
      "Not really, Ri."
      "He's good for Miley though right?"
      "Yeah, course he is, he listens to her I think he knows she's little."
      "That's okay then," I walk towards Tyler and he flinches again. I kiss his cheek and he sighs with relief.
       "Kid, are you coming?" Tyler calls. Miley bounds into the hallway fully dressed with her wellies on. She holds her hands up to me and I lift her up.
        "Morning baby, are you going with Uncle Tyler and Ruby?"
        "Morning Mommy, yeah we are going to count all the animals we see."
        "That sounds like fun baby, I want to hear all about it when you get back." She clings to my neck before climbing down. She runs to hold Ruby's hand. Tyler blows me a kiss as he leaves the house with Ruby, Miley and my dog.
     "What was that about?" Flynn asks.
     "Well. . . I was a bit angry this morning," I admit.
     Flynn laughs, "You're always a bit angry these days. So what did you do?"
     "Well, I punched him in the stomach and kicked him in the balls."
     "Christ, what did he do to deserve that?"
     "He upset Ruby. She thought he was cheating on her and I know how it feels so I kicked his ass."
     "Tyler wouldn't cheat on Ruby, are you insane? I'm sorry Riley, I told you I will make it up to you."
      "It wasn't just you but your betrayal hurt more, I'm not going to lie. If he wasn't such a clueless twat and being on his phone twenty-four-seven we wouldn't be in this mess."
      "I know," he sighs. He leads me into the living room and I sit on the couch holding my bump. Flynn sits next to me and slides his hand between my legs holding my thigh. He turns the TV on and flicks through for something to watch.
     "Hey son, who's TV is it?" Dad asks raising his eyebrow. He's reading a newspaper anyway.
     "Who cares, you aren't even watching it old man," Flynn grumbles.
     "Less of the old son," Dad says peering up from his newspaper. The door goes and I go to stand up but Flynn gets up instead. He passes me the remote as he walks away from me. I get up anyway and I walk into the kitchen.
      "Hey," I say and hug Mom from the side as she cooks. She puts her arm around me.
      "Hey Honey, you okay?"
      "I need a drink but I'm scared to open the fridge."
      "Apple juice?" I nod and she moves out of my hold and I walk furthest away from the fridge. I hold my nose as she gets the apple juice from the fridge. She pours me some into a glass and places the cartoon back in the fridge.
     I pull myself onto the counter and she passes me the glass. I sip on it and it tastes so good. "Thank you, is there any food? I'm starving," she walks to the table in the kitchen and passes me a warm Chocolat au pain. I smile and tuck into it, so good.
     "Where's my granddaughter?" Nanny calls.
     "Fuck," I groan with my mouthful. "Kill me now," Mom laughs as she continues to cook. Nanny walks into the kitchen.
      "Where is she?" Nanny asks. I roll my eyes.
      "Mom, don't be coy, she's right in front of you."
      "That's not my Riley. What did you do?" She gasps, "You're pregnant? Who knocked you up?"
      "Well, I think his name was Liam or was it, Marcus? There were so many at the bar that day," I say with my mouthful.
      "Riley!" Flynn shouts from the other room.
      "You don't know who the father is? Or you forgot his name?" she asks shocked. Flynn enters the kitchen and walks towards me. He stands between my legs and holds my stomach.
       "Ri, stop pissing me off. Of course it's my baby," Flynn growls.
       "How could you be so stupid? You have your whole life ahead of you. Have you never heard of a condom?" I roll my eyes.
       "Mother, stop antagonising her, it's done now."
       "But she's ruining her life, Abigail! If she had been more careful, I've already told you about safe sex."
       "You think I'm ruining my life?" I shout. "I am so fucked up I have no idea where to go in life. Sure, I'm at Uni but what career who the hell knows? This baby is the only thing that feels right. So don't come here high and mighty and telling me I'm ruining my life! My kids are keeping me sane right now! They are my life!" I slide down and Flynn assists me.
      "Don't shout at me, young lady!"
      "Mother, leave her be, I don't want a fight today."
      "She needs an ass-whooping. She's got no manners these days."
      "Fuck you," I growl. I storm out of the room and I punch the door as I leave. I hear Nanny gasp as I exit the kitchen. I climb the stairs and head to Flynn's room. I shut the door behind me and I lift the covers up and I slide underneath and pull the covers up protecting me.
