Rhymes of Promises (ON-GOING)

Rhymes of Promises: 3

Chapter 3

Growing up, I know to myself that I am straight. I don't have interest in women like me, my preference is male and I don't really think that that can change. I studied different kinds of sexual preferences and I am aware of that, I just didn't think that I'm both attracted to boys and girls. My mindset was always like, "I like boys", And that will not change.

But who are we to judge our future selves?

Who are we to predict something?

Rense has grown with me and as I watched her take every step, I realized that I've somehow like her. I am both attracted to boys and girls but to girls, I think it's just all the attraction. I'm just idolizing them, that's it. I like pretty and kind girls who suit my taste but I know that I am attracted to their beauty, more on kindness. And the like that I feel is the like for a friend, I want to be their friend. It's nothing romance.

Sa kaso naman ni Rense, she started to like a girl romantically when we were in Junior High School. I thought she was just bluffing, she was just confused. But as time passes by, pareho namin napansin ang pagbabago ng preference niya, ang pagbabago ng nakahiligan niyang barbie, ang pagbabago ng style niya.

It was funny to think that we were just playing barbie before!

And now? She's grown to be a playgirl!

She's not open even to her own family, kaming dalawa ang laging magkasama kaya kilalang kilala ko siya, kuhang kuha ko siya at ganun rin siya sa akin. Sabay kami nagkaroon ng isip, sabay kami natuto magsuot ng panty at sabay kami nagkaroon ng problema. Tito was fond of me too because of our sisterhood pero simula nang mahalata niya ang pagbabago ni Rense, galit siya.

He couldn't accept it.

I'm the one who accepted Rense first. Ako ang unang naging silong niya sa bagong bagyo na dumaan sa 'kanya. Ako ang naging pahingahan niya sa pagbuhat ng mga mabibigat na bagay na gawa ng bagyo ng problema. I hugged her because I love her. I love her because she is Rense.

"Gusto ko si Yscha!"

One time, she said that to me. Yscha is a transferee in our Junior High School, I don't think she is the type who would want a girl and I was right. Rense took her chance on Yscha to talk but to my expectation, Yscha rejected her. But eventually? That rejection turned into a friendship. Friendship na hindi mapapantayan nang kung ano man.

I was lucky to have them—I was happy.

Yscha accepted Rense. Bukod kay Beck at Kenny, si Yscha ang sunod na yumakap sa katauhan ng best friend ko and I was so happy for her. Rense found her peace and happiness within us. Hindi lang ako ngayon ang masisilungan niya, we are one by the heart.

"Ang hirap kasi do'n, hindi siya marunong makinig!"

Nakaupo kami ngayon ni Rense sa rooftop. I found her here and I sat beside her. Nag text lang ako kanina kina Beck na kasama ko na siya dahil baka may klase silang dalawa, Yscha didn't reply. I don't know where she went.

"Rense, tito hated me—"

"It's because I told him that I am a pansexual! Sa sobrang hindi niya ba matanggap 'yon kaya siya naghanap ng ibang anak?!"

I sighed.

Tito is bound to marry another woman—not Rense's mother. Her mother died years ago, before she could even speak up and now, her father broke the news and she will have a step mother... with a step sister.