I wasn't ready to hear his nonsense. What the hell is he talking about?! He has a bright future ahead of him. I want him to live happily ever after. And now he is saying all this crap! Are you insane?!
I was getting more and more anxious. His face was brimming with sincerity so I understand that he wasn't telling me any lies. He is determined to follow me in death.
No! You are not allowed to follow me!
To make him stop I immediately grabbed his face and kissed him clumsily.
Tay got startled at first but then He suddenly pushed me onto the bed. I looked at him and saw him struggling.
'Tay....' I wanted to tell him so many things but could only utter his name.
'What are you doing?' His voice was hoarse.
'Kiss me.' I yanked him closer to me.
'A few hours ago you almost drowned in the lake......you need rest.' He wasn't ready to kiss me.
'I am totally fine...' I felt throbbing pain in my chest. All this time whenever he kissed me I felt a certain kind of excitement.....I was shy but happy. But now that he harshly rejected my advances I felt very lost.
He looked at me with concern and placed a soft kiss on my forehead.
'You are tired, I can see it in your eyes. I didn't get time to prepare dinner so tonight let's have some instant noodles....' He was about to get up when I said tiredly,
'I am not hungry so you can go ahead and have those. Please turn off the light when you leave.'
He didn't leave immediately. I was lying there eyes closed but I can sense his stare on me.
'Hin..'
'Leave me alone.'
'If I kiss you now, I won't be able to control my desire. But you need rest. Please try and understand na.' He said softly.
I didn't say anything.
'What do you want me to do Hin? Tell me.'
'Do I have to spell it out for you?! Don't you understand?' I said with frustration. I was already feeling deep fear from his earlier declaration, now I felt more and more agitation.
Nothing is going the way I want....
'Your health is more important than anything else and right now...'
My health! Huh! Please don't make me laugh! I am the healthiest person in this world Tay. Those Khemwaens didn't do anything for me except keeping me healthy. I spent my entire childhood and some part of my adolescence under constant control of a team of doctors.....
I hate being healthy Tay....I hate it so much...
'Thanks for your concern. Now you can fuck off.'
'Hin!' He looked at me in disbelief.
'I don't care if the storm gets better or worse, tomorrow I am going back. You can stay if you want.'
'Really? You came here with me in my car. How do you think.....' He was trying to be reasonable.
'None of your concern.' I got up from the bed.
'Don't be ridiculous! You won't find any cab in here.... phone lines are down too...'
'I am way more resourceful than you think you know.' I was getting more and more irritated.
'Somethings are beyond your control. You are not God.' He stood up with hands in his pocket.