      The door clicks open and moments later Flynn wraps around me. "Don't let her get to you, we were having a better day."
      "I want to go home."
      "Please, don't withdraw from me. I need to be close to you."
      "Well, good for you, we don't always get what we want," I mumble. I lay on my back and he puts his hand on my stomach.
      He smirks, "Oh you are so wrong baby, I've got most things I've wanted."
      "You said you didn't want kids Flynn. I went through this alone to keep you happy. You always cry wolf but I did this alone for you."
       "I know," he sighs. "I didn't want kids with Scarlett or anyone else. The first day I tasted you, skin on skin. You think I would risk that if I didn't want this? I want a future with you. A family only with you."
       Tears fall from my face, "Then why did you leave me? Was it hindsight? Did you have to play the field? Did I not mean so much that you got bored? Was I too much of a bother?"
         He wipes my tears and he looks sad, "Ri, I was backed into a corner by Tyler. Then I had to make it clear that we were over or I'd keep coming back to you as we have before. I didn't kiss Scarlett that day that I said. I would never, could never cheat on you." I frown, why would he say that he did? "The next day we never slept together."
      "Bullshit," I sob. "She was naked in your bed. It fucking killed me."
      He shakes his head, "I hit the bar after I left you. I was hurting, it's what I do when I've lost you. I was drunk, Scarlett was at the same bar. She was trying to help me, it was as friends. Then I said she can stay at mine because we were both drunk. I was in my boxers and she stripped because she was hot. I didn't even look, I was literally going to pass out. My head was spinning. There wasn't even a kiss involved.
     "She was embarrassed and left as soon as you did," I shake my head and he cups my face. "I just didn't correct you because I needed you to hate me. It's true I did love her but it was ages before anything happened. Ages before I could have sex with her. I was happy with her but I didn't want to marry her or have kids with her."
     "I needed you," I whisper.
     "I know baby and I'm sorry. I hate that you did this to your hair," he slides his hand from my cheek to my hair. "Your soul isn't black, it will always be pink. I love you whatever colour your hair is but I know the reason behind it. I made you sick, didn't I? All those times."
      "I accepted you two, my baby obviously rejected you two. I was so sick, in the end, I just stopped eating so there was nothing to puke up."
      "Our baby and you can't just stop eating. You are so skinny."
      I shake my head, "No, I'm so fat," I hold my belly and he puts his hand over the top.
      "Pfft, hardly, you are lighter now than you were before." He slides his hand up my top and touches my ribs and I gasp. He's burning me. "What I don't get is, he made you orgasm."
     "You can't be angry about that," I snap.
     "I am angry but it's my problem, I will always want you to belong to me. But what I'm saying is how did he?"
     "I don't know. It was ages until I let him. It was so uncomfortable and I was crying all the way through but I had to do it. He kept trying to stop but I made him continue. I guess my own stubbornness was the issue. I wasn't ready. I felt as though I cheated on you and then I felt dirty. Every time he stayed over or we had sex I needed to change the sheets.
     "It got easier each time, I felt sexually frustrated each time he finished and I didn't. Once I was comfortable enough to move and create friction for myself that's when I climaxed. It was only the once and it was a different kind of feeling. He made me feel calm and somewhat safe but I still had nightmares but it was nice to wake and he was there."
     "You really are stubborn," he shakes his head. "Your parents didn't like him at all."
     "He was nice to me," I defend him.
     "I guess," he shrugs. "Your parents want someone that looks after you and he didn't. He didn't seem to care that you wouldn't eat. He kept making you get up for drinks. It was an open fucking tab for fuck sake. He could have got off his arse and got it himself. When you left he didn't seem bothered."
     "It wasn't an open bar. I paid for everything! He listened to what I needed. He was there how I needed him to be. I couldn't handle anyone else looking after me. I wouldn't even let him undress me. Ever! He knew that it was my way or no way or he'd be gone. He wanted me to be his but I refused. Nothing was easy, which is why I resent you lot even more."
     "It was an open bar but you had to be stubborn. You didn't let him strip you? That's one of my favourite things to do."
     "I know and mine too. It was our thing," I close my eyes and his lips lower to mine as he strokes my cheek.
     "I'm going to fix this."
     "I don't want you to fix this," I protest. I open my eyes, "Go back to Scarlett, I'll explain that it's all my fault. She will accept you back if she knows you want her."
     "I don't want her, Ri. I want you!"
