CHASING ( BLUES )

WHO DO I BLAME?

Screams, loud and clear,

Can't seem to stop myself. 

Fragile, I tremble in fear,

Can't seem to freed myself. 

You are right but so does she. 

You are wrong but so is she. 

Who do I blame things on?

Who could I choose, a storm or a cyclone?

You laugh, she cries. 

You scream, she never asks me why. 

You berate, she doesn't even see that kind of worth in me. 

You put chains on me, she gives me too much freedom. 

Who do I blame? 

Who could I ever blame?

You? Her? Myself? Someone else?

I want someone to be held responsible. 

I can't seem to sleep, I think too much. 

I want something to happen to you, so cruel. 

I understand everything, i'm stupid but not that much. 

But if anything happens to you, i will cry, i will fall, and will break beyond repair. 

I idolize you, she is my muse. 

I wanna be like you, so hard working. 

I wanna be like her, so responsible. 

But i wish to never be like you both. 

I flinch and everyone says I'm such fake it. 

Everyone laughs, i do too. 

I forget everything and everyone says i'm dumb. 

Everyone laughs, but I sigh in relief. 

I want to put this misery to the end, i will do anything for it.

Everyone laughs, I say I'm just desperate. 

 I want to stop myself, break out but I'm still standing numb. 

 Everyone laughs, I do too. 

Screams, loud and clear.I am happy, 

atleast everyone else is in the safety of sleep. 

Fragile, i tremble in fear. I

 shouldn't fall into the traps of safety, i shouldn't sleep.

daze<3