LIFE ITSELF (A CHRISBROWN LOVE STORY)

CHAPTER FOURTEEN: WITH YOU, IS WHERE MY HEART LIES

CHRIS

I saw the look on Deanna’s face as she slowly pulls herself up, I close and lock the door and I go to her.

“Baby I’m sorry” I say and go to her and try to help her up but she won’t let me .She gets up and walks to the door but I push it close with my hand and she backs up and looks at me with a look of fear.

“Baby listen to me please I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have done that, and I should have never touched you like that.” She’s standing by the dresser crying “Deanna please come here, I shouldn’t have done it, I’m sorry I really am sorry, please come to me I would never do that to you again I love you too much to lose you please.” I walk to her and I place both my hands on her waist and she looks away still cries” Deanna please look at me, please baby” I take my hand and turn her face towards me and I rub my thumb across her bottom and I lean down and kiss her but this have to be the first time she didn’t kiss me back. And it pained me to see her cry it was worst when it was because of me “I’m so sorry for the things that I did, can you at least lay with me for a little while please” I say and Deanna walks passed me and lays on the bed slowly and lays on her side and I climb in the bed next to her and cut the light off so that the room is now pitch black I laid there just listening to her cry with her back to me. I get up and go to the closet and take box out of my bag and climb back in the bed and I lean over her and place the box in front of her and I lay back down and just think how stupid I was to ever put my hands on her. I laid there till I feel asleep. A few hours go by and I roll over and open my eyes to see the time is 10:36am. I never slept this long I guess because every time I woke up I could hear Deanna crying and I tried to talk with her but she wasn’t having it. I looked and saw Deanna wasn’t there, so I got up and checked the bathroom and she wasn’t there, so I got up and took a shower and got dressed and I notice that the box I gave her was still in the same spot. I went down stairs to the kitchen where Lisa is cooking breakfast and Mijo was sitting there at the table.

“What’s up “Mijo ask

“Shit I can’t call it nigga” I replied

“What’s wrong my nigga” Mijo        

“I’ll tell you later, where’s Deanna at?” I ask

“I don’t know but I saw her this morning around 7 but she’s with Bernice and Jerome is still here so ask him to call Bernice and see where they are at” Lisa says

“Yea I’ll have to do that Mijo let me talk to you please” I said as I walked out of the kitchen Mijo got up and kissed Lisa and followed me out of the kitchen and out to the patio and closes the sliding door behind him.

“What’s up nigga? What’s going on?” Mijo asked

“Man after that shit that happen with Keeis  man I was so hyped and pissed and I went to go talk to Deanna and I knew I shouldn’t have but I was blaming her for that shit us busting up her shit and she like dismissed what I was saying and tried to leave the room and I , I..” I said

“You did what” Mijo asked

“I pushed her…. And I grabbed her and throw her across the room to where she fell and hit her back on the chair and I’ve been trying to tell her I was sorry but she wouldn’t say anything to me I kept talking to her but she never said a word to me, man I fucked up and I need her to talk to me.” I say as I run my hands across my face and thru my curls.

“Nigga what fuck you can’t put your hands on her yall both been thru the same situation and you out of all people know what you had to go thru to get respect back. Nigga you gotta fix this shit” Mijo says