Plump, Hated, And Bullied

I can't marry you

    Chapter 53

    Ren POV

    The last one week Lilian has been away felt boring for me. She has literally been living rent-free in my head as I keep seeing her everywhere I go. At this point, I won't deny it anymore that I fell in love with her, although I have no idea how it happened.

    Tracy has been living with me, but it feels like I'm alone here. I have tried my best to avoid her so she won't think that I'm trying to take advantage of her or something, and I no longer feel like having anything with any other woman as the only person I can think of now, is Lilian. I don't know what she did to me, but it doesn't really matter what she did, what matters is that she already swept me off my feet.

    It's a beautiful Monday morning, but none of my days ever felt beautiful since she left, so it's just like every other day for me. I got a secretary to assist me in the meantime before she comes back, although I'm not feeling quite comfortable around the secretary since I'm not used to him.

    After I get dressed for the office, I stride out of my room and head downstairs. I wasn't planning to have breakfast before I leave home since it's what I've always done, so I advance toward the exit door as soon as I get to the living room.

    "What is the meaning of this, Ren?" Tracy's voice brings me to a halt while still having my hand on the doorknob, and I sigh as I remove my hand and turn to face her. What is it again now?

    Her eyes are blazing with anger as she glares hard at me, and I can't help but ask myself what she's on about this time. She didn't want me, and now that I've tried to stay away from her, she wouldn't stop nagging. What exactly do women really want?

    "What is it, Tracy?" I ask her, trying not to show my frustrations. I can't believe that I'm so tired of the woman I used to love so much with everything in me, it's crazy how I badly want to stay away from her now when all I did was build my world around her and let it revolve around her. I have always known that feelings change, but I never imagined mine would be a part of it.

    "This is what you wanted from the beginning which was what made my mom send me here. Why have you been avoiding me? You haven't talked to me since I got here one week ago, and you know what? I'm sick and tired of this whole bullshit!" She snaps at me, and for seconds, I want to tell her to just leave for the sake of our peace of mind, but I don't want to make it look like I'm chasing her away.

    "What is it this time, Tracy..."

    "I told you that we should get married. It has been one week, and you aren't saying anything yet. Is this how I'm going to be here forever?" She snaps at me again, and I sigh briefly. It's a good thing Rhea had something urgent to do back home and she left. Maybe things wouldn't have been the same if she was here.

    "I told you we can't just get married like that, ok? You don't get married because your family is forcing you to. You don't even love me, and..." I pause, knowing my next word would get her angry. I no longer feel the spark between us, and I wanted to tell her, but that will only make her tell her lungs out this morning. I'm not ready for this drama.

    "Can we talk about this when I get back home?" I sigh frustratingly.

    "No, we are not talking about anything when you come back. We need to talk about it now and here. Let's get married, Ren," She utters.

    "I don't want to marry you, Tracy," I finally tell her the truth, and she raises her eyebrows.

    "What did you say?" She inquires.

    "I'm going to talk to your mom and make sure she doesn't bully you later. Isn't this crazy? You hated me so much because I was living a promiscuous life... You asked me to call off the engagement even though I went on my knees and pleaded with you that I didn't want to end things. Yes, I know it was all my fault... You couldn't have stuck around a man that couldn't control himself around women, a man that sleeps with any woman that comes her way... It was fine that you deserved better... But didn't you think it was extreme to make excuse not to show up for our wedding?" I ask her, and her mouth drops open. Was she thinking I had no idea about what happened? I knew from the onset that she got into the accident so she could avoid the wedding, she deliberately cooked up lies about her brother getting hurt that day. I knew all of it, but I let go because I loved her so much and wanted to be with her, regardless.

    "I asked for some time to get over it... I promised that I would change for you and myself because I wanted to be with you at all costs... I wanted to keep you by my side forever, but fate wasn't in support of it, I guess. Maybe this is our fate," I shrug sadly.

    "Ren..."

    "I will talk to your mom after I leave the office today, so you can leave tomorrow," And with that, I turn and stride out of the house, closing the door behind me.

    The drive to the office didn't take me much time, and I arrived in a few minutes. I get to work immediately since I had a lot to take care of.

    My phone suddenly starts ringing barely thirty minutes into working and seeing Lilian's name displayed on the screen, I feel my heart waver excitedly.

    "Hey," My heart beats fast as I suddenly become nervous at the sound of her voice. I have missed her so much, and I can't just wait to have her here again.

    "Hey. How have you been?" Her sweet voice sounds through the phone.

    "I'm fine, what about you?" I ask her.

    "I'm fine. My dad is responding to treatment now. The doctor said that it'll take some time before he will recover. Maybe about three to six months," I feel a sting in my heart as she mentions that. Is she going to stay away that long? How will I cope here without her?

    "Wow! That's great," I reply to her, although I'm sad deep inside me. I didn't think she would stay that long there, but what can I do but wait for her?

    We talk about random things before she finally ends the call, and I drop my phone on the desk. Maybe confessing my feelings to her when she comes back won't be a bad idea, right? I want her, and I should go for her before someone else does.

    'I have something to tell you whenever you come home. Looking forward to seeing you, and stay safe over there' I type in my phone and send it to her, dropping my phone afterward. Wow! My day is ruined now, and I can't bring myself to do anything now...