     "I took a punch and a knock to the ground for what? Nothing?"
     "Say what?" he growls.
     "When I told Scar about your birthday she punched me and I fell. Obviously, I didn't know I was pregnant then. Luckily I'm strongly built especially after James and his assaults."
     "She hit you?" he seems shocked.
    "Of course she did. It's a normal response. I would have done much worse," I shrug.
    "When do they think you got pregnant?"
    "Around the time you left me or I left you. After Miley stayed the weekend."
    "It all makes sense now. The mood swings, the seduction and the early orgasms."
    "Only with you," I counter and I turn my head away and he grabs my chin and brings me back to him.
     "I love that, don't be ashamed." He kisses my lips and I groan.
     "Bro," Tyler says and walks in. "Gross," he protests.
     Flynn removes his lips from mine and looks at him, "Mom wants you to come back downstairs. We are going out for late breakfast," he announces.
     "I thought we were staying home today," I groan.
     "I thought pregnant women like food?" he chuckles.
     "You try carrying a tiny human inside of you. It's exhausting," I sigh.
    "No thanks, come on sis," Flynn stands up and helps me to my feet and I hold my back. He puts his arm around me as we walk downstairs. I walk into the living room and everyone stops talking in hushed voices. I roll my eyes and I hold my stomach whilst I go to sit down but Flynn pulls my arm.
     "Don't sit down, Ri, you won't want to get up. Let's go straight to the car," I roll my eyes. Miley runs towards me and she holds her hands out to me. I lift her up and sit her on my hip as I walk to the front door. I set her on her feet and slide her coat on. I help her into her shoes and I stand up and shove my shoes on without bending down.
      I lift her back into my arms and Flynn holds a coat out for me. I roll my eyes and I grab it off him. I don't need him looking after me. I hear him sigh and he opens the door for me. Rex runs out the door with me. "I'm going to kill that dog," Flynn curses.
     "Leave him alone," I growl. "I'll put him inside in a sec," I walk to the car and he opens the back door. I slide Miley in and do up her belt. I leave my coat on the back seat. I kiss her forehead and shut her door. I walk back to the house. "Did anyone feed my dog this morning?" I look to them all in the driveway. No one says they did so I head inside.
      "Christ, we are never leaving," Flynn curses from outside. I walk into the kitchen and I can't find his food. I walk into the utility room and it's on the floor. Stop putting the food on the floor. He will eat it, he's a greedy dog. I bend down, "Don't you fucking dare, Ri."
      I roll my eyes, "People keep putting it on the floor. He will eat it and then he will get poorly!" he pushes me out of the way and he lifts it onto the counter.
    "I will talk to them okay. No heavy lifting," I roll my eyes. I coped before they knew. Why is it such a big deal now? I grab Rex's bowl and I fill it and give it to him. I make sure he has water, "Right, can we go now?"
       He takes my hand and leads me towards the front door without me agreeing. He pulls us outside and he shuts the door. He leads me to the back of Tyler's car and I slide in. Flynn slides in next to me and does up my belt. Tyler drives to the restaurant and we get out the car.
      Flynn and I hold Miley's hand between us and I see a familiar figure and I stop. No. I let go of Miley's hand and they keep walking. The guy looks at me and stares at me as if he doesn't recognise me for a while. Once he does he frowns at me. I notice Flynn looking back at me. He whispers something to Miley and she runs to Mom.
     Tyler also looks back at me and they both walk to me. "Ri?"
      "Ty, I don't want to. . . see him," I whisper. He looks at who I'm looking at and the guy comes towards us. They both stand in front of me, protecting me.
      "How the hell are you out of prison?" Tyler growls.
      He shrugs, "Good behaviour and a good lawyer," Brad looks around them to look at me. "Hi," he smiles at me.
      "Don't talk to her," Flynn growls. "She doesn't want to talk to you."
      "If I remember correctly she can stick up for herself." Flynn reaches back to me and holds my hand. I hold his hand with both of mine.
       "I have nothing to say to you," I growl.
       "See, there's the little firecracker. Can you step aside? I'd like to talk to her," he looks at my two bodyguards but they don't move.  "I'm not going to hurt her," he rolls his eyes.
       "I don't trust you, Brad, you've already assaulted her," Tyler growls.
       "I was grieving, I wasn't in my right mind. I'd like to apologise," he sighs.
