Red Roses and Black Crows

Poem 28 - Darkest Days (PRV0)

I have escaped my darkest days
I saw their evil ways
Sometimes when it gets harsh I remember

I had something keep me alive
I had something to make me survive
What's dead I will never revive

My ashes have been swept away
I still remember every one of my darkest days
It's hard to move on sometimes

The rain continued falling down
Until it reached the final countdown
The time of my complete meltdown

The clock won't stop ticking
The instincts continue kicking in
What's happened I clearly remember

I won't let it defeat me
Too many tears shed no one would care
I try to escape and I slip back in
To my darkest days
I reckon what anyone says

I reminiscence what you have told
I watch the story slowly unfold
I kept on drowning in the waves
Waves of my own conscience

Whatever happens I must face it
No matter what I'll embrace it
What made me suffocate
The waves rolled over and I couldn't breathe

The times are swept off by the tides
And I still remember all of your lies
I burnt the bridges and watched them burn
The ashes, I'll burn the urn

I won't let you break me now
I will never stoop this low ever again
I won't end up defeated

Drifted away, I thought I couldn't escape
Fight or flight, don't let the story unwind
I thought I needed help to get out
In order to prevent my own blackout

I suffered too great damage
And yet I can't stop and rummage
I ruminate to what I shouldn't
Memories keep me alive

My minds was a place of great distress
Eliminating all bad has been a success
What's the most important
Always slips right through my hands

I watch knowing in the end it will be only me
I try to enjoy the moments as they come
Yet I turn back every single day
I don't see a way to help a way out

What's happened wants to be remembered
Even if my feelings end up dismembered
My darkest days will not leave
What I must do now is believe in me