Chase and Madelyn: A love story

Chapter 73

TW: Brief mentions of self harm and suicide

Madelyn's POV:

1 Month Later

The twins were almost 2 months old. They were still so little, but Chase and I were shocked by how much they had grown. James was still smaller than Juliet, but he was getting stronger each day. Chase and I had mostly been staying home and caring for the twins. Madison wasn't living with us anymore, but she would pop by the house a few times a week to check on us and the twins. The days felt long just because we didn't have much to do besides caring for the twins, even though it was a full time job. Chase and I would feed them, change diapers, go on walks, and hold them, but we didn't do much for ourselves.

I was getting antsy. I loved being home with James and Juliet, but I needed something more to do. Only our friends and families knew about the babies, we hadn't told the public/fans about them, so we weren't really in public a lot. I didn't feel comfortable bringing them anywhere, but I also didn't feel comfortable leaving them at home with someone for too long. We were still living in Charleston, so paparazzi wasn't that big of an issue in South Carolina, but word spreads fast. As soon as one person noticed the twins, it would spread like wildfire. 

"Chase?" I called quietly. I was laying in bed shortly after waking up and Chase was grabbing clothes from the closet.

He turned his head. I paused, I knew this was going to be a difficult conversation, and I really did not want it to turn into a fight. Chase noticed my worried frown and sat down next to me on the bed.

"Baby, what wrong?" He asked, putting his hand to my cheek.

"Can we talk for a sec?" I asked hesitantly.

"Yeah of course, are you ok?" Chase replied.

I took a deep breath. Chase held my hands, noticing I was slightly nervous.

"I think I want to tell people about the twins." I said quickly. I looked up and caught a glimpse of Chase's surprised expression.

"Um-you want to tell everyone?" He asked, double checking that he heard me correctly.

"Yeah, it's just that I want to be able to go out in public with them. We never leave the house. I'm tired of hiding them, and I'm tired of always sneaking around." I replied.

Chase thought for a moment. "Ok, but you know it's gonna be hard, right?" He asked.

I laughed. "Of course I know it's gonna be hard, Chase. But I think if we plan it and do it right, it should be manageable." I said.

"How do you want to do it?" Chase asked.

"Well I thought I could announce it on instagram or something but not share their names or faces." I said.

Chase nodded. "That's a good idea."

"That way they'll still have privacy, but we'll be able to go out with them. I'd rather the fans hear it from me than the paparazzi." I replied.

Chase didn't say anything. I looked down. "We don't have to do it if you don't want to." I said.

"No, it's not that Mads. It's just scary." He said.

I placed my hand on his thigh. "I know, I'm scared too. But we're in this together, ok?"

He nodded.

"Plus, don't you want to brag about our little ones? They're so cute." I exclaimed.

Chase chuckled. "Yeah, they're pretty fucking cute."

We would've kept talking, but we heard James cry, and then Juliet. They were always waking each other up. Chase and I both went into their room. I sat on the rocking chair and exposed my chest as Chase placed both of the babies on me to feed.