duration of love

Not again

JADEN
I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE IT
HENERY
IN GEORGIA
IN MY FUCKING SCHOOL
WTF
I STOOD THERE JS SUPRISED
The bell ring
I left and went to my class
The entire day I was js thinking abt henery and y/n
Is she back with him
Is he abusing her again?
Is she ok?
So many questions and yet no answers

After class I went out to the locker room to get ready for my baseball game
I get ready and head out to get some practice before we start
"Hey Jaden"
"Yo Wsg matt"
He dabs me up
"Yo real talk I need u to switch places wit me"
"Wym by that?" I ask confused
"Places, I'm batting 3 rd I need u to switch places"
"Ight fine by me" I say still confused on y he wanted to in the first place

The game is starting and we're up first
I look into the stanze and see my mom and dad wit daelo
No wanna
No Jayla
Bruh

"Next up for batting Jaden Walton" the announcer said
I take a deep breath and step on the base
I get into position
Pitcher throws
I swing
Strike 1

Shit
I get ready again
Pitcher throws
I swing
Strike 2
Shit come on!

"Yo Jaden get ur head in the game stop fooling around" coach yells
"Ik"
~prick
I get ready again
Pitchers ready
Pitcher throws
I dont swing
"STRIKE 3, YOUR OUT WALTON!"
"BULLSHIT THAT WAS CLEARLY A BALL!"
"I SUGGEST U WATCH UR MOUTH WALTON OR YOUR OUT OF THE GAME"
"WHAT FOR DEFENDING MY SELF THAT WASNT A STRIKE THAT WAS CLEARLY A BALL! IT WAS WAY OFF!"
"LAST WARNING WALTON!"
"MAN IDGAF, FUCK THIS GAME" I said standing there picking up my bat
"THATS IT WALTON YOUR OUT OF THE GAME"
"Oh bravo umpire u won an arguement with a 16 year old how do u feel now huh?" I say while clapping to his stupidity

"WALTON OUT THE FIELD NOW" coach yells at me
"Idk what that was out there but ur out of the game"
"Yea no shit the umpire IS TO BLIND TO SEE THE FUCKING BALL GO OFFSIDE!" I scream looking at the umpire
"Alr Walton that's enough, you've had enough for today go home!" Coach said taking my cap off
"What-?"
"GO HOME WALTON!"
"DAMMIT!" I yell slamming my bat onto the floor
"And don't come back until u fix that attitude and apoligize to the umpire" coach says as I leave the dugout and go to the locker rooms to collect my stuff

I change grab my keys and head out the game
I need air
I was abt to reach my car when I see daelo reach for me
"Where u going j?" He asks so innocently
"Just gonna take a breathe somewhere quiet" I said
"Can I come"
"No dae mom and dad would be worried and u have practice today, maybe next time ok" I say patting his head
"Fine- I love you j" he says giving me a hug
"Yea me too dae.." I give him a hug back and a smile as he returns with my parents

I get Into my car and start driving
Where am I going?
Idk
Somewhere far
Somewhere peaceful
Somewhere...
Quiet.

Y/N
me wanna and Jayla were hanging out after school
We went to the movies and then to an arcade
We spent all day together

"What u guys wanna do now?" Jayla asks
"GASS STATION RUNNN!!" Me and Wanna yell
We get into the car and go to the gas station Infront of our house.
We enter and get tons of snacks and we took some pictures
"I'll pay" I said
"Nope" wanna said swiping his card alr
"Seriously dude"
"We get it wanna u have money!" Me and Jayla say mocking wanna
"Y'all js jelous of my hundred bills" he says waving his card around
We started to laugh a lot

We left the store and headed home
"Huh? I wonder why j's cars not here?" Jayla says
I look over to the spot where he normally parks
She's right it's not there
"He probably went to go get something" wanna said
We head inside to my house and go to my room
"Let play a game!"
"Ok bet"
"Let's play spin truth or dare" Jayla says with an evil smirk
"Umm what now?"
"Basically whoever spins the bottle gets to ask truth or dare to the person that it lands on" jayla said
"Ok simple" I say  going on to the ground and sitting
"fineeeee" wanna whined as he went from my bed to the ground
"Ok let's start" Jayla says grabbing a empty coke glass bottle
Jayla spins it
It lands on Javon
"Ok truth or dare"
"Truth"
I thought of a truth and whispered it to Jayla
"That's good, ok Wanna is it true u have a lil crush on Bella" we both Giggle
" from chem?"
I nod my head yes
"Umm.." he startes getting nervous and rubs hmthe back of his head
"YOU DOOO- I KNEW IT"  I say jumping up and down
"Have u talked to her yet?" Jayla asks
"Uhh yea- I'm taking her out this Friday" he says
"OMFG" I say screaming into my pillow with excitement
"Cuteeee" Jayla says
"Yea yea wtv my turn" 
He spins the bottle

