Lost Devotion // Sebastian Sallow

Sweater

The entire day of classes I had been purposely ignoring Sebastian, throwing him cold looks and giving a cold shoulder. His multiple attempts to catch my attention or meet my gaze were futile and I could sense his growing frustration as well as my own.

I was still determined as ever to not let him get to me. Let him think I hate him. It had become my mantra recently.

Even Ominis had taken notice of my attitude towards Sebastian, cornering me in the corridor on the way to potions class. "What exactly is going on with you and Sebastian?"

"Why do you care?" I shrugged him off, trying to move past.

"I'm going to ignore that comment and ask again. What is going on? Last I knew you two were supposed to talk and now he is moping around our room, moody and sour not to mention his arrogance has grown even more. He's so pissed off all the time I had thought maybe his girlfriend had broken up with him but come to find out it's you two again having some issue."

"Oh I didn't realize you two were sooo close again and shared everything." My tone was harsh but I couldn't stop.

"Really Olivia? We aren't but despite that, I know Sebastian well enough to read his moods."

I rolled my eyes hard, thinking it would have just been the icing on the cake if Adelaide had dumped him or whoever he's with now.

"We did talk and this is the outcome, by his own choosing," I huffed. "You were wrong Ominis, we can not be friends. We can't even be civil."

Ominis let out a loud sigh, his nose scrunching up, "You two are seriously too similar. I just want to hit you both over the head."

I thought for a moment about his comment unsure what he meant. I didn't think we were alike at all. He didn't say anything else, instead turning and going off to class as I followed behind.

Potions class was slow, today was just a review of everything we had learned up until this point. I took a seat next to Garreth, not really in the mood to deal with Ominis again and Poppy was meaning well but I couldn't risk just spilling everything to her like I secretly wanted to.

I felt bad every time I had to burden everyone with my stupid issues so stuffing them down inside me was just easier.

"Well hello there," Garreth said, eyeing me up and down, "What brings you to this side of the class? Feeling dangerous?"

I rolled my eyes, "Please don't blow me up today Garreth."

He let out a laugh, giving me a pat on the top of my head, "I would never."

From where I sat, the entire classroom was in view. Sebastian was sat in a direct line from me on the other end of the room. I tried my best not to look at him but I could feel his lingering gaze as usual.

Garreth was rather flirty today too which I wasn't sure how to feel about that either but I guess I appreciated that he was acting like himself with me unlike certain others. Once again I felt like everything was growing so complicated and like I was suffocating.

Sitting at my station I couldn't help but think over everything, replaying it as it weighed me down more and more. I kept hearing Sebastian saying over and over how it was a mistake.

I could feel the air in my lungs becoming less and less. My chest slowly constricting as I tried to grip the table while Garreth obliviously brewed a potion.

My ears began ringing, the edges of my vision turning black. I stepped away from the cauldron, turning towards the door. In my rush I knocked over a vial of something, the contents spilling all down the front of my shirt and stinging as it soaked through to my skin.