It's beautiful.
Tay was right. The after storm scenery outside was breathtaking in the morning. Everything was extra shiny because the sunlight was so clear and bright.
'I am in love with this place.' I said with a aching heart. How nice it would be if I could come here again in the future.
'You can come here anytime you want. This is your place too.'
'My place?'
'Of course.'
'Thanks.'
In this world I have nothing to claim as my own. I preferred it that way. Before I used to think that my existence in this world is for a short period of time so why would I need assets? My one and only aim was to protect Hiya. But now.....
Now I am thinking how nice it would be if I had something to call my own. So that I could give that to the person who is willing to give his everything to me.
'What are you thinking?'
'I want to give you something but funny thing is that I don't have anything.'
'Buy me a meal today when we get back to the city.'
'No.... that's not it. I want to give you something special.'
'Then can I ask you for something?'
'Mn. Sure. Tell me what you want?' I have some money left which I can use freely. It's my own.... it's not clean but it's not that dirty either. Day gave it to me when he earned a huge profit from his gambling games. I helped him win that. I can use it to buy him something.
We were standing in front of the lake. The car was already loaded and ready to run. We were just appreciating the scenery and I was saying goodbye to this place in my mind.
'Do you want a laptop? I think yours is really old.'
'No.'
'Then...'
'I want you.'
I was stunned after hearing that. I was thinking about electronic gadgets and he was thinking about that!
'You....... already have me.' I mumbled.
'I want you completely. Body and soul. I want you to only look at me. I want you to pay attention only to me. I want you to spend your time only with me. I want you to stay with me.....can you do that?'
'Tay....'
'Don't go to Germany na? Please I beg you....Stay with me. I want to see you all the time. You can get angry with me.......I will coax you......I want your cuteness but I also want your sadness. I want your gentleness but I also want your tantrums. I want your trust.....'
I was listening in a daze. He doesn't want anything special. He is only asking for me. Unfortunately..... This thing.....I am unable to give him.
'I know..... It's a very strange demand. But..you know me.....my mind is crooked that way.' He turned around and gave me a peck on the cheek.
'So....you want me to be your... prisoner?' I arched my eyebrows in dissatisfaction. On the inside I was in pain.
'No!......No....Hin!.....I was just wondering..' He became flustered.
I wanted to be harsh.....I wanted to refuse him sternly......
Because I know.....He won't let me go easily......I need to hurt him....hurt him bad......
But in the end I couldn't do it. The panic in his eyes were so evident that instead of saying hurtful things I hugged him tightly.
'Hin.....?' He was ready to apologize but my sudden action took him off guard.
