In A Relationship With Enhypen Jungwon [Completed]

31 | Memories Of You

"Your motivation to get into kpop. What was it? We'll talk about it today. And then we're done with the solo shots."

"I saw SNSD sunbaenims, and thought 'ah I would also like to bring the boys out.' too." I laughed at my broken sense of humor. "They really made me who I am today. I dreamed of becoming an idol because of the senior groups. Our seniors are like legends. I feel like we idols are thriving today globally because of them. They all really built a path for us, so I'm really grateful."

"We're completing six years soon. It was like yesterday I remember sitting there in the practice room, preparing for our first ever comeback. Talking with my members about life, marriage and old age. We promised each other that our happiness would be our first priority. We've come a long way."

"Your favorite memory while preparing for debute."

I chuckled. "I think training period is more simpler than debute one. I don't remember much time from the debute preparation because we were under so much stress and it was very hard on all of us. I was very sensitive during debute, and I and Olive fought just a day before our showcase."

The director raised his eyebrow. He would cut out whatever part the company would think was controversial, so I was given full reign on sharing things. They could edit out whatever they wanted.

"I know it sounds scandalous, but it was my fault mostly. Olive was very serious about practicing and she was kind of sensitive, and I tried to cheer everyone up. It led to an argument and yeah she ended up crying. We both debuted very young. I was 16, about to turn 17, and she's younger than me. The favorite memory part is that the crying session made it easier for us breath, we all ate together and felt better after crying. It made us feel light."

"Done." The director smiled. "We'll get the schedule ready for the last group shot now. Thank you for today."

I got up from the couch. "Of course. Thank you for today." I bowed to him and the staff members. It was 6 in the morning and I was supposed to start with the practice session. Only a few hours left before YG will unveil my first album's teaser with the title track. The promotional events were starting from the next week. I was already done with the photoshoots, music videos, interview recordings.

My back pain was a little bit better now. I took a couple of therapy sessions, but after the completion of promotions, I would have to get myself checked properly. My doctor was strictly against this debute, saying I needed to rest, but my brain wouldn't turn off. I couldn't find it in myself to be with me. This solo debute was my escape from my mind. My reality. Myself.

I started towards the practice room I had built in my apartment when my eyes fell on the sticky note. My mind was hit by a memory. Jungwon was standing there beside me. It was the time when I was going through health issues plus my back pain, and couldn't properly perform on the stage. I was going through intense backlash for that, and practicing harder to do well.

'Chayoung, you're doing enough.'

"You're already doing more than enough." He put the sticky note on the wall, outside the practice room. Then he turned and cupped my face. His eyes like shining stars. His warmth like my personal heaven. "Chayoung, you're before anyone else. People will always have something to say. You got to put yourself first. Okay?"

"Then you have to promise me one thing too." I covered his hands with mine. "That you'll put yourself first. No matter what. Wherever you can put yourself first, you'll. Yang Jungwon, you are ordered to take care of yourself and your wishes. Your mind. Your life."

"Okay ma'am." He saluted.

"And, you won't let anything ruin your mental peace. Not even me. Sue the haters."