Jimin Protectors ' Book 1 '

Chapter 106 '✅'

Jimin's POV:

I'm sitting here in my room. Taehyung hyung was so angry with me when I hit that woman. This is the first time I've seen him this scared or angry. That look in his eyes - I know it more than anyone.

I used to feel scared. I'm scared even of myself. I'm scared of how clueless I am when it comes to my fear. I have no idea what I'm scared of. I'm even scared of my girlfriend. She never hurt me. She is kind and caring, and I can feel how much she loves me.

But I'm too scared to be with her alone, so I'm dragging Taemin everywhere we go. I'm scared to let my body relax and rest my head on her shoulder. It feels like my body is acting on its own.

And I don't know why. I can sleep deeply in my mother's arms without feeling threatened. My father's touch never makes me flinch. Jungkook hyung used to carry me piggyback, and I never felt that I wasn't okay with this closeness.

Taemin hugging me or putting his hand casually on my back would never catch me off guard. I feel safe around them too.

But I can't feel safe around Ara. My body keeps rejecting her touch, but I can hold her hand. It really warms my heart.

She asked me about my past. I'm not ready to share this. She will never look at me the same if she knows it. I'm fine now. I have a family who loves me dearly, and I'm not the abandoned kid anymore. Why does she need to know when it already has nothing to do with my present?

I'm afraid to share this with my parents or any of my hyungs. I don't want them to hate Ara. I love her so much. Even if I don't feel safe with her, she keeps my heart fluttering.

I know this is one of the rules - to not keep a secret for myself. But I can't afford them taking her from me.

This last month, she used to have dinner here with my family. I invited her once, but she kept asking to come here once in a while. I feel like she is monitoring my family, especially Tae hyung.

She is too smart. She knows I got hurt somehow, but I didn't tell her the truth, so she keeps linking the wrong dots about my family when they act unreasonable to her. The cold silent treatment Tae hyung gives is always suspicious to her.

She even found the different food he is eating somehow not normal and evidence of something bad.

My poor hyung just doesn't eat spicy food while my family can munch chili as a snack, so Omma prepares his food separately to avoid him feeling sick.

It's cute how she tries to protect me. She needs to believe that my family would never hurt me, but I'm letting her. If she wants to watch them, let her. They have nothing to hide.

But what really worries me is Appa. He is giving Ara his scary look every time she is here. I asked him so many times to treat her well, but he keeps saying he is protecting me so she won't think to hurt me ever.

Why are they all trying to protect me? I can protect myself... or I can't! I failed so many times to do this.

I lost a lot because I'm weak, someone who can't run away at the right time. Why didn't I run before that night?! Am I the reason for my misery?!

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Jin's POV:

Tae finally slept now. This will be a long journey, but we can do this.

I left his room and found IU sitting in the living room, waiting for me.

IU: "How is he now?!" I smiled softly.

Jin: "He is fine, IU. Don't worry, he's just sleeping now."

IU: "Thank you, Jin Oppa. I don't know what I would do if you didn't come." I sat beside her, patting her shoulder.

Jin: "It's okay. You don't need to thank me."

IU: "Can I ask you for one more favor?"

Jin: "What is it?"

IU: "Jimin .. You didn't see what he did to the poor girl .. he really hit Yun Hee. Literally , you can't imagine how aggressive he was with her. He's never been this violent. Tae scolded him hard, and he is now in his room. Can you check on him? If it's me, I will take him in my arms and won't tell him he did wrong. So please go comfort him, but don't forget to tell him what he did was not acceptable. He pulled the poor girl's hair so hard it almost came out in his grasp."

Jin: "Jimin hit her! Wow." She nodded, tiredness leaking from her gaze.

Jin: "Okay, don't worry. I'm checking on him." I stood up, heading to his room. When I was behind his door, I could hear his sobs. Is he crying?!

I knocked on the door, and when I didn't get any reply, I opened the door slowly to find him curled on his bed, crying his heart out.

Jin: "Hey, Jiminie, what happened? Why are you crying?" I pulled him to my chest. His cry intensified even more. He wrapped his arms around me. He didn't stop or try to talk.

Jin: "Are you sad that Tae scolded you?" I'm trying to rub his back to soothe his sadness, but he didn't say a word again. I just gave up. It seems today is the day to calm the kids down.

I lay down, pulling him to lay on my chest while I kept saying sweet things to calm him down.

It took almost 30 minutes for him to calm down.

Jin: "Little one, are you okay now? What is it? Tell me." He hid his face on my neck.

Jimin: "I did this to myself. I should have run away before that night."