Mainly about: After awhile of escaping his fathers house with Sal, while Sal goes out to get a few things Travis is home alone in the room with the lights out, door closed, curtains closed and staring in the mirror zoned out in his head self talking I'm also gonna make another one like this but different
Self Talk-Parker Jack
Travis Pov:
Sal kissed me on the cheek before walking out the room but before he did that he turned to look at me "Babe" "Hm" "Are you ok" "Mhm" "...Ok" he walked out the door closing it behind him I closed my eyes and got up.
When I walked over to the mirror I pulled a chair up and sat down staring at myself the painful bruise on my eye, lip and cheek there were so many tears threatening to fall out I looked at my hair the color is turning back brown.
Past Travis
Present Travis
Past Travis: Hey, can we talk?
Travis: Na, I don't really wanna talk right now
Past Travis: That's okay, you never really did, I've been
Screaming every day "Please let me out!!"
Travis: Hold up, Let you out? You couldn't protect yourself! I was protecting you
Past Travis: You were protecting me?!
Travis: Yes protecting you, everybody in this world was rejecting you, nobody out here could accept you
Past Travis: No, everyone could, except you. That's the problem that you have man, you build walls up and hid behind the shame and I guess that I'm partially to blame, I don't know what to say
Travis: Don't explain! You're making no sense to me, it kind of all just sounds like a guess to me...
Past Travis: Bro, your trauma made me just a memory, ain't nobody in this world remembers me
Travis: So you wanted them to hurt you?
Past Travis: Man that's not what I'm saying...
Travis: Well you basically are every time that you told me I took it too far, and your mom left you cause you're way too emotional
Past Travis: Man I did what I was supposed to do
Travis: No you didn't! The world made you hit your limit, and then I got distant. That's what I'm tryna tell you but you just won't listen
Past Travis: What I'm tryna tell you is we're both broken, My heart's open, yours is closing
Travis: I don't give a damn if my heart is frozen!
Past Travis: You don't wanna be yourself?
Travis: I had to free myself because it just kept happening!
Past Travis: Go see a therapist instead of just rappening, or it'll just keep happening!
Travis: You don't think I ever get tired of maskin' it?!
Past Travis: I don't care if you do cause the more that you are
Mean the more that I'm vanishing, and I really just want myself back again
(Ok so I messed up and im sorry if you get confused with the words)
I didn't even relize how long i've been crying I looked back in the mirror and looked at my self red puffy eyes, stained cheeks, watery eyes and messy hair Sal came back but I don't remember when.
He was hugging me from behind huming along to a song in his head as he rubbed slow and smooth circles around my waist "S-sal" he looked up at me and turned me around to face him he wiped my tears away.
He kissed my forehead and picked me up carrying me over to the bed after we got comfortable my head was laying on his chest and his hand was gently rubbing my back the cover was pulled up so it was warm.
Before we did get in bed he brushed through my hair and wiped my face we made out but not for long and he had some coffee and sweets on the side table I closed my eyes and Sal was smiling.
"I love you Travis so so so much" "I love you too Sal" he gave me one last kiss on my forehead and that's all I remember before I fell asleep an I assume he went to sleep soon after since his breathing was calming down.
(you know I had to end it off with something sweet and heartwarming)
The End (:
