Demonic

Chapter 18: 'Flustered mercy' (Hayden to Jaxx's POV)

I felt him staring me down, deciding my fate. It got worse when I heard him sit next to me. He grabbed my wrists and took them away from my face. "I'm not going to hurt you." Jaxx declared. I bet him and my mom secretly liked me too (Sarcasm). I lifted my hands back up and ignored his comment. He took them again, this time holding them in his claw-like fingers. "Since when have I hurt you?" He inquired. You're joking...I thought. "You scratched my arm, You cut and bruised my legs on the same day-" I started. "Besides that stuff." The spawn of Satan interrupted.

"Oh, nothing but stringing me along making me wonder if I'm going to live or not everyday and psychologically torturing me with your constant change of moods. Nothing traumatizing or anything." I listed flatly. "Well I...I care about you. A lot." He confessed. I scoffed. "Just because you help me with one witchcraft assignment and underestimate me doesn't make you some kind of hero." I truthed. He glared at me. "If you care so much about me, how about you prove it?" I challenged. I expected him to punch me, or insult me, maybe even kill me on the spot. But he did something I didn't expect. Not from anyone. Especially someone so royal like him. He kissed me. I kissed him back.

When we came back to the dorm, the only thing he did was blush and quickly write stuff in his diary. As for me, I just stared at a wall and tried to process what happened. I just kissed Jaxx Morningstar. He kissed me. The son of Lucifer kissed me. Voluntarily. There was just no way I could believe it. I glanced at Jaxx. He was flustered, jotting down things like he was earlier, only this time it was quicker and more intense, with different feelings. Lots and lots of different feelings. I continued to stare at the blank white wall by my bed, hoping it could somehow help me process what just happened. What Jaxx just did. How it would forever affect our relationship. 

JAXX'S POV

I quickly scribbled down my feelings. My flustered feelings. I had just kissed my crush. And He actually kissed me back. I looked at him. He sat on his bed, staring at the wall near him blushing. It looked like he was zoning out. I looked down at what I wrote.

OH SWEET FATHER I JUST KISSED MY CRUSH OH MY SATAN OH MY SATAN AM I DREAMING? AM I ON DRUGS? DID SOMEONE DRUG ME? DID MY CRUSH JUST KISS ME? DID I JUST KISS HAYDEN?

It seemed pretty accurate. I couldn't help but stare at Hayden. He looked unusually cute today. Is this love or desperation...? I thought. He looked at me. The both of us made eye contact, I quickly turned away. Writing more. I began to hyperventilate. WHAT WOULD MY FATHER THINK...? WHAT WOULD MY MOTHER THINK...? WHAT WOULD THE REST OF MY FAMILY THINK...? WHAT WOULD THE PUBLIC THINK- "You okay?" Someone asked. I looked up and saw the boy I just kissed sitting at the edge of my bed. I wanted to talk but nothing would come out. "I...I..." It was all I could splutter. I felt his eyes on me. "What...What are my parents going to think? What's everyone going to think?" I asked, my breathing becoming sharper, as I began to cry. Hayden sits in front of me. "Jaxx?" He called faintly. Tears streamed down my face. "What...?" I asked. "If you care so much about what people think...GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER!!" He yelled, slapping me in my face. I looked at him stunned. It wasn't the first time he hit me today, but still. While I was crying...Not even I would do that to someone- Well I have a few times killed other demons- "YOU'RE THE PRINCE OF HELL AND YOU'RE SITTING HERE CRYING BECAUSE YOU KISSED A MAN!!? WHAT THE HELL!!? YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO REPLACE YOUR FATHER AND SIT ON A THRONE AND YOUR CRYING OVER A GUY ALREADY!!?" He sneered. "Well I-" I began to justify. "I DON'T CARE!! STOP CRYING, AND WATCH A MOVIE WITH ME!!"

(Don't handle someone having panic attacks the way Hayden did... Please.)