LIFE ITSELF (A CHRISBROWN LOVE STORY)

CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO: WHAT NOW?

I laid there faded and tired I've been out every night and every night I got drunk good a faded trying to fight about my problems I couldn't believe it but if there was party I was there smiling in the camera, all on twitter and getting my dance on performing at different clubs been this way for months at least 9 months and I feel like my marriage is over and I guess I drank to cope with the loss of love and feelings for it all. Lisa and Mijo had their drag out fight Lisa was still see her mom ex-boyfriend giving him money taking care of him but Mijo gave her a choice either stay in L.A with him or go back to Atlanta and be with ole boy and she picked to stay in L.A and ended all contact with him, but Mijo and his little side dish he kept seeing her until about Lisa followed him after she notice he was coming up short when it came to money and he had a second cell phone he tried to lie his way out of it but she never meet the girl but Mijo called her and broke it off for good that was 3 months ago. Tyga and Tasha haven't been happier Tasha is pregnant with their first child a boy she's 6 months pregnant. It seem what was said that day made everyone really branch out and live their own life's but you can only go so far til something brings you running back together.

This isn't me who the fuck am I? I don't play with my kids I talk to anyone any more I go clubbing like it's second nature and I paint on a smile and laughing like it's great to me getting more and more tattoos like what the fuck is really going on I'm going downhill fast and can't no one stop or see it.

LISA

I sat there for almost 2hours waiting and I heard the door open Mijo walks in and see's me holding a baby

"Where this baby come from" he asks

"A woman came by today, dropped her off said she's yours, she said she wasn't going to take care of her anymore" I say with tears in my eyes holding a baby girl who's 2 months old

"That's my baby?" he says picking the baby up

"She going to need some milk and pampers" I say slowly crying and Mijo hands the baby back to me

"I'll go get it" he says and turns around and walks away and I break down in tears holding his baby.

TASHA

I stood in front of stove happy to have Tyga home from his tour it has been the two of us for the longest now I'm having his baby and life has been great just been missing the crew I know he has too, I mean Maya and bow still come around and they bring Shai their pretty little girl but it's nothing like our crew. Tyga walks in and kisses me on the neck.

"Smells good I miss your cooking on the road so happy to be back" he says sitting down putting his feet in the chair.

"Hun can I ask you something?" I say

"Yea" he says

"When are you going to call Chris and talk to him?" I asked

(Sighs)"Not this again I told you after that shit was said how I'm a douchebag asshole, that was it for me our friendship will never be the same even when I see Deanna she don't bring it up" he says

"When I see her she don't say anything I think they are going thru over there it has to be hard to have both parents there but one is doing all the work when the other is always out clubbing and drinking and performing as if they're not married and don't have kids at home did you see their picture when they was in the club all over Kae like it wasn't nothing" I say

"Yea I saw that shit, shit there is crazy stupid" he says

CHRIS

I laid there faded and tired I've been out every night and every night I got drunk good a faded trying to fight about my problems I couldn't believe it but if there was party I was there smiling in the camera, all on twitter and getting my dance on performing at different clubs been this way for months at least 9 months and I feel like my marriage is over and I guess I drank to cope with the loss of love and feelings for it all. Soon I was dressed and kissed Christian, Christof and Harmony all of them bye as they sat and the table.

"I got my cell call me if you need me" I said and walked of the kitchen and left the house about 45 minutes late I got to club nokia and the media was everywhere I smiled and walked in with Keeis and Hood and Kid Red we all went in I dapped the fellas and kissed the girls I went straight to V.I.P section and Teyana was their she came right to me and hugged me tight it's been a while since I saw her I told her she have to come by the house and see my babies.. so the drinks started flowing and I was loving it and I saw my nigga bow came walking in and it was a party we partied hard a hell a few of these ratchet chicks wanted to come in V.I.P but not without showing me something and I wasn't talking a about their shoulders either one after one these flashed their boobs to me and I welcomed them in on girl was all over me I kept telling I'm married she didn't care she kept on flirting with me she was pretty but not my time.. so I was buzzed and it was time to go.

"Yo I'm out" I said

"Ight me and Maya are coming by tomorrow night you said dinner your house" Bow said

"Yea I did, okay so about 8" I said and he nodded and me my crew left the club and 1hour later I was finally home and went upstairs and peaked in on the kids they was all sleep I hate missing them being put to bed but I didn't know who I was anymore all this clubbing and drinking I walked in the bed room and closed the door softly and went to the bed and sat down and kick my shoes off and put my cell on the dresser. And laid down on the bed and looked and saw my baby sleeping.

"Chris" she said

"Yea" I looked at her

"Did you read the kids their bedtime story" she said cuddling up under me as I wrapped my arms around her.

"Yea did, you had fun tonight?" I asked

"Yea bow and Maya are coming over tomorrow at 8 for dinner" she said closing her eyes before kissing me