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58. Sulking For Love

Family that builds upon the foundation of love often faces conflicts as much as those who lack love, yet they stay strong no matter how much they grow because they are aware how to get that grip of each other again before it's too late and it's done with only one sacred blessing—love.

Dowoo, deprived of love and affection, barely dealt with situations where he was able to secure his spot in warmth of his loved ones, his way of coping was to push people away. What he didn't know is that it takes everything to push others away and wait for them to approach us but it barely takes anything to approach them and fight for our spot.

However, it's not as easy as it seems. It's never easy when we are self loathed with the fear of being abandoned and left alone. We test our people by pushing them away so we can see if they'll put efforts to reach out to us on our most isolated days or not.

Dowoo often found himself alone when he pushed others away so he learnt to make it a deal and kept dealing with it for the rest of his life. Never in his life he felt the need to be handled, heard, hugged or held. Why? Maybe he learnt to embrace his solitude with all the incidents that happened with him, teaching him to brace his inner child and forever keep it caged until he couldn't anymore.

But now that his family encountered the  inner child bursting into tears, that's the least they needed to be told. Dowoo would never be left alone, not anymore.

Maybe it wasn't as easy for Taehyung either, just because he was treated nicely on emotional aspects didn't make him the luckiest, not when his root of misery lay within him which he was totally helpless against.

Poor boy was continuously reminded of how weak he is that he grew up to not learn to be strong at all, the result of what is now reflecting upon his adulthood. He's extremely sensitive and prone to get hurt. He carries a heart that can get crushed under feet in seconds because he'd heartly allow everyone to do so.

Luckily some incidents in his life taught him to not be played easily and rather let people play hard to get. His brother mostly shielded him, being a constant reminder for him that he is weak. He is not able to handle everything around him. He may not always be the first choice. He is not enough.

And his inner child too grew up in misery that his adulthood couldn't even start well.

But whom to blame here? Their parents? No. Them being their life giver did all the could to give them a life of comfort, constantly struggling to get them shelter, food and education along with offering that nurturing love. Maybe they too forget their own essential needs to meet their kids and grew up way too much to keep their offspring free of any damage and abandonment.

No one's at fault. Perhaps, their lives couldn't find a synergy.

And now it's different, it's better, it's easier than it had ever been.

Maybe now the family will find a synergy within one another, lead each other ahead on this journey called life with nothing but love that beholds genuine joy and care.

Talking of love, their life often offered them distractions that they labeled as love but some people became their genuine love that they slept upon, misunderstanding them as some distractions again.

For V, Jimin never happened to be a distraction but a person he felt to be vulnerable with but ended up not letting his downside be shown. He feared that if he showed his vulnerable side to those he cares about, will misunderstand him as someone weak and he hated to be perceived this way.

But now it's not a matter of concern. Blame it on that incident he recently went through but a lot has been changed for him since.

The mishap was too grand yet it couldn't wash down the previous event that occurred right before it — the argument and confrontation of feelings between Jimin and V.