In A Relationship With Enhypen Jungwon [Completed]

9 | God It's Brutal Out Here

"You and Jungwon oppa are hosting the award show together. Is he nice to you?"

Olive read the comment, and I raised my head. We were hosting a live in the celebration of our second group anniversary, and answering some of the fan questions. Of course, since the moment news hit the public, people have been gushing about us.

Enhypen Jungwon and Midnight Blues Teal.

"Sunbae is nice," I said with a fake smile. He was anything but nice. "I have a bit of experience in the mc job just like him, so we talk a lot on how to move from here or all the doubts we have." I nodded, not saying much but not completely avoiding answer as well.

We ended the live, and moved to the next task. Rehearsals for the award show. After that, I went for the final practice for the award show with Jungwon. When I entered the room, he wasn't there, probably stuck in the practices. I decided to take a short nap for the time being and curled myself into a small ball. I hadn't slept in last 20 hours, and it was draining me too much.

I tried to dream about my aunt's cooking and warm hands, with the sun shining and a lot of fruit trees. But slowly the picture changed, clouds covered the sky. I looked around, startled and the leaves turned grey and so did the scenarios. My aunt looked up at me, but instead of smiling, she was glaring at me. I stepped forward, but she stepped back, out of my reach.

My hands caught air. The walls appeared and my parents came into the scene. I covered my ears. I didn't want to hear what they had to say. I truly didn't, but their voices pierced my ears like arrows.

"You fixed yourself with botox, but what about her? I can't introduce her as my daughter! This business world means connections. Who will want to tie a bond with us when we don't even have a pretty girl to offer as a future relationship?"

"As if her ugly features are only because of me. She's your daughter too!"

"Chayoung is still young. Fix an appointment with good surgeon and handle this shit. I need this deal. I want him to look at my daughter and accept her as their future daughter in law!"

I crouched down, and pressed my hands hard over my ears. Their screams elevated and I screamed back, anything anything to mute them, their horrible insults. I felt the floor disappear under me and then there was a deep sense of panic that surrounded me. I couldn't breath. I opened my eyes. I was in the sea.

The water, it had gotten into my lungs, I couldn't breathe. I'm ashamed to be her mother! Unwanted. Unlovable. Ugly duckling. The voices still haunted me, and I curled my hands into fist. I was drowning. I want to live. I want to be loved. Millions of people love me. They love me. It's okay my parents don't. I tried to chant in my mind, but in vain. I had no one. No one who knew my ugliness and still loved me for me.

"Chayoung."

A heavy deep voice muted everything. I felt a touch on my hand. "Chayoung, it's a dream. Come back." The voice said, and I felt someone uncurling my fists. "Come back. Come back to me."

I gasped and sat up. Sweat was built up on my forehead and I felt like I had just ran a marathon. My wide eyes met Jungwon's who stared at me blankly. I lowered my eyes and saw him holding both of my hands, wait, that was me gripping his hands tightly. There were half moon shaped structure over his palm where I had held him.

"Shit. I'm so sorry!" I lifted our intertwined hands and examined the damage done. "Sunbae, forgive me I-"

"Are you alright?"

I raised my head. He had an odd look on his face. It made me wonder if I had said something in my nightmare. "Yes, I'm okay. I have fear of deep water, so it was kind of a nightmare."