Don't JUDGE Me

CAPACITY

Mood: 😔

Hanggang saan ko ba kaya?

Yung limit o hindi kaya abot ng aking abilidad?

Kase hindi ko alam.

Alam mo iyong ginawa mo ang makakaya mo.

Sinacrifice mo yung mga bagay na kahit papano magpapaaliwalas sa iyo?

Para lang sa bagay na importante na sa palagay mo matutungtong na sa tagumpay.

Pero hindi e.

Feeling ko nasayang lang ang lahat nang iyon.

Hindi naman maiiwasan pero yung lungkot na nadarama, hindi lang katanggap-tanggap.

I mean, I am grateful that I was able to do that.

Provide the best as I can even though if it meant something unexpected.

But hanggang doon na lang ba iyon?

May dapat pa akong i-prove na hindi lang ako basta ganito. There is more.

Kase alam kong may hihigit pa e.

Halos hindi na ako masiyahan sa ginagawa ko dahil sa letseng pag gi-give way na nararapat isaayos.

Pero ang resulta? Nakakapangsisi.

Ako na nahihiya sa sarili ko.

Ako na ang naiinggit na may mga tao that can do it more than me.

I wasted my time.

I wasted my effort.

I wasted my power.

All for nothing ba.

I want to suppress a smile to be formed but destiny just stop me from doing that.

Like imagine, spending a couple of hours, only to get things wrong?

Having my will to do the things are required but did not reach what I want.

I was in deep sorrow after knowing what I just discovered.

I look down on myself because of the mistake that I had done.

I can improve but its too late.

All were in rush.

Can I still catch up?

I just do not know the reason why I got that?

Is there something lacking?

Did I not conduct my work properly?

Why it feels unfair?

Pare-parehas lang naman na may ginagawa.

Bakit ang outcome iba-iba?.

I can strive more if I have a lot of time fixing it.

Why others have its own greatness while me?

Ang daming pagkukulang.

It was like I need to fill something to answer this problem.

Finding the right formula to make sure I get to do it properly.

Pero ano nga ba iyon?

Magtitimpi na lang ba ako?

Puwede bang hayaan namang umapaw Ang nais na ipuno?

Hindi iyong nananatili lang akong tikom sa bagay na gustong ilabas.

Ang pucha lang.

Hanggang saang extend ako magiging goods?