Drifting Through The Clouds

Chapter 33

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Chapter 33

People sometimes ask what love really means. Even I, myself, had been asking the same question every single day until I finally got the answers.. Until I start asking for the meaning of it again.

Love, much like the clouds in the sky, can appear to drift away at times. Just as clouds may temporarily block the sun, moments of emotional distance or conflict can seem to obscure the warmth and connection of love. However, like the clouds eventually moving on, love can also find its way back, revealing the brightness and comfort it brings. The ebb and flow of love, like the changing sky, is a reminder that it is a living, evolving force that adapts to the ever-changing landscape of life.

I have learned so much in life but never learned this much in love until I found it with Cait. She was and still the meaning of love for me. She's that cloud in the sky..

"Bei, kailangan nating mag-usap."

I closed my eyes with so much anticipation because this time.. alam ko nang hindi ko matatakasan si Cait. She's been wanting for us to talk about what happened a month ago and lagi akong humahanap ng way para iwasan. Natatakot ako, eh. I'm so damn scared.

"Cait, ilang beses ko bang sasabihin na I don't want to talk about it? I'm fine and we're okay. What's there to talk about?"

"Marami! Bei, hindi na tayo okay.."

Halos mapahilamos ako sa sinabi niyang iyon. Kung kailan nagiging maayos na kami.. kung kailan paunti-unti naming nilalabas sa mundo kung ano'ng mayroon sa amin tsaka naman nagkakaganito..

I wanted to basically blame everyone.. I wanted to blame the management, the system, the people around us.. Why is this so hard? Bakit pagdating sa ganitong pag-ibig, eh, napakahirap?

"This is for us naman, Bei.."

I held her hand and firmly said, "Ayoko! If what they want is to break us apart, then, no. I won't!"

Cait frustratingly sat on the couch. "Ayoko lang tanggalan ka ng opportunity na deserve mo dahil lang sa akin.."

I took a deep breathe. "Hindi naman mahalaga sakin 'to--"

"Sa'yo, hindi.. Pero para sa akin, oo. Bea, you deserve where you are right now! You deserve to be the captain! You deserve to stay as the captain, Bea! Wala akong problema sa iba.. but YOU deserve it. You earned it!"

I get it. Naiintindihan ko siya.. Naiintindihan ko bawat frustration niya at naiintindihan ko kung saan nanggagaling 'yon. But did I really earned being the captain or was I just a mere substitute when Maddie got injured? Kung hindi ba siya na-injure that time, magiging captain ba ako? I'm pretty sure that I won't. Mahalaga ba sakin 'yon? No. As long as I'm able to play the sport that I love, then I'm all good.

"I can still play and be a captain even without the underline on my jersey, Cait. So please.."

Umiling siya habang mugto na ang mga mata niya kakaiyak. "They are making you step down because they think I'm dragging you down.. They don't see the effort you're giving in this team at naiinis ako dahil pakiramdam ko may point sila!"