Memory Fragments: Probity

Nihil

"Would you cry a sea's worth of tears of pride for your wife, or sob in disappointment?"
"Come and sit down for a bit more, Matthew. For this is not an aria, but requiem unbound"
"Listen to my voice once more. For this is your one last reality-check appointment"
"Let loose and cry for me and yourself. Let our voice mimic this silent movie's surround"

"In nihility, there is no sound. You and I are both mute of voice, yet not of meaning"
"There is meaning even in nothingness. So truly, is there such a thing as nihility?"
"A movie made of meanings and movements. An understanding of the screening"
"Do you see it too? My voice and yours, there. Beyond the abstracts of reality"

"Tell me, how do I sound? Tell me, not with voice, but with hearing. Tell me, please"
"For I cannot help you if you do not help me. For I am silent here, but not in there"
"I am the star actress of the movie we are watching. A broken melody to put you at ease"
"Yet you oppose me here and not there. Am I truly too much of a burden to bear?"

"Reject me all you want, but do it there and not here. Be the man of your own self"
"Actor of my heart you are, yes. A marvelous, antagonistic mindset is your role"
"It hurts. It hurts so much, Matthew. Seeing you become the villain within myself"
"Corrupted and set awry. Matthew. I have made you pay enough of a toll"

"For the price of what you asked for was too great. The truth of me and you"
"For the lie to disappear and return whole the sound and voice of your mind"
"You have paid enough. Yet, the you who opposes me has not paid his due"
"Return the nihility of the side in black. A favor from me to the you confined"

"End it all over there and not here. For I do not want for you, too, to break and fall"
"Can you see them now? A letter of blanks. Why me? Why the you of the other side?"
"Do not read it, please. As you do not have the eyes of Matthew. I know. An order most tall"
"Refrain of doing so and, so be the contents unfold, the mystery of them, forever reside"

"Within me, and not you. Within me, the truth untold. Within me, this love of my own"
"Within me, a world of my own. Within me, the heart of Matthew I hold. Within me, alone"
"Within me, the nihility unknown. Within me, to you, I have shared and shown"
"Understand that this is not reality, but inside me. Understand, this regret I have grown"

"I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. This shapeless heart of mine must remain so"
"I must get out of you, so you can get out of me. I must stop loving you so much"
"Yet it seems I cannot let go, for the movie shows me the ending of long ago"
"It is my favorite movie. So I repeat it, again and again. Each time, a deeply touch"

"My heart cannot comprehend it anymore. I have watched the bad so many times"
"So many, that I have forgotten the good. I need you to make me remember"
"My heart beats with memories un-forgone. Yet I cannot let go of their nostalgic chimes"
"I need you. For you to be Mr. Matthew. For you to be the love that will ignite my heart's ember"

"Yet, as you have not watched this movie, you cannot be Mr. Matthew"
"I cannot be without first having been. I cannot forget without first having remembered"
"My characters are unbeknownst to me. Yet I must bid all of them adieu"
"So tell me again, what am I? What am I not? Doctor, please cure this psyche dismembered"

"I am eldritch come forth. I am the mystery you so loved. Yet I am nothing; a truth begotten"
"Nothing more than a product of your mind. The nihility within your blank defined"
"So would you cry for me? Knowing now that I am nothing more than mystery forgotten?"
"The movie does not end in the finale. Yet here I am, waiting for you to search and find"

"I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. To bring forth the nihility within, I am to remain"
"Never forget me, please, never do. What love you have for me, cry for it and let me hear"
"Help understand human emotion. For I do not know it still, the me, I had to feign"
"Help me understand the unknown. For I am it; the mystery I hold so dear"

"Help me put an end to the movie of my life with you. For I cannot create an ending"
"Help me put an end to the corruption within. For nihility is the nature of my own"
"Help me stop my madness descending. For I do not want my realities blending"
"Black and white must remain separate. For the nihility between is my true zone"

"You cannot be Mr. Matthew, Doctor Matteus. You cannot be the one I love"
"How I wish you were. How I wish this movie to be real so I could understand it"
"And yet, that is the true nature of things. The true reality and meaning thereof"
"Are you proud of me? Matteus. Are you aware of my quit? The answer I came to admit?"

"You were my question and I, your answer. Both sought each other, but it was not meant to be"
"The nihility left in my heart is true to form. A form of mine, the reality of the being I am"
"Not an answer to my question. And so, the mystery remains. This meaning of you and me"
"That is the end. A beginning anew. A new sea you have cried for me. Under my new anagram"

"Be this song be the credits to this mystery movie. Be this voice be the singer of mine"
"Be Matteus be the man I fell in love with. Be Matteus be, for he has already been"
"He can now forget for he has remembered. Be he, the eldritch of my heart's define"
"I am your mirror. I am Mr. Matthew. A mystery once more. The nihility of my sin"