Haven ✔️

Ch. 50 Why is She Doing This?

Drift's P.O.V.
He can't even talk to Jamie while she's asleep without getting anxious. That's how terrified he is to be sent to Cybertron. The others will not realize he's not only worried about never seeing Lily again. He worries that's still possible even if he isn't sent to Cybertronian.
Once Sunstreaker lies on a bed, Ratchet informs Optimus, Prowl, and Rung. Jolt suggests moving Jamie to an in-patient room and moving Sunstreaker in there. I don't like this idea. Even if this means Jamie doesn't need to be closely monitored in an ICU room.
"I think she'll be ok with you in the room," Jolt believes.
It's not just Jamie I worry about.

Crosshairs and Sideswipe walk in within minutes. Sideswipe has Sunstreaker's tablet. Though I know Sunstreaker has his sketchbook in his subspace.
Sunstreaker wakes up, not liking he's near Jamie. The three of us have to keep him on the bed.
"I'll sit on you if I have to," Sideswipe jokes. "I think this is what we need to do. Possibly add Prowl standing by, watching you, but let's see how this goes."
"She'll be asleep for at least another ninety minutes," I add, "you're staying put."
I do want to watch him. Even if Ratchet doesn't think Sunstreaker needs to be under observation. There could be nothing to see until Jamie wakes up.

Sunstreaker's P.O.V.
I work on a sketch of Jamie asleep in my sketchbook. I might throw this out, but I'm bored. It's not like I can paint or workout if I wasn't stuck here. I'll end up thinking about whether I'll ever see Lily again.

Jamie is awake earlier than Drift thought. Doesn't take long for her to see me. I don't know if I should say anything.
Show her some sketches. Sideswipe suggests.
No, I know we need to deal with this, but now? Surely, stress isn't great with brain surgery.
The infusion finished during Jamie's nap. Drift disconnects the tube from the catheter and takes her out of bed. Sitting on the chair by my bed. Jamie is still sleepy, but that would not help keep her from yelling at me.
Sideswipe grabs my sketchbook. He knows of a few sketches in there, but not many that are not sketches of Lily. I now wish I had sketched something Jamie would like to see. She'll care about something other than nature sketches or my paintings.
"Look at what Sunstreaker sketches," Sideswipe comments as he goes through a few pages. I should have kept my side of the bond blocked as Sideswipe feels my anxiety.
I feel dizzy. Knowing Jamie will say this is an act isn't helping.

Jamie's P.O.V.
I watch Sunstreaker become pale as Crosshairs tries to get him to drink water. The mech tells Crosshairs to lower the head of the bed. Crosshairs looks concerned as he does what Sunstreaker wants. Leaving the water on the table. He gets a blanket and container from the cabinet. Putting the container on the table and covering Sunstreaker with the blanket. I can't hear what Crosshairs is saying.
"You should know no one can fake being like that," Drift whispers, "dizziness and tired from anxiety."
"I swear he's not going to hurt you or any of us," Sideswipe adds, "he wants to be your friend."
Crosshairs is still trying to get Sunstreaker to drink water. Is Sunstreaker showing signs of possibly passing out rather than going to sleep? 
Uncertain if Crosshairs was successful before putting the cup on the table and walking away from the bed.
"He'll be asleep," Crosshairs whispers, "let's get lunch."
I didn't think Sideswipe would join us. I thought he'd stay with Sunstreaker, though all three mechs are worried about Sunstreaker.

The Autobots in the cafeteria are happy to see I'm allowed out of the medbay. I know it's unusual; why doesn't Ratchet discharge me? I'll be back in the room in a half-hour. Glad I'm not on a boring recovery diet. Optimus and Prowl want to talk to the three mechs. I'm allowed to go back to the medbay myself after lunch.

The three medics are not bothered that I'm returning to the medbay alone. I grab the blanket off my bed and get on Sunstreaker's bed, laying on him. There's an odd feeling lying on him.

Sunstreaker's P.O.V.
I question how Jamie got on me? I hope Sideswipe didn't lay her on me. Why is she already asleep? Then I see Sideswipe, Crosshairs, and Drift in the room. All three saying they didn't lay Jamie on me. Ratchet isn't worried about Jamie sleeping. She's been here for an hour. I don't know if I should wait until she wakes up or leave now. She has to know I'm armed; if the others weren't here, I could kill her. I don't think this is Jamie who trusts me and doesn't hate me yet. Even the others know this.
I think this is 'thanks for saving me, but frag you', and she could be pissed when she wakes up. I tell Sideswipe.
I don't like how you can't relax.

Another twenty minutes pass before we watch Jamie move the blanket over her head. Pain relief must have worn off. I know she's been dealing with headaches since the surgery. Drift does nothing as we watch Jamie struggle to get comfortable. I'm hoping it's because she is on me rather than this is a terrible headache. Jamie gives up trying to get comfortable. I carefully get up while holding her. She'll be able to get more comfortable without lying on me. She needs another infusion done. I lie her in the other bed, fix the blankets, and leave.
What would have happened if she didn't have a headache? I wish I knew if there was another way I could help her.

"Sunstreaker?" Optimus gets my attention as I walk by his office. "I heard you've been in the medbay with Jamie."
"Drift's idea. I think he was worried about me, but Jamie oddly chose to lie on me at some point after I fell asleep. She has a terrible headache. This doesn't mean Jamie likes me or likely still doesn't trust me."
"This is interesting."
"I'm not sure if Ratchet can say if this is because she's recovering from surgery. Between headaches and fatigue, she's not feeling well enough to be livid at me."
I'm not looking forward to finding out as Jamie recovers. 

I can put my thoughts to the side and workout. Drift walking in as I'm working out worries me. It's been forty-five minutes since I left the medbay.
"She's asleep," he assures me, "Ratchet isn't concerned. Are you ok?"
"I don't know what to think of her actions. Seemed odd she chose to sleep on me considering how much she hates me."
"It's likely because she's recovering from surgery. Which could work in our favor."
"Our?"
"I don't like the scrap that's happened in the past seven weeks, but Sideswipe is right. You and Jamie could help each other. It's her challenging mental health."
"Ratchet told me probably just the basics. I can't believe the scrap she dealt with."
"I hate it. How it wouldn't have mattered if Crosshairs and I came to Earth with Optimus."
I hate hearing Drift feel like he's failing Jamie. How Jamie doesn't want to say the two are together. 
This is the same as with Lily. When will Jamie leave this dimension and bir come back? And I still need to find out if Lily will be allowed back.