Living After Abortion (Adopted by Jennifer Lawrence Fanfic)

(18) Why

••Maddie's POV••

1:12 p.m.

Why?

The only thing going through my mind is why.

Why can't Jen just give up Nicholas.

Why can't she listen to Josh.

Why can't she forgive Josh--after all he didn't really do anything wrong.

Why?

A tear rolls down my cheek.

I hear footsteps approaching, "Maddie?"

It's Jena.

"I know you're up there." She says, referring to the tree I climbed half an hour ago.

I stay silent.

"Maddie, I can see you." I moved my head down and looked at her, our eyes met and she announced, "Fine, if your not coming down--I'll come up."

She started climbing and was beside me in seconds.

"What's wrong?" She asked, like she didn't know the answer.

"What's not?" A few new tears escape down my face and onto my shorts.

A minute or two goes by, "So...I'm guessing you heard?"

"Heard?" I scoffed, "I saw."

I flashback to what I had seen earlier.

She looks at me sympathetically, "I'm sorry."

I jerk my head up, confused, "Why?"

"Because I don't think Jen realizes that you lost Josh too."

***THREE HOURS LATER***

••Jen's POV••

I shut the door to my trailer and flop down on the couch.

I'm done filming for the day.

I had to do the kissing scene with Josh seven more times.

"Go see the movie--" I shout enthusiastically, "The awkwardness is for real."

I hear what sounds like a knock on my trailer door.

I don't answer.

If it's Josh--I don't want to talk to him.

If it's Maddie--I can't even look at her right now.

I hear more knocking.

I open the door.

"Jena." I whisper.

She engulfs me into a hug.

"I'm so sorry Jen."

I pull away, "But I did this. I told him there's no more us."

"That doesn't make it any easier."

***

••Maddie's POV••

I climb down from the tree I've been sitting in for hours.

I walk past Jens trailer and find myself knocking on Josh's trailer door.

No answer.

I open the door and sit down on the couch.

I don't want to think.

I close my eyes and drift into a well needed sleep.

***

I hear footsteps outside. I open my eyes just a bit. It's Josh, I bet.

I close my eyes again and curl up tighter, trying to ignore how everything in the room reminds me of him.

Suddenly, there's someone beside me. I was right; it was Josh.

"Hey sweetheart." He smiles sadly at me and rubs my back.

I twist around to see him better and manage to grimace back.

"I guess you've heard? Things didn't go so well with me and Jen..."

I nod and a few tears I didn't know I had in my eyes fall.

He looks at the floor. "It's all my fault." He whispers.

I pull myself up and hug him tight. "It's not your fault. If it's anyone's fault, it's probably Nicholas and Claudia's."

"You really believe that?" His eyes are wet and cloudy with tears.

I nod. "They'd be perfect for each other. Two losers to share each other's company."

He laughs half-heartedly. "I guess you're right, there."

For a while, all we do is sit there. I can tell Josh is still a bit upset with himself, but I know what I can do to make him feel better.

"Hey Josh." I say suddenly.

"Hmm?"

"We need a plan."

"A plan for what?"

I look at him and smile for real, for the first time in days.

"A plan to get you and Jen back together."

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