Haven ✔️

Ch. 64 Unwanted Change of Plans

Sunstreaker's P.O.V.
It's hard to be happy with the new decision, but I should have known between Lily being in school and Earth holidays coming up. Seeing Lily today is what makes this harder. Even though we're allowed to call and text each other.
"No, I'm not waiting three months to see him," Lily cries as she hugs me, "you said we could be together."
I know Luke tried his best to argue weekends should be fine. We're risking Lily being told she'll never see me again if we argue about the decision. I'm not in the mood to discuss this with Crosshairs and Drift. There's nothing they can do. I need to focus on Jamie, but this decision hurts my spark.
"I'll do everything I can to bring her here," Luke tells me.
"No, don't. If that's going to cause everything to fall apart. I'll wait until next year."
"But Jamie will be in her dimension. I'll be careful."
Luke isn't going to take no for an answer. Which I should like, but I don't.

Jamie can tell something is troubling me. Drift argues she doesn't need to worry. Of course, Jamie will still worry, but she doesn't try to get answers. Saying I want to be left alone isn't easing her worry.
Hmm, I say you two are friends for her to worry. Sideswipe argues.
Maybe...

Jamie tries to follow me to my art room. Not pleased that Drift went as far as carrying her away.
Sideswipe refuses to leave me alone. I know I've scared him with my anxiety. He sits with me on the floor. The room is silent for a few minutes until Sideswipe hugs me. At this point, I can't avoid crying while hugging him.

Sideswipe's P.O.V.
I know there's nothing I can say. Luke is doing all he can do to help. There's nothing else I can do. I can only hope continuing to work on his relationship with Jamie and calling Lily will be enough to help him. I worry he's going to be depressed.
Sideswipe: Rung, I'm worried about Sunstreaker after recent events. Ask Luke because Sunstreaker isn't going to be able to say anything.
Sunstreaker will not like this, but I'm trying to help.
Luke: I'm going to record this. Rung knows.
I don't know why he's telling me.

Sunstreaker is not happy seeing Rung walk into his art room and is afraid seeing Luke. Which is concerning.
Drift: is he ok?
Sideswipe: no, I'm worried about him. I hope Rung can help him.
Drift: I don't know if I can tell Jamie anything so she can help him. If she's not ready to say Sunstreaker is her friend.

"...our sire is right," Sunstreaker finishes, hugs me, and cries.
I don't know if we should show Lily the recording. Lily will not like seeing Sunstreaker crying.
"This is new for you," Rung reminds him, "and no Earth parent thinks their youngling will fall in love with an alien. This will take time, but much progress was made in the three months Lily was here. She loves you. I know you don't want to hear it, but I think we're going to hold off on having Lily come here until the new year," Rung looks at Luke, knowing he's recording, "I'm sorry, Lily, but this will help both of you. You know what, Sunstreaker? Paint Lily a nice painting for a Christmas present. Take him to your room, Sideswipe."
I suspect Rung is going to talk to Drift and maybe Jamie.

I sit on the couch with Sunstreaker. Tears still roll down his face. I feel so much pain and sadness. He can't win. Things seem to get better, and then scrap happens.
Drift: I told Jamie about Lily. She's coming to your room.

Jamie's P.O.V.
I can see why no one told me about Lily. Why tell me while I'm livid at Sunstreaker? They knew I wouldn't listen while the argument is he cares about another human.
Sunstreaker waits for me at the doorway. It's obvious he's been crying. I don't know what to say as he picks me up and hugs me.

He sits on the couch, hugging me close so that I'm listening to his heartbeat. Sideswipe sits next to him.
"I'm sorry," I tell him.
"It's my fault for scaring you. Even if it was years ago. You want to protect your family."
Sunstreaker doesn't know what else to say. I sense that energy again.
"Sunstreaker, hey, it's ok," Sideswipe assures him, "she's not mad at you. You know her behavior shows she trusts you."
"We are friends," I tell him.
I'm still afraid he will tire of me, but it's the same with my mechs and Lightning and every other bot who knows about my mental health and condition. Sunstreaker has been working hard on our friendship. I know it's hard for him. Even if he's friends with another human. He's not used to having friends. I see why Sideswipe thinks we'd be good friends.

Sunstreaker finds something for us to watch. He lets me put a pillow on his lap. Sideswipe isn't pleased he can't play video games.
"Lazy aft," Sunstreaker jokes.
Sideswipe isn't pleased I'm laughing. He sighs, frustrated, and sits on the floor.

Sunstreaker's P.O.V.
Happy now? Sideswipe asks.
No, I don't know if Lily will be back. Even if she'll be back, Jamie will struggle to befriend her. I don't think Lily will be jealous, but...
We'll deal with that when we need to. Sideswipe argues.
I'm tired of dealing with challenges like this. It's Jamie I worry about when Lily comes here. I'm glad she doesn't deal with anxiety like I have, but I don't like how she struggles to make friends or talk to her friends.

By two, Jamie is asleep.
How much longer is she dealing with this? Sideswipe asks.
Possibly six weeks. I tell Sideswipe. Jamie and I will not be working out before she needs to go home. I would like to go to the pool.
There's still plenty of time, but I wonder if Jamie will go home for other reasons.
That'll be my luck; Jamie needs to go home earlier than I hope.