𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐮𝐬 / 𝐣. 𝐤𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐢𝐧

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| 𝐏𝐀𝐆𝐄 ¹⁹: 𝐌𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐄𝐒 |

another night y/n couldn't sleep. she was just staring at photos of her and jean, before moving to their conversations.

her heart was breaking into millions of pieces and her cheeks were wet with tears, as she tried not to sob.

to her, it felt as though time had stopped. she was stuck on that last night of the school trip. she was stuck watching everything happening; from start to finish. stuck yelling at herself to stop and get a grip. stuck in a never-ending nightmare.

a nightmare she created.

'get me out of this loop... i can't take it, anymore'

she had a headache that made her think her mind would split in half.

all she wanted was for things to go back to the way they used to be.

she didn't want to feel this pain.

she wanted to talk to jean the way she used to.

she didn't want to move on from him, like sasha suggested.

she didn't want to move on from the feelings he made her feel.

she didn't want any of that.

she just wanted him.

her heart and soul ached for him.

she wanted to be in love and loved by him.

because in her small world, they were like this.

happy and together.

she closed her eyes and thought of that happy universe, in an attempt to calm herself down.

she breathed in and out softly, wiping the tears from her face.

she opened her phone, checking the time; it was 2:30am.

she clicked on tiktok, trying to get her mind off the things that were hurting her.

and that's when she watched a video about manifesting someone. she checked the comments and kept on watching more videos, finding songs and screenshotting methods.

a small smile made its way to her face, a single thought in her mind.

'well, this could work'

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