I am a people pleaser
but with time it doesn't get easier
Here I am letting them cross my lines
Breaking my insides
When I confront them my heart bleeds
I can't get rid of this hurt feeling
I don't know if my actions have any meaning
I attempt my best to do what they want to do
But no one ever asked me
What do I wish to do
This feeling is like a part of my heart's broken
Perhaps wouldn't be so bad
If I left my words unspoken
Sometimes telling the truth hurts more than keeping it to yourself
I cannot get rid of this sad hurtful feeling
I know my heart's not broken
Yet it feels like a part of it has shattered
For their actions I blame myself
No matter how many times I tried
I had to take the tough way to make them understand and see
What exactly they did that hurt me
I don't wish to be tough or mean
I don't want to be stuck in this melancholy
No matter how much I try there's no distraction
I can't take any further action
If I don't let myself cry
The hurtful emotion will remain
My mental health will go down the drain
I am a people pleaser
I do what they desire me to
It's hard setting boundaries
Writing in countless diaries
I have to let my emotions overflow
It's difficult to say no
If it makes them happy why not do
And they often didn't ask me
What I wish to do and be
I attempt my best to please them
Keep my emotions to myself
But sometimes I need to release it
If I refuse to release it
My hurt feelings will remain
The only way to heal
Is to embrace my insides and let me cry
Countless tries it doesn't matter how hard I try
Even if I have to live inside a lie
I am a people pleaser
Rather than telling them goodbye
I'll continue living in their lie
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Red Roses and Black Crows
PoetryThe red blood of what we fought, the tears and the hard work crumbled apart, and the ashes of rebirth. Red rose, the love and passion, and the black crows of freedom and change, we had to break apart and transform, to become who we are today. And th...
