Furciferous || Soukoku

49|| Breaking The Silence

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Welcome to the fourth update of today ^-^! 

You will learn the reason why Tecchou is so scared of being touched, but first make sure that you didn't skip the previous three chapters if you are a reader of this story >~<! 

Warning! 

This chapter contains sexual harassment! If you are uncomfortable by it, please don't read the chapter! I won't tolerate any kind of hate comments or insults! 

Besides, it is not rape! I'm against rape or forced sexual relationship! It is NOT okay in ANY WAY, in ANY REASON! 

So before commenting, please keep this in mind. I don't think most people read the author notes but still... 

If you decide to read anyway, enjoy ^-^! 

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For the first time, Tecchou was going to tell someone the real reason why he was so scared of being touched. He was nervous. His palms were sweaty. What if Jouno disgusted by him? What if he wanted to break up? He didn't want to lose Jouno, but he was aware that he couldn't keep it as a secret anymore...

He took a deep breath and told Jouno why he was afraid of being touched. "When I was a kid, I was molested by a stranger in strange clothes... He touched me in a way I didn't want to be touched..." Tears threatened to escape from his eyes as he told the story, but he held them back.

Jouno looked surprised, but his expression softened in understanding. "That must have been really hard for you." He said gently.

Tecchou's shoulders relaxed a little, surprised and relieved by Jouno's gentle reaction. "I just don't want to experience that kind of pain again." He finished.

Jouno smiled sadly, then reached out to take Tecchou's hand in his. "I understand." He said. "I promise I will never do anything you don't want me to do. You can trust me."

Tecchou felt a weight lifted from his chest after breaking the silence of years. He had been so worried about telling Jouno the truth, but in the end, he was glad he did. They hugged each other. Their hearts joined in understanding.

Tecchou became more comfortable with physical contact the more he spent time with Jouno and the more he opened himself up to the idea of physical contact. He found physical contact could be a powerful way to express his feelings.

As a result, Tecchou began to show his affection more openly. Holding Jouno's hand, hugging him close and cuddling him were all ways that Tecchou could express his love and affection for Jouno. The physical contact they shared allowed them to grow even closer together and provide the reassurance and comfort they both craved.

Jouno also hadn't noticed how touch-craved he was until him and Tecchou touched each other for the first time. Jouno's parents had never hugged him or even stroke his hair.

When Tecchou took Jouno's hand and embraced him for the first time, it was like a new warmth was spreading in Jouno's heart, making him feel and incredible connection that he had been missing. His heart started beating faster and he could feel that he had finally found someone that truly cared for him.

As such, he felt overwhelmed and somewhat scared at the tenderness Tecchou showed him. Jouno's heart leapt with joy and at the feeling of acceptance and safety he felt when Tecchou held him close that day.

Since then, he would often find himself longing for more physical contact. He even found himself looking for excuses for them to touch each other as he found the reassurance of Tecchou's presence soothing.

"I also have something to tell you Tecchou." Jouno said after sighing heavily. He was finally ready to talk about his family's physical abuse toward him and his brother with someone. "I had been experiencing physical abuse from my mother and father for years. It started when I was just a kid. At first it was just small things, but it has gradually become more and more violent... I was always hit harder than my brother was and my brother could only watch helplessly as he was belittled and beaten up. I was always too scared to tell anyone for fear that my parents would find out and it would only make things worse..." He looked up at Tecchou with an uncomfortable expression on his face, as if he was expecting some type of reproach from him, but Tecchou was stunned to hear what Jouno had to say. He always had suspected that Jouno didn't have it easy at home when he told him about no attachments and no falling in love rules, but he had no idea it was like this...

"Jouno... That's... Awful... I'm so sorry." Tecchou wrapped his arms around Jouno who had started to sob and hugged him tightly. He wanted to give him as much comfort as possible in that moment.

"I have tried my best to take the brunt of the abuse and protect my brother from it, but..." Jouno shakily recounted his memories of being abused, feeling his emotions were getting the better of him as he was doing so. Jouno was now crying too hard to continue. "I'm still so scared all the time that one day things will get too out of hand and they will end up killing my brother... I don't want to my brother go through that and I don't want to be a victim myself. I'm so scared but I don't know what to do anymore or how I can save him..."

Tecchou felt his own heart was breaking as he watched his lover in this state. He felt angry that someone could do this to someone as wonderful as Jouno, but he also felt helpless that he couldn't do anything to help him. "It's okay, Jouno. I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere. I will always be here for you. I promise you." Tecchou said with tears welling up in his own eyes as well.

In that moment, Tecchou truly realized how important Jouno was to him. He wanted to be there for his lover through all his ups and downs and he loved and cherished Jouno more than anything and anyone in the world.

Tecchou and Jouno stayed in each other's arms for a few moments longer, until Jouno had calmed down enough to talk again. "You are really the best, Tecchou. I don't know what I would do without you."

"You would do okay, Jouno. You are strong and brave and you will get through this. We will get through this. Together." Tecchou said, stroking Jouno's hair and he planted a soft kiss on his forehead.

Jouno knew that he could trust Tecchou, that it was okay to be vulnerable in front of him and he would be accepted no matter what.

No one should ever have to experience the kind of abuse Jouno and his brother Natsuki went through, but thanks to Tecchou's support and kindness, Jouno was better now. 

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One more chapter will be updated in a bit! 

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