angel~dallas winston

Logical (Birthday pt 3)

Mackenzie

"Okay Mackenzie, I love ya kiddo but it's time to get up," Darry said. "Come on, Sodapop and Ponyboy made you some food,"

I sat up in Sodapop's bed and rubbed my eyes as my head started pounding. I looked at him, and at my bag of clothes, before tears brewed in my eyes. "Oh god," I said. "I need aspirin,"

"Party hang over," He said, handing me a water and a pill. "I figured you'd have one after last night,"

I accepted the pill and sighed. "Thank you Darry," I said. "Anytime kiddo, come eat alright?" He said. I nodded and sighed, following him into the kitchen. Sodapop kissed my forehead as I sat down at the table. "Thank you guys for breakfast and letting me crash," I said.

"Of course little lady," Sodapop said. "How are you feeling?" Ponyboy asked. "Like shit to be completely honest," I said. "I don't even know what I was thinking, I mean I think it was logical but now I don't know," I said. "What happened last night anyway?" Sodapop asked.

flashback to last night (the party)

Dally grabbed onto my arm and stopped me. "Wait," He said. "I've been looking all over for you, where were you?" He asked. "Yeah you were looking really hard," I slurred, rolling my eyes. I went to walk down the steps onto the concrete and tripped. I laughed at myself when I saw my cut knee.

"Ouchie," I joked. Dally came over to help me up. I swatted his hand away. "I'm capable of helping myself up thanks," I said.

"What's wrong?" He asked. "What makes you think something's wrong?" I asked. "You're drunk, holding a bottle of tequila, and you won't let me help you," He said. "Just go away Dallas," I said and turned away from him. "Kenz give me the bottle, you're drunk enough," He said.

I clutched the bottle tightly in my hand, so tight my knuckles turned white. "Don't," I said and backed away from him.

"Can you just think for a second, just one second, about why I could be mad at you?" I asked. "So you are mad?" He asked. "Yes Dallas I'm fucking mad!" I said. "Why?" He asked. "Oh I don't know, I'm gone for not even five minutes, I come back and you're surrounded by a bunch of chicks," I said. "It's honestly just pathetic of me,"

"What's pathetic of you?" He asked. "That I trust people I know are bad for me!" I said. "I wasn't around the girls to cheat on you," He said.

"Then why were you?" I asked. "I was just standing by myself, they all came over to me," He said. "And you just didn't think it would bother me if I walked down and saw?" I asked. "Honestly I didn't care if they were flirting with me," He said. "So you just let them?" I asked. "I can't be with somebody without knowing whether or not they're going to be loyal to me,"

"I am," He said. "You just sat and flirted with a group of girls on your girlfriends birthday," I said. "I didn't think it mattered, I'd never cheat on ya doll," He said. "It does matter," I said. "Because I love you and I don't want to have to share you or worry about your old reputation coming true!"

"You- you what?" He asked.

"Ugh," I groaned and sat on the pavement. "I have to be logical Dally," I said. "What are you talking about?" He asked, sitting down next to me.

"I can't be with a person I don't know how to trust," I said. "Don't say that, you can trust me, I know my reputation ain't great, but I'd never hurt ya on purpose or cheat on you or do anything that would make you not want to be with me," He said. "Dally, we've fought everyday for the passed three days," I said.

"I was a dumb ass Mackenzie, and tonight I was too, I wasn't flirting back with them I can promise you that," He said.

"Don't do this Kenz, you're drunk and you aren't thinking straight," He said. I sighed and wiped the tears from my cheeks. "My entire life I've been second best," I said. "I've never come first to anyone, not even Liv, I've always had to put myself first because nobody would do it for me,"

"You always come first to me," He said. "I swear Kenz, you always have since I met you," He said. "You're all I think about,"

He put a hand on my cheek, wiping away my tears. "I wanna be with you Kenz," He said. "I wanna be with you Dallas," I said. "But I can't," I said. His face fell and I started to cry more. "I don't want to hurt you Dallas but I can't trust you," I frowned, grabbing his hand and pulling it away from my face.

"I ruined your only birthday wish and that was to have a good one," he said. "I'm sorry Kenz," He said and looked down.

"It's ok," I said. "I'm sorry," I said. "I'm gonna go get my things and take them to Liv,"

I stood up after kissing his cheek. "I'm sorry Dally, but it's better to end it now before we fall in even deeper," And with that, I walked inside and packed up my bag.

because of the slow updates, i've been writing all day for you guys to get two today:)