Secret Message - SemiShira

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"Wow, very urgent, I can tell."

Shirabu's Pov

Kai had left for the States yesterday, marking the end of his time here. According to the plan, Semi and I should have ended our fake relationship by now. But for some reason, something inside me was hesitating, holding me back from initiating that conversation. I couldn't quite put my finger on why I felt this way

As days passed, I found myself in a state of confusion. Part of me knew that the charade with Semi needed to come to an end. After all, Kai was no longer around, and there was no reason to keep up this pretence. Yet, another part of me didn't want it to end just yet.

I had grown Eve closer to Semi over this past month. What had started as a fabricated relationship had become something more complex. We had many shared moments, I found myself enjoying his company, whether it was watching him perform, practising with the band, or just spending time together.

It was almost a week since Kai left, and the impending decision weighed on my mind. I spent nights staring at my phone, contemplating whether to send a message to Semi or not

I questioned my own motives. Was I hesitating because I had developed genuine feelings for Him? Or was I simply not ready to let go of the comfort that this fake relationship had provided?

I decided to talk to my friends about it, They had been there since the beginning of all this drama, and I trusted their insights. We gathered one night in my living room, where I finally told them everything

"I just don't understand why I'm hesitating to end things with Semi," I admitted, frustrated

Akaashi leaned forward, his gaze steady. "Have you considered the possibility that your feelings for Semi might be deeper than you think?"

I scoffed, not quite ready to entertain that thought. "Feelings? Come on, Akaashi. This was all a fake relationship, to begin with. I can't just suddenly have feelings for him."

Suna chimed in, his tone was surprisingly serious. "Sometimes, things don't happen according to our initial plans. You've been spending a lot of time with Semi. Emotions can be unpredictable."

Kenma nodded in agreement. "And sometimes, our hearts realize things before our minds do."

I crossed my arms, leaning back into the couch. "You're all overthinking this. It's just a matter of comfort. Semi and I have gotten used to each other's company. That's all there is to it."

Akaashi's gaze softened, his voice gentle. "Shirabu, comfort can turn into something more. It's possible that you've grown attached to him in a way you didn't anticipate."

I sighed, feeling a mix of confusion and irritation. "Look, even if that were the case, I wouldn't even know why. I don't get it. I don't see Semi in that way anymore."

Suna shrugged. "Sometimes, feelings don't need a clear explanation. They just exist."

Kenma offered a small smile. "You don't have to figure it all out right now. Take your time to understand"

"What's with the cringy speeches" I couldn't hold it in much longer, I had to say something

"Do you want our help or not?" Kenma raised his voice slightly at me

"Ok, sorry" I groaned

As the conversation continued, I found myself more puzzled than ever. Their words echoed in my mind, and I couldn't shake the feeling that maybe they were onto something. But I wasn't ready to admit it—not to them and not even to myself.

Days turned almost a week and a half, and I continued to spend time with Semi. Yet, that lingering question remained: had my feelings for him truly changed? It was a question I was afraid to answer

I found myself on a call with Ushijima one evening, discussing all sorts of random topics. It was nice to catch up with him, especially after all that had happened. We talked about volleyball, our plans for the future, and even dull things like the weather.

"Hey, Ushijima, can I ask you something?" I hesitated, feeling a bit nervous about bringing up a personal topic.

"Of course, Kenjirou. You can ask me anything," Ushijima replied, his tone calm.

"What's it like being in a real relationship?" I blurted out, surprising even myself with the question.

Ushijima seemed to consider my question for a moment. "Honestly, it's not that different from being close friends. It's just that you share more feelings."

I nodded, mulling over his answer. "Yeah, I guess that makes sense."

Ushijima's voice then turned curious. "Speaking of relationships, are you and Semi finally going to make it real?"

I felt a sudden knot in my stomach at his question. "What do you mean?"

Ushijima's voice was matter-of-fact. "You've been spending a lot of time together lately, and from what Semi told me, you guys seem very close again"

I scoffed, trying to brush off his observation. "Oh, come on. It's not like that. It's just a fake relationship"

Ushijima's response was direct. "You can say that all you want, but I've known both of you since high school. Your relationship has always been more complex than that. And you two have your own pace. I doubt things would suddenly become serious just like that."

His words hit me harder than I expected. He was right. My relationship with Semi had always been tangled, full of ups and downs. It was never straightforward, and deep down, I knew that

After the call ended, I found myself lost in thought. Ushijima's words constantly play in my mind. Could it be true? Was our relationship more complex than I wanted to admit? And if it was, did that mean that the fake dating should come to an end?

I thought about the moments we had shared, the way Semi had always been there for me, the way he had looked at me during our "dates," and the undeniable moments between us.

Maybe it was time to stop denying what I felt and be honest with myself, but what would Semi think? This is not just about me

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