A few days passed since that night. I had no motivation to go to the studio considering that I had my lead single. My label approved of the song which made my life even easier for this album I wanted to drop. So far I had about 9 tracks that I was fond of. I wanted around 13 on my album and 17 on the deluxe. I don't know but for now, I was just focused on Fantasize.
I haven't talked to anyone since that night either. Zaniyah was focused on "her man", Coco doesn't talk to me unless she is with Javon, and Javon ... I don't know why I haven't spoken to him.
I had severe ambiguity after that night. Did he like me? Was it just in the moment? I tried to alleviate my stress about it but failed.
My phone started buzzing. I checked it and come to my surprise it was Javon.
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Before I could respond to his message, I was interrupted by my doorbell. I smiled to myself before getting up and making my way downstairs to my front door. I opened the door and saw Javon standing there with his hands behind his back and that same smile he has 90% of the time.
"How long have you been here.." I said the door.
"20 minutes." He said letting himself in and taking his slides off.
"You've been sitting in my driveway for 20 minutes? Why.." I said.
"Debating if I wanted to come in or not." He said honestly.
"That night was awkward and I think we should talk about it." He said looking me in the eyes.
"There's not much to talk about. You're in a "happy" relationship and I don't want to make that girl go ballistic. Especially since you have an entire child with her." I said walking to my kitchen to sit on the counter.
"I know but ... would you have kissed me back if I wasn't ?" He said maintaining eye contact.
I froze. That was a question I wasn't ready to address. A feeling of apprehension washed over me and I just stared at him. Maybe showing him the song and confirming it was about him wasn't a smart idea.
"I......I don't even know if I want to .. be with you." I said quickly trying to gather words. "I haven't dated in years. For all I know you could just be a crush I could get over." I said trying to deny that I did like him.
He looked at me with at me with a confused look.
"I don't mean it like that ... I mean that if I'm just scared these feelings are temporary and I could hurt you if they are," I said trying to be as honest as possible.
He looked at me with a look of distraught and walked closer to me.
"You're not going to hurt me, you just need to develop whatever you're feeling completely. I'm willing to wait on you." He said with a smile without teeth.