It lands on Jayla
"Ok Jayla- truth or dare"
"Dare" she responded
"I dare u to text allissa saying u want to meet her up tmrw after school for dinner"
Jayla gets nervous
"Who's allissa??" I asked
"This gurl I'm kind of talking to" she responded
"Aww cute" I said
She does the dare and then she spins the bottle
Lands on me
"Oooo perfect"she says
"Ok y/n- truth or dare"
"Truth." I say skeptical
"Do u still love Jaden"
~shit
~what do I even say
"Umm- I don't think so"
"Wdym by that?" Wanna asks
"Well- idk I Js don't like him like that, I love someone else"
"Ooo whooo" Jayla says
~shit how do I tell them that he's back
"Umm its-"
"Me-" Henry says from my doorway
"Henry?"

JADEN
I was at a moutain
Ok not a mountain a hill top per say
I used to come here a lot when I Js needed to escape from reality
I parked my car on the side of the edge Js sitting on the hood of it looking into the sunset
Where I was
It's atleast and hour or 2 away from my house
Better than being where everyone can find me
I stood there drinking this juice I got while the wind slowly swept my face with its coldness and runs through my hair like a comb
I looked into the sunset as it slowly went away
~ what did I do wrong
I said to myself still asking the same question to myself everyday
I take a deep breath and then it happened
A tear fell down off my face to my cheek to my pants
~ what
Then more and more and there I was Js crying on the hood of my car staring into the sunset in this quiet mini forest Js letting it all out
~ what DID I do wrong
~ everything gets blamed on me
~ even if I'm not even there
I couldn't stop
It just kept coming
I felt weak
Like I let my guard down
Like I failed myself
My parents
My siblings
My school
My carreer

It's all Js gone now
Nothing left for me once again
I continued
It felt like an on going waterfall
Js non stop

Eveantully the sun went down and the purple sky slowly converted to a dark blue sky with beautiful white suns
Then it stopped
The waterfall reached its end
It was late
I got back into the car and headed home

Once I got there no cars were in the driveway
~wtf?
I park my car and enter inside
"Hello?"
It's silent
"Uhh hello??"
No one's home
~huh

I went to y/ns house to see if they know
I knocked
No answer
I knocked
Still no answer
There probably still out

I went back home and stayed in my room
Where could they have gone??
I stayed in my room and started to js watch a movie

And then I noticed
He I was once again alone in my room like always
No difference here

I stayed there until I heard some noise downstairs
I went to go check it out
All I heard was laughing

"Umm hey??"
"Oh hey Jaden" Jayla says laughing as wanna and my parents come in with daelo and y/ns family 
"Where- did u guys umm go?"
"Oh we went out to eat at Olive Garden" Javon says putting his leftover food away

They went to my favorite restaurant without me

"Oh cool"
"Yea what have u been doing"
"Oh nothing"
They all started to sit by the couch
"Oh sorry dude no space left"
"Oh that's fine I- I was js gonna go upstairs either way"
"OMG GUYS! I JS GOT ACCEPTED INTO THIS COLLEGE PROGRAM THAT CAN GIVE ME A SCHOLORSHIP ONCE ILL GRADUATE AND I GOT ACCEPTED INTO THE SOFTBALL TEAM!!" Y/n screamed out of her joy
Everyone congratulated her and hugged her
"U know- I had a game today-.." I said trying to get there attention
Not one persons attention was on me
It was all in y/n once again

I js head back upstairs
And began to pack
I packed all the stuff that I needed
The important stuff
Ig since I'm practically invisable again
Why not make myself permanently invisable
I get my stuff and head downstairs
There all still talking with y/n
I head for the front door grab my keys and get to my car
"Jaden don't leave" daelo says coming to me
"Im not dae- im js- Umm js gonna go to a sleepover"
"Promise you'll come back"
He looks at me like he was gonna cry
I think dae was the only one that actually cared abt me and not js bs off me
"I promise-."
"Love u j" he says hugging me
"Love you too dae" I give him a hug and then lower myself down to his height
"Hey- promise me you will be great for everybody- don't let anybody cross u over"
"Ok j i promise" I give him a last hug before I leave him

I head Into my car and start driving
Idk where to
But js
Somewhere.