You're One Of Us (Inazuma Eleven!Various X Reader)

Chapter 10

Previously on Chapter 9

Endou P.O.V

L/N only ended up crying harder. I frown at the state she's in. I gently place my hand on the back of her head, pulling her close until she rested her head against my chest. I run my hand through her hair as she continues to cry. Her hand is clutching onto my jersey jacket. I bit my lips as I feel worry growing within me. What's going on with L/N? Why does she look so lost and upset?

-Heart Full Of Regrets-

Y/N P.O.V

After a while, I finally calmed down. I pull away from Endou and scoots away to create some space between us. I hug my knees closer to my chest as I stare at the floor of the caravan.

"Can't you trust us, L/N? Trust me..." he said. I feel a sense of guilt growing within me. "Trust us like we trust you. That's what friends are for, right?" He said, smiling softly at me. He trust me... they all do. But what am I doing? I'm just a traitor.

"I c-can't be t-trusted, E-Endou..." I said, trying hard not to start bawling again. He stared at me with a confused gaze. "If you put your trust in me. You'd only going to get hurt... all of you will" I said. Tears starts gathering in my eyes again.

"What are you talking about, L/N?" He asked. I bit my lips as I look away from him. I shut my eyes as I try to stop myself from crying. If I tell him the truth... it would mean that I'd have to say goodbye to Soccer forever. But if I let this lie continues, they'd only going to get hurt more. What should I do?

"You'll hate me if I tell you..." I said. I turn to look at him to see him staring at me in confusion. Tears starts to roll down my cheeks. "I don't have a choice, Endou... I don't wanna do this" I cried out.

"L/N... how would you know I'll hate you, or any of us for that matter if you refuse to tell us" he said. I place my hand on my chest feeling the lump of the necklace I had been wearing. I close my eyes momentarily before opening them to look at him.

"Let's get outside... I'll tell everyone" I said. He frowns at what I said and nod his head. I slowly stand up with him following. He walks out first, while I stand still. I shut my eyes tightly. I don't want them to get hurt. They are kind people. They don't deserve any of the bad things that I'd do if I had followed what that man desired.

I hear their voices. "What happened, Endou? Did she tell you?" Kazemaru asked. I slowly make my way out of the caravan, earning their attention. "L/N! How are you feeling? Better?" He asked, rushing over to me. His hands found their way to my shoulders.

"Do you... remember when you asked me a while ago, why I had stopped playing soccer, Kazemaru?" I asked. He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion and nod his head. "The accident... it took away everything. My father who died not long after I woke up in that hospital. A-And... my dream" I said. I lowered my gaze as I avoid making eye-contact with any of them.

"I was told that I'd never be able to play soccer again. I was paralyzed. I can't walk at all and had to use the wheelchair. There was no cure because my spinal was damaged beyond repair" I said. I hear everyone gasps at what I said. I shut my eyes as I try to stop myself from crying again.

"I was lost... and devastated at the fact I would never be able to step on the field anymore. U-Until... until they came to me" I said. Everyone is silent as they listen to me. I take a deep breath, finally deciding to put an end to this before they get even more hurt because of me.

I turn my head to look at them. "The Aliea Academy..." I said. Their eyes widen in shock at what I said. "They gave me an offer... they'd help me to be able to walk and play soccer again. On the condition that I'd work for them" I said.

"What did they make you do?" Kidou asked. I turn my head to look at him with eyes full of regrets. Tears starts gathering in my eyes. His eyes widen as he stares at me in shock. "No. D-Don't tell m-me... you were a spy?" He said, making everyone gasp at what he said.

"F-Forgive me..." I cried out, I drop on my knees as I start to cry harder. I stare at the ground as tears starts to fall from my eyes. "I just want to play soccer again. They told me I'd be able to walk again with their help. But with the condition that I need to infiltrate this team. To find a way to ensure your destruction" I said. Their eyes widen as they stare at me with a look of betrayal. While mine was filled with regrets. So is my heart.

"I was told to destroy all of your fighting spirits beyond recovery. B-But... after you showed me how kind you are. How much you care about me. In the end, I just... I-I c-c-couldn't do i-it. I'm sorry... I'm so sorry!!" I cried out.

"Now that I told you the truth... they're bound to find out. But this time, I've accepted my fate. They'd make sure that my dream to play soccer will be destroyed. But it is the karma I deserved" I said.

"That's wrong!" Endou yelled out. I flinch at his sudden outburst. I turn my head to look at him. "I always knew those aliens were bad. But I didn't know they'd be THIS evil. Making use of someone's vulnerability for their own selfish gain?!" He exclaimed. Everyone nods their heads at what he said.

Ichinose walks up to me. I flinch as he kneels in front of me, thinking he'd hit me. I just stare at him. A soft smile starts to form on his lips. He lift his hand, gently placing it on my shoulder.

"I'm not going to lie. What you said did hurt. To learn the truth of your identity as a spy. But after hearing your reason... I kinda understand your position. Neither of us would've been able to imagine how painful it would be if we have to stop playing soccer" he said. He turns to look at the others who smiles softly at me. I just stare at them.

Endou walks over to me, offering his hand. "Stand up... you don't have to kneel in front of us. We forgive you!" He said. He turned to look at the others with a huge smile on his face. "Right, everyone?" He said.

"Yes!!" They all said together. My lips starts to tremble as tears starts to stream down my cheeks. Kino walks up to me, wrapping her arms around me. I choke out a sob as I bury my face into the crook of her neck. Even after they know the truth about my true purpose... they're still willing to forgive me.

Looks like I made the right choice. I just can't bring myself to hurt these kind hearts. I wouldn't able to forgive myself if I were to destroy their lives just so I can continue to play soccer. In the end, mother was right. I shouldn't let my selfishness blind my sight for what's right.

*to be continued*