LIFE ITSELF (A CHRISBROWN LOVE STORY)

CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE: TO NEED SOMEONE

DEANNA

I laid in the bed next to Chris as I watch him sleep so peaceful I wish I could sleep If I could get my body under control I would be better even more happier I laid there wide awake and my body kept shaking and my nerves all over the place and I would cry silently wish I knew what to do and I didn't wanna wake Chris so I got out of bed and started walking around this beautiful house just pacing I was so restless then the more and more my thought ran in my head I knew I needed just one drink that would ease my body so I went into the kitchen and I check the fridge which I must have done 2 or 3 times still not finding anything so I looked in the cabinets first looking slow then I got more aggressive with my search I guess I was making too much noise that I didn't hear him walk into the kitchen.

"There's no alcohol here" he said and I turned around looking at him and I leaned up on the wall and just looked at him as if I wanted to kill him

"What you say?" I ask knowing I heard him

"There is no alcohol here, I made sure of that" he said looking at me and out of nowhere I rushed him sticking him as hard as I could

"You motherfucker, you fucking shit, fucking hate you, you fucking selfish son of a bitch" I say while trying to hit his face but he keeps moving his face making me madder and all he did was hug me and just hold while I swung at him.

"Calm down, calm down breathe please breathe" he said and I finally stop fighting him and I cried and we stood there he just held me as my body started shaking and I couldn't calm myself down and I didn't wanna cry but I wasn't in control of my emotions or my body.

"I can't deal with this I wanna be back in control of my body Chris, I don't know what to do" I said as he held me tighter and kissed my forehead and I was happy I was here with him and no one else but I really could use drink and I thought about my purse and how I...

"It'll be okay I got you." He says

"Umm I have to go to the bathroom (he let me go and I walked into the room and grabbed my purse and closed the door behind me and dumped everything out on the floor and start shaking bottles until I found the little Jack Daniels bottle and I sat on the floor with my back to the door and I opened and before I could take a fucking sip a hand came over my shoulder and snatched it right from me and I turned around and looked up at Chris) Chris, wait" I say getting up and start following him

"The fuck are you serious bae? Where the fuck did you get this?" he asks

CHRIS

I wait a few minutes after I see her grab her purse and go to the bathroom and I know she doesn't have her period so there's no reason why she need her purse and I walk to the bathroom door and I listen and I hear things fall all on the floor and I push open the door and I see her opening up a small travel size Jack Daniels and I walk behind her and grab it before she got a chance to drink it.

"The fuck are you serious bae? Where the fuck did you get this?" I asks as I walk to the kitchen sink

"Wait Chris what are you about to do with that? Please don't pour that down the drain just give it to me and I'll be fine" she begs

"Where did you get this? TELL ME?" I yell

"Off the boat it has a mini bar" she said

"GREAT told them not to have any on there" I said and started to pour it out

"CHRIS DON'T PLEASE" She said slapping her legs