ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍᴀᴢᴇ • ᴠᴍɪɴ & ᴛᴀᴇᴋᴏᴏᴋ ꜰᴀɴꜰɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴ

23. We're All Hurting In A Way

Feelings hurt, people hurt and it all fucking just come colliding and hurt and just hurt.

Initially Taehyung couldn't even cry out in the restroom but once he did it all came out so naturally. He couldn't understand why he was even crying in the first place? And it made him feel worse than ever.

Isn't it obvious that Jungkook had been clear about his orientation? But then how come Taehyung decided to build a scenario to fit him into.

He didn't even lose Jungkook as a friend. He practically didn't even lose Jungkook when he actually never had all of him for his own in the first place.

So what's the point of crying?

Maybe the point was losing hope. He lost all that hope he had in him.

From being in Pandora's box to being out in the world, to being within people's heart, hope has always been what has filled emptiness. Every void has been filled by it and once you lose it, there's nothing. Nothing at all to look back on.

The emptiness and the large void around Taehyung was hurting him to his bones. It's not the first time he had been crying over somebody like that but what's worse this time is that Jungkook literally gave him a ray of sunshine, a sign of hope to finally be able to find somebody and love him like he wanted to.

But what's real remains real.

Feeling himself able to pull on his blank face, ruffling his fixed hair to fall over his face to hide his eyes, he knew he had to get out of that mess.

And he only knew one place to crash on, and the place being Jimin's home, his bedroom and with him.

The other one was no better, lights shut off as he laid on his bed, staring at the ceiling all over again and feeling like shit for no such reasons.

He was no new to this feeling. Probably falling for V had been a curse for him but he simply couldn't grow out of it, he couldn't show him he didn't care or he ever fell out of love. He couldn't do it miserably.

His heart still beats faster when Dowoo's around, it aches when he says those unacceptable things and it flutters every time he's being the protective nice guy he is.

But again what's the point of all those feelings when they just hurt you in the end.

Dowoo will never return him the same amount of love, he will only make it worse and best part, Jimin will simply let him.

It all came crashing down for him until he heard the knock on his door, breaking out of his trance and Jimin sat up.

"Auntie?" Jimin asked but probably got no reply and that's how he decided to go and unlock the door.

And worse to his worst scenario, there was his best friend in fresh tears just as soon as he saw Jimin standing there at the door.

"Tae?" Jimin asked with full concern and all he got in response was a weak hug, bodies collapsing together and the next thing he knew was that Taehyung was crying terribly.

~♡~

"Shits hurt."

"It does."

As Jimin whispered back to his best friend they just laid like that on his bed, faces right in front of each other, laying upside down with their feets facing the other directions but their eyes being on the same level.

They had just ended up laying like that after a fucked up crying session and the conversation of the shits going on, both being the only ones to console and understand each other.