       "Ty, it's okay," I assure him. I push him over and stand between them. "I don't need your apology."
      He looks at my stomach, "Is it James's?" he asks. Flynn growls next to me. Brad goes to touch my stomach but Tyler grabs his wrist.
      "No, he's mine," Flynn growls. "If you want your hands to stay attached to your body then don't touch what's mine." He pulls his arm out of Tyler's grip.
        Flynn's lips press against my temple, "James wants me to look out for you. You know, he was furious with me for having sex with you."
        "Why?" I whisper.
        "Because he loves you. I thought if I had sex with you I'd feel closer with my best friend. I missed him so much. I didn't know he was still alive until I saw him in prison. He beat me to a pulp and I thought I was in some sort of nightmare. When I woke in medical he came to see me. He apologised for attacking me but he told me it was unacceptable to hurt you or fuck you."
      "Ironic seeing as he attacked her!" Flynn growls. I know most of this I went to the prison and he looked pretty beat up.
      "He's sorry about that. Everything he did, the stalking, breaking into the apartment and watching her sleep, the assault, everything."
     I shiver, "He watched her whilst she slept?" Tyler growls.
      He shrugs, "That's what he said, I don't know. Regardless of what he did, he's sorry."
      "Did he kill her?" I whisper and he sighs.
      "Yes," he admits. I cringe and Flynn pulls me to him and holds me. "He didn't rape her. I know the tests were inconclusive but he didn't. She hurt you more than once. She was a threat to you. He had to protect you. He was sick, Riley. He didn't really know what he was doing. He knows it was wrong."
      "I'm going inside now," I say.
      "Wait, I didn't get to my apology yet." I roll my eyes, "I'm sorry I hurt you. Like I said, I wanted to feel close to him. I felt something for you I just didn't want to admit it. I was a mess back then. I know nothing will happen now he's alive. You are his," he seems genuine.
     "No, she's mine. Nothing will happen because I'm here. You don't have a chance. Come on, Ri," he takes my hand again and pulls me to the restaurant. Tyler follows behind us. We find them sat at a table and I lower myself onto a seat and Flynn and Tyler sit either side of me. Miley runs to me and I pull her to my lap.
    "What happened to you guys?" Mom asks.
    "Brad was outside," Tyler informs. I shiver and Flynn takes my hand and brings my knuckles to his lips.
    "Impossible, he had five years," Dad growls.
    "He said he was out on good behaviour and a good lawyer," Tyler informs.
    "It wasn't even a year jail time. I'll make some calls later, did he hurt you, princess?"
    "I ain't a princess. No, he was trying to apologise," I shrug.
    "Can I get you some drinks?" The waiter asks. They all order their drinks and they get to me.
    "Coffee and an orange juice," I smile.
    Flynn growls, "Do you have decaf?" the waiter nods. "Good, she will have that."
    "Very good sir. I'll come back and take your food order." I glare at Flynn and he kisses my knuckles.
     "Don't start Ri, you know you can't," he moves my hand but keeps it in his lap.
     "I miss proper coffee," I whisper. A tear rolls down my cheek and he chuckles.
     "Ri, don't cry, it's just a drink."
     "Sis, don't cry, christ." Tyler's always hated when I cry.
     "You and your hormones, I never know if you are going to rip my head off or cry. It's just a coffee," Flynn smirks. He leans towards me and kisses my forehead. My tears dry up, "You're cute," he strokes my hair. He passes me a menu and I start to read it.
      The waiter returns and takes everyone's order. "Ri, what are you having?" I look up at him, "Don't cry, not again," he warns. "What do you want to eat?"
       "Ice cream and fries," I whimper.
       He laughs, "Baby it's not on the menu," tears fall from my eyes. He looks at the waiter, "Please tell me you can get her some ice cream and fries."
       "We don't serve fries until after midday," he shrugs.
       "If my daughter wants fries you'll cook fries, do you hear me? Even if you need to bring your manager over. You get her what she wants," Dad insists.
        "Yes sir, I'll see what I can do."
        "You crave some weird crap, stop crying, you'll get it," I nod and sniff. Miley looks at me and frowns.
       "Mommy, why are you crying?"
       "Your brother wants ice cream and fries. He makes me cry if he doesn't get it," I wipe my eyes. She puts her cheek and hands on my tummy.
      "Silly brother, stop making Mommy upset. I love you," she says and I stroke her hair. Stupid pregnancy hormones.