Special Alice (Gakuen Alice / Alice Academy FF)

SA 119 - HQ

Dearest Mother and Father,

I trust this letter finds you both in good health, along with Yuka-san. Please rest assured, I am managing well. At present, I reside within the Headquarters. Apart from authorized personnel who enter and exit my room, it's nearly impossible to break free from this space, given the constraints they've imposed, even more so due to the formidable barrier Uncle Shiki has placed around me. Although my room holds me captive, I have a limited reprieve as I can step out onto the balcony for brief periods.

My days are filled with reflections on the cherished memories I've created with my friends, wondering about their present activities and daily lives. The solitude evokes a sense of nostalgia, yet I'm not entirely alone in this place. Bear-san watches over me, offering solace and care.

To ensure my loneliness does not become overwhelming, Uncle Shiki put forth a request to allow me a companion who had no direct involvement in past incidents. Weekly, the High School Principal and Shiki make time to visit me, reviewing my schoolwork and ensuring my mental well-being. During the week, I have to meet the Elementary Principal, who is trying to build a rapport with me, but I find it deeply unsettling and feel a sense of revulsion even when in his presence.

Back then, I thought I was facing a fate worse than death, an experience that still haunts my nightmares. The weight of having taken lives during my missions, as well as the burden of the previous incident, branded me as a murderer. At times, I see apparitions of those I believed I wronged, filled with anger and sorrow. I'm aware that they are mere phantoms of my own imagination, a manifestation of my remorse.

With love,
Ashikaga Misaki

{Misaki}

In the stifling confines of the room, this past three months, every day felt like a repetitive loop I couldn't break. Everything I needed was within this space, a bed, bathroom, study area, small dining space slash lounge.

" A pleasant day, I hope." I muttered while sitting up on my fluffy bed, stretching my arms upward relieving my sore body.

Mornings began with the slight creak of the door, the sound of Bear's comforting presence as he brought breakfast. I sat at the small, mundane table in the corner, with my only companion for the day.

Hours seemed to stretch endlessly, trapped within my room, bounded by uncle Shiki's unyielding barrier. The walls, blank and sterile, seemed to enclose around me with each passing second. The window let in slivers of light, a fragmented view of the world I wasn't allowed to be a part of.

My desk, piled with textbooks and notes, served as a reminder of my daily self study education like what I was doing before academy yet the difference is that, no teachers were present to correct me in detail. 

" If only they gave me a music player or something to play with. I'm constantly bored to death!" I grimaced throwing my pencil across the room. Sighing, I got up from my seat and picked up the pencil checking if it's still usable or needs to be sharpened again.

I missed the hum of the classroom, the easy camaraderie with friends, and the thrill of learning something new. The monotonous routine was suffocating, the silence louder than anything else. There was only so much studying, pacing, and tracing invisible patterns on the floor that I could endure.

" I miss Mikan, Hotaru, Ruka, Inchou..." I sighed as I lay my head down on the study table after finishing a set of homework, as soon as I knew it, I've managed to name the Class B students along with our handful Senpai.

" I miss Natsume..." I added groaning in frustration. The room felt smaller by the day, and while Bear was a reassuring presence, his company wasn't enough to chase away the persistent feeling of isolation.