Jimin Protectors ' Book 1 '

Chapter 113 '✅'

Namjoon's POV:

Jungkook left the room, leaving me with a scared Tae. He's really scared of me. This is the first time since we ran away from that hell that I'm using my strictness with him. I know how sensitive he is, so I always try to be gentle when dealing with him. But things are going out of control.

I sit beside him on the bed. He was about to stand up, but I held his hand to keep him where he is.

Namjoon: "I'm not going to hurt you. You know that, right?!"

He's not looking me in the eyes, so I hold his chin, forcing him to meet mine.

He shook his head lightly.

Namjoon: "Speak up, Tae. Let me hear you." He hesitated but answered ..

Taehyung: "Yes, I know, hyung."

His voice is shaking. I don't even know if he really means his words, but I have to keep going. I have been waiting longer than I should.

Namjoon: "What are you going to do next, Tae?!"

He frowned his eyebrows, confused with my question.

Taehyung: "What do you mean?!"

Namjoon: "With what is happening with you, Tae. How are you going to handle yourself this time?! How many days do you need to lock yourself away so you can consider that you need to stop?! How many foodless days are you going to go through so you can realize you are about to fall?" He wiped his face with his palms and shook his head ..

Taehyung: "Hyung... that's not what I'm thinking about now... did... Did you know what happened with Jimin?! He..."

Again... he's doing this again... it's not about him... he's trying to save someone else when he's already drowning. He's not even listening to me.

Namjoon: "STOP this... we are not going to solve Jimin's problems. Jimin has his parents to worry about him, and guess what? Jimin has his brain to know that he needs to heal. That kid already knows he has something to do to stop his own pain. If you are so worried about him, start to fix yourself too."

His fear is now long gone, and nothing is there but anger.

Taehyung: "There is nothing I can do. I'M UNFIXABLE. IF YOU CAN'T TAKE THIS, SO YOU CAN FUCK OFF."

He's ready to throw fists right now.

I stand where he stood, beating his height, so he knows who will have broken bones if he starts to get out of control.

Namjoon: "Don't curse in front of me, and sit down."

He realized what he said when he met my gaze. He took a step back. I know how much he respects me. His anger just took control for a moment.

Namjoon: "I said, sit down."

He did, trying to keep his anger in control.

Namjoon: "Since we ran out of that hell, you kept me out, Tae. I respect the space you need. I never interfere in your life. That doesn't mean I wasn't watching you. If Yoongi hyung considers himself Jimin's father, I consider myself yours, even if you don't see me the same way. But I just have that feeling.

I was happy when you found a safe spot with Kook, and you really get along with him. But he's your dongsaeng. Even if he loves you the most and cares for you the most, he won't be the right one to guide you. And that's where my mistake is. I let this go for longer than it should have been. You chose him because he has no power over you. He can't force you to do something you don't want to. Even if he knew what you should do, you never listened. How many nights did you kick him out because he tried to knock some sense into your mind?! But he has nothing to do but try each time he gets a chance to talk to you.

You wasted more time than you should have, Tae, and I'm not letting you ruin your life anymore. The thought that you are UNFIXABLE is not true. You are afraid to face the effort you need to do so you can heal. But I'm here with you, holding your hand. Even if I need to sleep on the floor beside your bed again and wait in front of the door for your bath again, stop shutting me out, Tae, and let me in. Help me to help you. Take my hand and I will fight with you."

The fear is back in his eyes, and he's a crying mess now.

He keeps shaking his head in disagreement.

Taehyung: "No, hyung, please... it won't work."

I pulled him into a tight hug. The fact that he's a grown-up man didn't change that he's a little child in my hold.

Namjoon: "Did I ever let you down, Tae?!"

He shook his head in my chest, tightening his hold on my shirt.

Namjoon: "So let your guard down this time. I will catch you. I will never leave your side. I promise. Whatever will happen, we are in this together."

Taehyung: "Is... is Jimin really agreed to see a doctor?!"

He's still holding me tight, hiding his face in my chest.

Namjoon: "Yes, he is. And he was pacing the last 2 days in front of your room so he can tell you that you need to come with him, so you can be fixed together."

Now he let go of his hold and looked at me with his puffy eyes.

Taehyung: "He wants to go with me?!"

Namjoon: "Yes, he does. Our brave Jiminie even made your Jin hyung agree to take professional help."

Now his eyes widened.

Taehyung: "Jin hyung!!! What did I miss... I was out just for two days."

Namjoon: "You missed 6 meals and a lot of water... Now come with me so you can have some of what you missed. You need big bum-bum slaps for all those meal skipping you did."

I playfully slapped his ass.

He pushed me away from him with that boxy smile I was missing the most.

Taehyung: "HYUNG!!"