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Zak's POV:I woke up in the middle of the night.
I couldn't really sleep.
I had a particular question in my mind.
'Does Darryl like me..?'
He had kissed my forehead earlier, and as much as I enjoyed it...wait. No ! Not like that..
As much as I was CONFUSED by it, it made me flustered.
Thankfully he was just as embarrassed so he didn't see my red face.
I realized I was still holding onto him.
Earlier, I had told him the truth about everything.
How I felt about myself, others, my issues.
I wouldn't have told anyone else, but... I felt like he deserved to know. He needed to know.
I decided to try and get up, to get some water and cool down.
As much as I love cuddles, especially with Darryl, I was starting to get hot and uncomfortable.
I gently tried to make him let go, but when I tried to get up, he held onto me tighter.
I felt my face fluster, I continued to try and get up, but there was no point.He didn't want to let me go.
I sighed, defeated and just layed with him.I turned around so I could see his face.
He looked peaceful.
I smiled gently and placed my hand on his face.
I caressed his cheek and used my other hand to play with his hair.
I'm guessing he felt it, because he pulled me closer.
At this point I was a flustered mess.
I had never felt these types of feelings before.
I never thought of him this way, I mean, He was my best friend.
Every thought I had of him was entirely platonic, up to this point.
I was developing feelings for him.
And just maybe... He had feelings for me too.
I never wanted to rush into things like this, but... I needed him.
I wanted to have an excuse to be clingy, I wanted to have an excuse for him to comfort me, I wanted to have an excuse to hold him like this.
I wanted to be with him.
I smiled thinking about what I would do if we were ever a couple.
I dug my head into his chest, hearing his heartbeat.
It made me calm, until I felt him ruffling my hair.I smiled at this gesture and started falling asleep.
I chose to savor this moment,
Because, I knew deep down, these feelings were only temporary.
I knew I couldn't be with him, as much as I wanted to.... I can't.
I could never live with myself if I hurt him.And as much as it hurts me, I'd rather live with the pain of seeing him with anyone else.
I love you Darryl. But we can't be together, I don't ever want to hurt you.
I'll stay by your side forever.
-End of Chapter 17-
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until they met - skephalo
FanfictionZak is an ambivert, he's loud and a troller, but also quiet and sweet. He's struggled keeping a relationship and it has affected his mental health badly, until he meets a brunette boy, named Darryl. Zak takes a liking to Darryl and they become best...