ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍᴀᴢᴇ • ᴠᴍɪɴ & ᴛᴀᴇᴋᴏᴏᴋ ꜰᴀɴꜰɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴ

61. Confessions Of Hearts

"Baby, please don't take away the right from me to call you my baby, it pains me deeply. I know I've hurt you in ways I can't express, but I never thought it would become this messy. I haven't shared parts of my life that I should have, and as a result, you'll never know how much I fear losing the people dear to me, including you. I don't care about others' opinions of us, but I hate the idea of our bond being judged by them and envied. Maybe I learned a lesson in the past and knew exactly what not to repeat with you because I never wanted to lose you. But now that I've hurt you, I understand why you're angry, and I deserve every bit of it. Everything is incredibly messy, and I can't convince you enough, but every moment without you feels suffocating. I'm willing to do anything and everything to win you back, so please come to me and tell me your demands. I'll make it happen just to see you smile and to be able to call you my baby again. 
I love you so much, my Tae, my baby. I'm waiting for you to break your silence when you feel I can do something to earn your forgiveness, waiting for you to reach out to me when you're ready to forgive me. 

— Your Kookie"

"And when do you plan to do that?" Jimin broke the silence after carefully digesting the contents of the letter, while Taehyung sought solace by resting his head on his friend's lap.

The two friends found themselves in Taehyung's bedroom, seeking comfort on the bed together. Despite being bombarded with inquiries about his well-being, Taehyung ended up sharing about his day with Jimin, who always managed to coax him into opening up. It was Taehyung who poured his heart out while Jimin listened attentively, even taking the initiative to read the letter aloud.

"I'm at a loss for words, Jimin. Even if I were to confront him, what do you think I truly want?" Taehyung whispered, his tone heavy with sadness. Jimin sighed empathetically, setting the letter aside and gently running his fingers through Taehyung's hair.

"Sometimes, we don't know about our own desires, and I wish I could help you through this situation." Jimin whispered, his words hanging heavy in the air as he captured his friend's undivided attention.

"You both need each other, and maybe a conversation wouldn't hurt?" Jimin gently suggested, but as he did, Taehyung sat up, breaking the physical connection they shared.

"I fear I'll break down like a child the moment I begin to speak. I can't shake off the memories of being pushed away, neglected, and treated like a stranger, all because of others' watchful eyes. I started to believe I wasn't enough. From the start of our friendship, I questioned whether Jungkook would ever see me as more than just a friend, and confessing my feelings was equally challenging. I can't quite put it into words, I'm afraid to lose him, just as much as I'm afraid to go back to where I was years ago and that time was the most traumatic time of my life. I don't want to return to a life where I'm someone's secret." Taehyung poured out, tears streaming down his face, which Jimin couldn't see until he cupped his friend's face to wipe them away.

"Hey... you're not going back there, and Jungkook is nothing like the person who hurt you in the past. He simply wants a chance to make things right. Why not approach him and express yourself? Jungkook will do anything to earn your forgiveness, Tae," Jimin reassured, his voice gentle yet firm, as Taehyung's tears continued to flow, seeking solace on Jimin's shoulder.

"Why am I trapped in this mess of guilt and pain? I want to both fight him and thank him for everything he's done for me and my brother. Sometimes I feel unworthy of his selflessness, fearing I may never be able to return it. My mind is a battlefield. I want to thank him for the friend he is and I wanna fight him for the boyfriend he turned out to be. I'm just... lost." Taehyung continued to sob, his emotions overwhelming him, while Jimin remained by his side, offering silent support, his hands stroking Taehyung's back in an attempt to provide comfort.