𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐮𝐬 / 𝐣. 𝐤𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐢𝐧

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'stupid jean. acting like i never fucking existed. acting like he doesn't see me. like i'm a fucking ghost. fucking asshole'

y/n's phone chimed in her pocket, making a groan leave her lips.

'perfect. what i needed was to talk to you'

y/n wasn't only angry at jean, but also, at sasha. what she texted her some days back, really annoyed her.

she thought it was absolutely unfair to forbit her of talking about something that hurt her- just because she solved her problem.

what's up with you today?

had a headache

were you mad at jean?

or did something happen with him that pissed you off?

'lying to you it is, sasha. since, apparently, you don't want to talk about jean!'

bro when was i angry?

don't let this affect you that much

i can see your stories on your spam account about him, y/n

it doesn't do you any good

those are just random songs...

just talk to him

i'm serious

start talking to him

and don't tell me that shit about him talking first

i can see he's uncomfortable, so no

can you listen to me for once?

he doesn't have a problem with you

since he doesn't have a problem with me, why doesn't he talk? 🥱

to fix a situation that's hurting you, you have to do something and not stay still

you just sit and cry

who's crying? that's for idiots

you saw it was me who went to talk to him, today. or else he wasn't talking to me

he doesn't have a problem

that's how jean is

no

you're wrong

jean wasn't like this with ME

whenever he saw me alone at breaks, he was coming to me

i wasn't going to him

talk to him then

no? i'm not gonna fucking beg him

okay good, but jean can't guess that

do you understand that you cancel everything i told him with the things you do right now?

i told him that you want to stay friends and you just sit there and don't talk to him

didn't he say the same thing?🤨

what else can i do? take both of you by the hand and sit you down to talk?

who asked you to do anything?

y/n, just show him that you want to stay friends

yeah like it doesn't show 🤣

no, it doesn't

mf, from the way we're looking at it other (whenever we do), i'm sure we both know what we want

then talk, for fuck's sake

i don't want him to feel uncomfortable, do you fucking get that?

because he definitely feels a way

we all feel uncomfortable for different things

sure this is different but you get over it

you're not spending your whole life thinking; "i feel uncomfortable because i know this"

what are you? 5 years old?

i told him that for things to be fixed, you have to talk and he agreed

he's not against talking to you, do you understand that?

fix whatever is going on between you to find peace

to fix things, i have to tell him how i feel

in general

and i'm not gonna do that

tell me why

why don't you want to tell him how you feel?

because i can't talk about my feelings!

so it's difficult to open up to him, since i don't do that

do you want me to tell him something?

even though i don't want to get in between

but i will, if it'll help you talk to him

tell him what? "oh she doesn't talk to you because she doesn't know how to open up to people, but wants to be your friend and ignore what happened?"

tell him that you don't know how to actually open up

that you want to talk to him

but don't talk about your feelings

i don't want to get in between and i won't do it

the only thing i can do in this situation is ask him if he's uncomfortable with you

do whatever you want, idc

okay, i'll ask him and then you can do whatever you want

the only thing i have to tell you is that you'll regret what you're doing

not talking to him?

yes

for sure i'll regret it

but i prefer it from pressuring myself to do something

sasha didn't text her anything after that. she just left her on seen.

'all that shit about not wanting to talk about him, and she was the one bringing hip up'

she sighed as she sat on her bed, before hugging her cat close to her chest.

'wish i could go back in time and change what happened'

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