CHASING ( BLUES )

Contradictions

I want to be happy but I think about sad things all the time.

I don't like myself but still I am glad I turned out like this.

I like to talk but I will never say anything.

I want people to acknowledge me but out in the world, you will find me in my thoughts.

I want to cry so bad but instead I laugh.

I want to focus on myself but I ignore myself.

I like silence but you will never find me without earphones in my eyes.

I want to sleep but instead I stare at the moon instead.

I don't want to waste my time but still I take the longest route home.

I always say I don't want to do this but in the end I work myself to exhaustion.

There are contractions in my actions. I stay divided in what I want to do and what I actually do.