THAT NERD IS MINE

CHAPTER 57

Chapter 57

Rys POV

  My heart is s beating so fast as i looked straight into his cold emotionless eyes. Yung mga mata niyang dati ay may kislap at may saya. Yung mga mata niyang kung tumingin ay nakakapanlambot ng tuhod at nakakapanghina.

    Akala ko pagkalipas ng tatlong taon makakaya ko na siyang harapin ng hindi ako kakabahan. Nang hindi ako matatakot. Na baka kapag kaharap ko siya galit o sama ng loob ang mararamdaman ko para sakanya. Na baka bumalik yung galit na naramdaman ko nung makita ko yung larawan niyang may kasamang iba. Pero ngayong nasa harap ko na siya hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit hindi ko magawang pakalmahin ang nag wawala kung puso. It feels that my heart was longing for him for a long time.

    I was physically calm but im mentally panicking. D*mn. Inaasahan ko ng magkikita kami dahil nasa iisang mundo lang kaming ginagalawan ngayon pero hindi ganito ka aga. Im not ready to face him. Hindi pa ako handa at hindi ko alam kung kailan pa ako magiging handa.  O sadyang ayaw ko lang siyang makita?

  Matagal kaming nagkatitigan. Walang ni isa sa amin ang nagsalita. Renz excused his self and leave us as fast as he could. As i look at him now i can easily say that he was successful. Pinilit kung hindi makibalita sakanya pero sa tuwing naglilibot ako sa US hindi ko maiwasang makita ang mukha niya sa Billboard. He's not a model nor an actor but he was one of the known young billionaire in  Asia. Yung pangalan niya ay subrang matunog sa business world at underground. Who would think that the Gangster King  of the highest Empire in Underground was ruled by a 25 year old man?

  I want to slap him for not looking for me. I want to confront him for what he did three years ago. I want to nag at him, tell him how i suffered during my pregnancy. How i want him holding my hands during my delivery. I want to tell him how happy i am when I first saw our twins. I want him to know what happened to me these past three years without him. But i couldn't, the moment I saw him, the moment his gaze met mine, i couldn't speak. My knees feel so weak. All I want to do is break down . I can't even say a single word infront of him. My mind is mentally blank.

   Hindi ko na natagalan ang mga mata niyang walang emosyon kaya nag iwas na ako ng tingin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit parang sinasaksak ang puso ko habang nakatingin sa kanyang mga mata. He used to look at me with admiration and love. I used to be the girl who make those eyes sparkle. Pero ngayon? Hindi na,sa paraan ng pag tingin niya sakin? Iba na.  It looks like im just nobody to him, someone who's not important from his past.

  "I-"

  "Mr. Stanford, Ms. Falcon Long time no see."sabay kaming napatingin ni Hades sa kanan ng magsalita ang isang matanda. He's with his 50's, I think. Naka tuxido ito at halatang nanggaling sa kilalang pamilya.

  "Mr.Arion."Hades greeted. The old man smiled at him and then he looked at me.

  "Wouldn't you mind if I talk to Mr.Stanford for awhile?"he asked, i smiled at him as i nod.

  "Yeah sure. Please excuse me."paalam ko saka dali daling nilisan ang lugar. Habang naglalakad ay ramdam ko parin ang pag sunod ng tingin niya sakin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero pakiramdam ko ay nanlalambot ang tuhod ko. Parang.. parang gusto ko nalang maupo at umiyak.

  Kung sana lang ay nakakatulong ang malamig na tubig na nagmumula sa gripo ng banyo upang pakalmahin ang naghuhurumintado kung puso. Kung sana lang kaya nitong alisin ang sakit ng nakaraan. Kung sana lang kaya nitong kunin ang bigat sa dibdib ko.

   For the 9th time I sign.

   No Rys, hindi ka pwedeng ganito tuwing kaharap mo siya. Kailangan mung maging matapang. You've moved on right? Masaya ka na sa buhay mo kasama ang kambal diba? Isa pa he looked fine now. I think he's enjoying he's life without you, kaya para saan pa't nagdradrama ka?