Mood: 🤕
Naalala mo ba yung sinabi mo sa sarili na okay, wala nang magagawa. Accept what has been done?
Taking this easy and just getting ahead of yourself for next time?
Because you really had no choice but to step away from that sad memory and just create something new.
Make yourself happy.
Be the better version.
Accomplish what you missed out.
Yeah, I know that. And that is what I have been doing right now.
Forming eventful happenings that I could cherish for.
Letting myself be busy in a fun way by going on with my likes and stuff.
And rest after that tiring harsh burnout I experienced back there.
I am glad I never get to have that again.
Because if I do, then what is the point of living?
The purpose of adding another plus at my age?
Usage of everything I am fighting for?
Ay, walang ganunan.
No to sapawan na may paparoon. Tinatakasan nga e.
Iniiwanan na nga. Naghahanap ng mas deserving.
Bumitaw na matapos ang mahigpit na pagkakahawak.
Para lang maagapan ang sarili.
Hindi ko gustong mapabilang sa mga taong nagse-stay pa rin sa past.
I am here present in this present.
Sinisiguradong payak ang future.
I do not want to be included in that horrible situation that I had been in.
Ang sakit non.
It took me a long before I recovered and consulted myself.
Parang kaseng akong dalawang tao.
Kahit ang itsura e pandalawahan.
Yung isa weak.
Yung isa naman tumutulong upang hindi matuluyan.
I am not as fresh as anyone could see in me.
Hindi ako si every day, there is a bright side within me.
Kase hindi ko ma-replenish nang buo maliban sa pagkain, o mga bagay.
Hindi ito yung inom lang ng gamot, then Ang after effect, nawala na?
A person's darkness is not as easy as it can be.
Maaring mawala, oo, pero hindi iyong just a snap.
May sakit na ba ako non?
I do not know.
But do I need help?
Maybe.
Pero hindi tao.
Kundi pangyayari.
To fix all of the wrongs and make it right.
To change the mistakes into correct ones.
To erase the bad in something good.
That will cure me.
Pero ganito talaga ang buhay.
They say you are the one making your own story.
Then if I were the author writing my own book, I would change my character into the person who is lucky with everything.
BINABASA MO ANG
Don't JUDGE Me
Non-FictionAn intrapersonal dialogue communication between me and myself. Just thoughts. Own monologue conversation with oneself.