This is a mushy gushy chapter... so be prepared... o.o
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Just My Luck, Stuck With The Alpha
Chapter Twenty-One:
Day Two: 8:00 P.M.
~ Silver's POV ~
I walked back to camp slowly and headed into my tent immediately. I stripped out of my clothes and pulled on female boxers and a tank top then I laid down and stared inside the tent. I've wasted my time... I should have told Zev hours ago. But I was too busy talking to Kevin, Jess, Marisa, and Rodney to realize all the time had gone. After tomorrow either we're gonna face life or death. Most likely death. We're not strong enough, none of us will be strong enough. Someone's gonna get kidnapped. I'm gonna die... we're all gonna die. I've never been in war before but if there's anything I fear the most in the world, it's dying before my time to die. I have a lot to live for... and what about Zev? My mate? What about him? He'll die too. All because my stupid ass wouldn't own up and tell him I'm his mate. Stupid freaking nervous system. I clenched my fists and thought about it. We're gonna die. All the images of everyone I knew flashed through my mind, everyone... the children... the elderly... the pregnant... Zev... my friends... my pack... everyone's gonna die. And it's gonna be my fault because I wouldn't tell Zev. Uncontrollable tears fell from my eyes. I literally began to cry a river. I don't wanna die...
I probably sat there crying for like a couple of hours when my wolf began to push me.
'You're not gonna die. I'm not gonna let you die. So get your ass up walk over to Zev's tent and tell him you love him. NOW.' My wolf demanded. Without objection I wiped my eyes got out of my tent and walked over to his. I might have stood outside of his tent for like a couple of seconds but then my wolf pushed me again.
'Ask if you can come in.' My wolf said. So I asked.
"Um... Zev?" I said taking the shaking out of my voice. "Can I come in?" I whispered. It was silent for a little bit on the other end but then the zipper to his tent came loose. I crawled inside and sat across from him. He looked so beautiful right now. "Hey." I said.
"Hey... what's up?" He asked rubbing his eyes, then he gazed at my face. "...why were you crying?" I wiped my face again.
"Crying? I wasn't crying." I said trying to be bold. Zev rolled his eyes.
"You've got tear stained cheeks. Why were you crying?" He asked.
"...I can't do this... I can't fight and kill people." I said the tears began to come up and I began to choke on my words. "And I don't wanna die." Then the tears came again. He came over and wrapped his arms around me. The shocks ran throughout my body making me calm for some odd reason. He stroked my hair.
"You're not gonna die... I won't let you." He said. After that it was quite silent. As my crying began to stop I began to calm myself.
"I don't want you to die either..." I said lower than a whisper.
"You don't have to worry about that..." He said. I swallowed. Here it comes.
"Yes I do. Zev... if you die. I die." I started. "You're my mate and you need me just as much as I need you." I said even lower than what I said before. I felt him stiffen. See this was exactly what I was afraid of. But then he pulled me away to look at him.
"I know." I looked at him with a furrowed brow.
"You do?" I asked.
"Silver, I should have known from way earlier, but of course I was being blind and stupid. And I'm completely sorry for what I said or did before hand." I smiled a little as the tears began to form up again. My hand reached for his.
