Jimin Protectors ' Book 1 '

Chapter 107 '✅'

Jin's POV:

What is he saying? What brought this up now? Did he talk to Tae about something?!

Jin: "Hey, hey, look at me." I held his face in my palms, trying to make him look into my eyes.

Jin: "What brought this up now?!" He never mentioned this incident since... Okay, I can't break down now. I need to hold myself together for him.

He pulled back, wiping his tears. He seems like he is holding back to hide something.

Jimin: "Sorry, hyung. I didn't mean to worry you. It just crossed my mind. Is Taehyung hyung still angry with me?" He is giving me his fake smile that doesn't reach his eyes. He is not the one who will master a lie.

I held his chin to make him look me in the eyes again.

Jin: "What is your main rule again?!" I don't want to force him, but I have no option but to be stern with him to get him to talk. He can't hide. I will not let him do what Tae did. We need to fix this now.

He bit his lower lip with nervousness.

Jin: "I need an answer, Jimin." I tried to make it more stern to get him to talk.

Jimin: "Not keeping secrets," he said in a whisper, but I caught it.

Jin: "Did you tell any of your hyungs or your parents about it?!" He shook his head, breaking eye contact.

I held his hand in mine, assuring him that he can share what is bothering him.

Jin: "You know you need to share this, Jiminie. Nothing we can't fix together." He shook his head aggressively hissing his face behind his palms ..

Jimin: "You will... you will take her from me. I don't want this. Please, I..." What is he talking about? Is Ara hurting him? Why would we take her away?!

Jin: "We will not take any decision that will hurt you. You are not a kid anymore, so any decision that should be applied should be approved by you. It's your life. I just need to know so I can guide you if you need any advice."

He looked me in the eyes to make sure I'm honest with my words.

Jimin: "Promise! You are not taking Ara away." What if she is hurting him! How can I promise him now?!

Jin: "If she is not hurting you, I will not." He frowned, crossing his arms above his chest.

Jimin: "See! That's what I'm talking about. You will take her away."

Jin: "So she is hurting you! Jimin... what is going on?!" Now he is nervous again.

Jimin: "No, she is not hurting me. The thing is... I don't know how to explain this, hyung, but I'm the problem. I swear she never intends to hurt me, but I..."

He couldn't explain what he wanted to say.

Jin: "Okay, okay, calm down. I won't take her away from you, but you need to tell me what is bothering you, and we will work this out together, hmm?" He met my eyes .. trying to assure if i'm serious with my words ..

Jimin: "I like when I hold her hand, but... but my body really gets tense when she touches me further. I hate it. I don't feel safe around her. I... when she accidentally puts her hand on my back or my knees, any mere touch will make me react aggressively toward her. I pushed her many times without even intending to do it, but I really love her. I just... what's wrong with me, hyung?!"

He is there already. I know this moment will come. He knows it. I thought he was clueless about what he is going through, but he is just clueless about why he is feeling like this.

I smiled at him. The first step to heal - you need to know that there is something wrong, so you can fix it.

He was confused with my reaction.

Jimin: "Why are you smiling, hyung?!"

Jin: "First, good news - no one is taking Ara from you. She is a good girl. I watched her, and she really loves you."

Jimin: "But I'm hurting her, hyung. The look in her eyes when I flinch or set myself apart from her to avoid her touch - she really looks sad, and I couldn't control my body. Why is my body not reacting the same as with you guys?"

I pulled him in a tight hug. He really doesn't know the difference between us and her.

Jin: "Okay, the talk we are going to have now is not that easy. Are you fine now, or should we wait for you to be more relaxed?" I will mention the night with that fucker, and I don't know how he will react to this.

Jimin: "I'm fine, I swear, but please tell me how to control my body."

Jin: "Okay, we are not the same as Ara. You take us as your brothers, and Yoongi already took your father's role. IU is your mother. Your mind already sank this well. You were flinching when you first came here, but by the time your mind believed that nothing was wrong with our touch, every time we got near you, not a single touch turned to anything further. Your mind rested assured about this fact.

But... but Ara's touch is something else. You love her in a way that at some point her touch will turn to something you went through before, but in a horrible way - the night that started all this."

He got tense at the mention of that night.

Jimin: "Am I... am I going to feel the same with her?" His voice broke, trying to get what I'm saying.

Jin: "No, no, you got me wrong, Jiminie. I'm just explaining why your body reacts differently with her. You won't feel anything like what you went through. It's too early for this, but you need to start now to cure these bad feelings."

Jimin: "I'm trying, I swear, but my body is not cooperating with me." I tapped his cheek, smiling to assure him.

Jin: "Jiminie, you need professional help - a doctor who can help you to get away from those feelings." his eyes widened in surprise

Jimin: "Is there a pill that I can take to stop these feelings?!" I chuckled at his question. Despite how smart he is, he can study hard and pass all his exams with an A+, but he missed a lot of logical info in life. That fucker locked him for almost 7 years. He missed a lot.

Jin: "No, Jiminie , but he has his way to cure your pain."

Jimin: "And I will feel safe around Ara?"

Jin: "You will at some point, but it takes time, and it is not easy at all. You will be talking to the doctor in frequent sessions. You need to open up to your deepest fears. It is not an easy journey." He nodded in excitement

Jimin: "I can do this if he will cure my body and I will get away from my fears."

It's good sometimes to be naive. Braveness sometimes comes to those who don't know the real danger they are facing. At least he is not running away before giving it a try.

Jimin: "Can... can we take Tae hyung with us? He still has fear in his eyes too. Why didn't he try to go to a doctor to help him too?!"