ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍᴀᴢᴇ • ᴠᴍɪɴ & ᴛᴀᴇᴋᴏᴏᴋ ꜰᴀɴꜰɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴ

49. Don't Leave me

Sometimes it's good to not hold onto things that hurt, that's why we grow to learn to keep a distance from things that are sharp but no one has ever warned us about people who can have a potential more than any sharp object to pierce deep down the soul.

Everyone was hurting, everyone was in pain. All four were miserable due to their young hearts beating with some misery added into their youngblood.

Jungkook was so wrecked inside after everything that happened earlier. The poor guy was sitting on his couch with a vape in his hand and his phone in another one as he wondered how to bring his words together to text something to Taehyung because he didn't want him to feel like he didn't care.

He cared a lot, so much that deep inside he was feeling guilty and terrible for letting it happen this way.

He knew he was too harsh to act like that to him in front of a crowd, everytime he did it pierced his heart inside but then again he would love his baby so right to assure him again but that's not how it works, even he realized it too.

And this is why he was stuck in a place, remorse sprinting through his veins as he contemplated for a good while.

The way Taehyung cried earlier and the things he said, the way he seemed so hurt and the tears in his eyes when he screamed, when he fought back for the first time.

It hurt so bad that Jungkook felt it physically in his chest, tears brimmed up in his eyes as he looked down at the screen, the display picture of his adorable baby holding onto him while hugging him so tight, cheek to cheek, they both seemed so damn happy in that picture.

"I'm so sorry baby... I'm so sorry." Jungkook whispered as he looked down at the screen and suddenly a drop fell onto his screen, causing Jungkook to turn his head and wipe his tears, taking deep breaths.

He was missing him so damn much. He thought maybe Taehyung wouldn't even want to face him but he didn't want to let it be like that, he wanted to see his face, wanted to meet him and tell him that he was ready for anything just to see Taehyung happy and with him again.

But he was too scared to do it, he was contemplating for hours for a text and he didn't know about meeting him.

Would it be appropriate at this time?

He didn't know anything. For some time he just wanted to cry and drown in guilt for things he had done. He just wanted Taehyung to be as mad as he wanted to but not leave him.

Jungkook is not good at saying goodbyes, he loves everyone close to him and Taehyung for sure is the closest one.

He could cry for as long as he wanted to but it would still not compare to the amount of tears Taehyung shed in his room once his brother went out to get his ice cream, leaving him alone there.

He didn't want to believe the way he just fought Jungkook. Somewhere he was still feeling bad about it but he just couldn't endure it anymore.

Yes he didn't want to face Jungkook for a good while but at the same time all he wanted to do was to end up in his arms and fight him for the days he was being meanie. Maybe he should have fought him earlier to prevent this drama but Taehyung was too trying to save his relationship.

The blonde cried so much that he ended up just staying quietly as he laid on his bed and stared up at the ceiling, trying to wonder what he was feeling.

There were too many emotions coming together, the anger, the pain of negligence, the painful past memories, feeling unwanted and used and what else not yet again thoughts of Jungkook and the way he would treat him like an absolute royalty when they are together alone was adding to it.