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I am alone in my hotel and have no clue what to do

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I am alone in my hotel and have no clue what to do.

I decide to take a nap because what else is there to do?

Russia is not like Italy at all. In Italy more people knew how to speak English, but here in Russia more people speak Russian then English so I can't really talk to anyone here.

I miss Vanessa. I miss Etta. I miss Alessio. I miss Louie.

I miss Emiliano.

Emiliano and I didn't exactly leave on a good note but who cares, I will never see him again so it doesn't really matter.

I thought him and I had something going for a minute but of course he has to be a douche and ruin it.

I get that he doesn't do relationships and I would never force him into one but it's the fact that he lead me on.

Did he lead me on? Or was I just reading to much into the situation.

Who knows? And who cares? Don't have to worry about that anymore.

But poor Vanessa. She probably thinks I just ditched her. I will never talk to her again and since she doesn't know the real reason, she probably will hate me forever now. She will think I am the biggest bitch ever.

Oh my gosh and Etta. She will probably be worried thinking something happened to me. I will miss our talks. Her coming over to my hotel door at two in the morning telling me about a dream she just had about her boyfriend. She is so funny.

I will miss everyone so much but I have to think about all of us. If I didn't leave, it would have put all of us at risk. And to me, risking them hating me is way better than risking their lives.

I hope that they all just move on and forget about me.

I want them to be happy.

Was I even that important to them for them to be sad?

I don't even know.

My stupid past of course has to ruin everything I had built. I hate my past self for what she's done.

For everything.

For killing her best friend.

I fall asleep after a lot of over thinking about everything.

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heyy ik this chapter is very short so i'm sorry abt that. i've had writers block so ik this chapter sucks but it will get better. toodles💋💋

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